pure motives // storage

[raiden]

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he was stuck between a rock and a hard place. he longed for a relationship like the one previously described, but he knew he wasn't worth it. why would he be? an individual who is kind and caring would be wasted on someone like cav. he's a monster. he grew up covered in the blood of innocent people. the feeling of bones snapping in his mouth and under his paws were lullabies to his clouded mind. pleas and screams were grand symphonies playing in the background of every conquest. he found his footing in dominating others; he only knew how to take control. he'd laugh as disheveled creatures crawled away from his looming form in attempt to flee. he found amusement only in battle. he didn't deserve anyone's affection. it was only recently did he realize everything he's been taught, everything he's done was wrong. only recently did he realize how sick he really is. only recently did he realize how hazy his view on the world is. eat or be eaten, he was taught. every man for themselves, they shouted. they will bow at our feet, they chanted. i will be the sword and shield. they will tremble before my might, he thought to himself, a small smile parting his lips as he gazed over the tattered and torn, newly claimed land. the thought of what he has done, what he has become make him sick to his stomach. everything that his family- no. he no loner wished to call them his family. his tribe, his mother and father... uncle and siblings too- they're no longer important. their relevance to him faded along with the life from their eyes. their perverted, distorted teachings will die with them. locking it away in his heart, cav decided to try and start over. he has no intentions of forgetting what he's done nor does he wish for forgiveness. he doesn't deserve forgiveness. being forgiven doesn't right the wrongs- it doesn't bring those who died back to life. he didn't deserve anything.

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[div style="font-family:calibri;font-size:10px;text-align:justify;line-height:140%;text-transform:lowercase;word-spacing:-0.5px;letter-spacing:0.5px;"]guess who's profile is under construction??
mine binch
breif info:
- name's raiden, nicknames r gucci
- any pronouns
- i play cronas in the typhoon, renegadeanthem in tanglewood and maekoda in the rosebloods (all open to plot)
- kiddo and casphian are pure and wonderful people don't @ me
- site married to ririchiyo <3333 they're amazing and lovely and aaaa <333333333
- i'm heart eyes for anything and everything science related
- pisces and infp
- learning french (possibly japanese later on) so any tips and tricks are very much welcomed
- ask for social medias and other sites i'm on

xoxo

Spoiler:

salut et beinvenue !! i'm raiden but feel free to call me whatever you like. i'm an eighteen year old living in the u.s and if i'm being honest, i have no idea what i'm doing. i'm still in school so that usually takes up most of my time (as well as sleeping cos hell ye sleeping's rad). anyways, uh, pick your pronouns as i don't have any i identify as more than the other. i'm a pretty quiet and reserved person who avoids large groups of people at all costs. most social interactions are hard for me though i can handle one or two people max without feeling overwhelmed. so! if you want to be my friend, the best way to approach me is privately, not inviting me to group threads (that's just how i function i'm doing my best to get better so please be patient with me). um,, i live and breathe anime and manga and i'm most definitely open to any recommendations you have! i also play moderate loads of videogames and i'm in other fandoms too~ coughcoughvoltroncoughcough. um,, i also very much adore anything and everything related to science and i could talk about it for hours <333 i'm infp, pisces and although i don't know very much about it or taken a quiz, i'm pretty sure i'm a hufflepuff cx touching on the subject of science again briefly, career wise, i'm hoping to become an aerospace engineer and work alongside nasa. i absolutely love machines/robots (this is probably where my love for mecha anime comes from as well as shows/movies like transformers and voltron) and building and taking things apart as well as outer space so this career will definitely quench my thirst cx however, if that doesn't work out, my back up career is forensic toxicology bc heck yeah chemistry. um.... my favourite animals are the cheetah and orca (please don't make me choose between them i'll cry) and my favourite colour is purple~ um... yeah! i like memes and jokes (dark humour too lel). and uh, i guess another thing to note is i'm learning french?? i'm enjoying myself learning it but any tips and tricks are very much welcomed and appreciated. after mastering french, i would also like to learn japanese but that's a bit down the road. oh and um, this segue is super bad but bear with me! i absolutely have to give a shoutout to my best friend [member=178]kiddo[/member] whom i've known for a super long time now. she's introduced me to several things (one of which is k-pop tyvm i'm still in love) and i trust her more than i trust anyone, even myself. she's always been there for me and i really can't thank her enough. she's a goddamn gift from above ok ok. and of course i have to give my site significant other a spot here too~ @ririchiyo is a lovely person who really needs to stop hurting delilah chiyo im seriously going to take her from you cries deserves all the love and affection <333 they're super funny and overall just??? amazing??? a legend.

anyways, uh. i have characters too ig but they're p lame. you can catch me in the typhoon with cronas, tanglewood with renegadeanthem and the rosebloods with maekoda. i'm on other sites and social medias so just ask about those if you're curious or something. idk man.

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