pure motives // storage

[raiden]

[align=center][div style="border-width:0px; width: 60%; text-align: justify; font-family: arial; font-size: 9pt; line-height: 110%;word-spacing:-1px;"]He was stuck between a rock and a hard place. He longed for a relationship like the one previously described, but he knew he wasn't worth it. Why would he be? An individual who is kind and caring would be wasted on someone like Cav. He's a monster. He grew up covered in the blood of innocent people. The feeling of bones snapping in his mouth and under his paws were lullabies to his clouded mind. Pleas and screams were grand symphonies playing in the background of every conquest. He found his footing in dominating others; he only knew how to take control. He'd laugh as disheveled creatures crawled away from his looming form in attempt to flee. He found amusement only in battle. He didn't deserve anyone's affection. It was only recently did he realize everything he's been taught, everything he's done was wrong. Only recently did he realize how sick he really is. Only recently did he realize how hazy his view on the world is. Eat or be eaten, he was taught. Every man for themselves, they shouted. They will bow at our feet, they chanted. I will be the sword and shield. They will tremble before my might, he thought to himself, a small smile parting his lips as he gazed over the tattered and torn, newly claimed land. The thought of what he has done, what he has become make him sick to his stomach. Everything that his family- no. He no loner wished to call them his family. His tribe, his mother and father... Uncle and siblings too- they're no longer important. Their relevance to him faded along with the life from their eyes. Their perverted, distorted teachings will die with them. Locking it away in his heart, Cav decided to try and start over. He has no intentions of forgetting what he's done nor does he wish for forgiveness. He doesn't deserve forgiveness. Being forgiven doesn't right the wrongs- it doesn't bring those who died back to life. He didn't deserve anything.

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&& AND THE WALLS KEPT TUMBLING DOWN / general
• ISIDORE STELLAN ;; DOESN'T PARTICULARLY CARE FOR NICKNAMES
— just kidding. he lowkey likes nicknames, especially clever or sentimental ones
• cismale ;; [♂] ;; he, him, his
• thirteen months ;; unknown mental age
— august 11th
— leo
— ages realistically
• the kingdom of aethiopia ;; general
— official titles: -
— unofficial titles: -
&& IN THE CITY THAT WE LOVE / physical
• dom. feline [birth ; main] ;; mental health: 100% ;; physical health: 100% ;; i. iii.
— isidore, for starters, is a large feline. he's a couple centimeters taller than the average male american bobtail though has the same stocky build. powerful thighs and broad shoulders, a possible symbol of brute force. continuing on, he has rounded ears with long whiskers and a distinctive, almost angular face. spherical eyes are yellow then blend into a warm green as they draw closer to the iris. hidden within his mouth are a pair of sharp but very sensitive, one inch fangs just behind the canines in his top row of teeth. long brown fur with black marble tabby markings, he has a sort of lion's mane around his neck, back of his neck and cheekbone areas. large paws and a short tail, he has a single piercing on his right ear that is barely noticeable if he doesn't draw attention to it.
— injury(s): -
— illness(s): -
&& GREY CLOUDS ROLL OVER THE HILLS / personality
• ISFP-A ;; CAREGIVER ;; GRYFFERIN ;; DAUNTLESS ;; NEUTRAL GOOD
• GENTLE GIANT ;; CULTURED BADASS ;; ZERO-APPROVAL GAMBIT ;; NOBLE DEMON ;; GOOD IS NOT SOFT ;; BRUISER WITH A SOFT CENTER ;; PAPA WOLF
— isidore is a man of few words. it's uncommon that he would speak without first being spoken to, though he enjoys conversations. when it comes down to it he's not the best at initiating the conversation - being only a tad bit shy - but he warms up to others swiftly if they work with him. disciplined and diligent, isidore can definitely come off as aloof, but that's just his face as he usually has either an agitated or disinterested expression on his face. though his features may not seem there, his mind is reeling with thoughts and fully engaging himself in which ever scenario he may be thrown into. brave and cunning, he would be one of the first people to charge into battle along with the forces he may have dispatched; being a strong believer in a captain being nothing without his crew. he would never send someone out to do something he wouldn't do himself. with that being said, he's just and equal with those he comes across, even if they're being difficult. isidore's ability to think rationally in tough situations is possible what kept him alive for so long. he would need some time to collect himself in times of chaos, but he'll eventually could be found back on his feet sending out orders. slightly mischievous but very cunning, he enjoys jokes and puns way more than he should and although he doesn't outwardly ask for it, small doses of affection would be lovely. based on first impressions, it's clear to see he's efficient when killing others, but there is no mistaking the evident but faint gentleness and empathy in his otherwise stoic eyes.
— loyal ;; compassionate ;; diligent ;; mischievous ;; authoritative ;; parental
— cunning ;; loving ;; friendly ;; accepting ;; courageous ;; ambivert ;; callous
&& BRINGING DARKNESS FROM ABOVE / relationships
• panromantic, demisexual
•  single / [ 0 ] crushes / [ 0 ] "maybe" crushes
— not actively seeking relationships
— medium to impress
— helpless romantic / seemingly immune to flirting / however if done properly, will throw him off guard and turn him into a burning mess
• npc xx npc ;; gen. 1
— siblings: -
— children: -
• trusts: -
• ½ of shiphere ⅓ of shiphere ¼ of shiphere ⅕ of shiphere
&& AND IF WE CLOSE OUR EYES / interaction
• NEVER HURT AN INNOCENT ;; ONLY A FLESH WOUND
• hard physically / hard mentally / will not start unnecessary fights / will end fights
• open to minor injuries and plotting / closed to death, maim, torture and major injuries
• attack in bold maroon / can powerplay nonviolent/peaceful acts / message main to plot
• powers:
conjuration |★★★★★
poisonous fangs |★★★✰✰
— paralysis in limb/entire body; not fatal
super senses |★✰✰✰✰
&& DOES IT ALMOST FEEL LIKE NOTHING CHANGED AT ALL / misc.
• ;; [url=http://]heartchart ;; [url=http://]plotting thread
• has a huge sweet tooth
• face and voice claim: idris elba
• ic opinions <3