I KEEP FAILING - private; ROY

[Roy Mustang]

Roy knew what it was like to feel anger and confusion brew inside his chest, he felt the same exact way the moment he woke up in Ascendants. While Carolina hasn't been here for a long time, while Roy on the other hand has been enduring this new life for three months, it was still frustrating for the bobcat. It made him feel like a failure to his unit, country, family, and friends. It was like everything he worked for- his goal to become Fuhrer of Amestris, help bring Ishval back onto it's feet, were for nothing. All of those goals went down the drain the moment he stepped foot on the activated array, a mistake on his part. And now, he's still learning and adjusting to this life with each passing day. It's a slow process to adjust, Roy wasn't able to accept his fate easily. This kind of change, it's not something that can be adjusted in one night, as that's simply impossible to do. It's hard to forget the people you've left behind, as well as goals and other important things.

When Roy first arrived in the Ascendants, he was completely alone. Carolina was lucky, when she arrived, there was someone she recognized. Even though she originally attacked him, it was better that she was here with a colleague than just herself. Roy surely would have lost it if Riza didn't eventually show up, as well as Hughes. While his first reunitement with Riza was short, she wasn't gone forever, as she surely would follow him into hell. This place might as well be their hell, it's like Truth is punishing them for getting caught in the middle of an activated human transmutation circle. Stuck as animals, forced to abandon their human lives to live out this life they weren't expecting. While he knows that there's no way for him or Riza to return to humans, maybe Agent Washington, Carolina, Church and Caboose can find a way for themselves. Even though Roy doesn't trust them entirely, he's fully aware of how hard this situation is for them. Perhaps it can be better for them than it is for him and Riza, it probably wouldn't be good if they too discovered there's no way to be human again.

Roy was padding through the Ascendants territory, with a slight limp in his step. It almost seemed like getting used to padding around on four legs turned out to be useless- when he lost his back right leg a few weeks ago. What some people don't know is that it was self-inflicted- the Flame Alchemist got caught in a rock slide, his back right leg getting shattered and stuck under a large boulder. Roy hates to think about it, as it reminds him of the feral, unfamiliar animal instinct that he experienced that day. That animal instinct, it was something that Roy didn't have as a human, and he didn't know how to properly react to it during the whole ordeal. Now, he knows better for the future, and has to continue living on with the consequences of his panicked mind.

Roy came to a pause in his steps when his blue gaze landed on the golden leopard, who was emerged into the water, staring at a fish she just flung to shore. He glanced at the fish for a moment, watching it flop around, gills crying out for the desperate need for water. His gaze was quickly torn off of the prey she just caught, and onto her. Roy was well aware how she felt about him and the other Ascendants members- she didn't seem to be a fan of them at all. He certainly hasn't forgotten how she disrespected him. Ears drawing back to his cranium, the Flame Alchemist decided to speak up. "Now now, you can make this far easier for yourself and your three comrades if you'd just tell us what you're hiding." He said with an authoritative tone, eyes narrowing slightly. Roy had a feeling as if this attempt to make her talk wasn't going to work, but it was worth a try. Roy couldn't help it but be curious what they aren't telling them. He wants to know, he'll find a way to somehow figure it out.