I lost my dreams in this disaster
Kayn — Male — Snowbound — Warrior — Difficult
(tl;dr Kayn lost his shit and killed his mother, Raine. With permission from [member=246]Sweetopia[/member] !! Only the last three paragraphs are really important for replying, especially if you want to skip any gore.)
Two orbs pierced the darkness of night, one a sparkling azure that matched the beauty of chilled arctic water and the other a deep crimson that could only be described as a pool of blood. There was sentience behind the pair of eyes. Intelligence, but also something more primal. Something more feral. Bestial, even. The gaze was that of a creature which wanted nothing more than to kill. To consume. To devour. All it would take was one look at the lupine's expression to understand that reasoning with such a creature was impossible. One couldn't bargain with an animal hellbent on destroying everything in its path. Making deals with the devil was one thing, but there would be no compromise coming from a true monster. And that was exactly what the black wolf was.
The rhythmic crunch of snow underfoot as the wolf darted forward sounded through the night with only the company of the howling arctic winds to break the silence. It's head was low to the ground, head intensely focusing on what was in front of it while a duel-colored gaze flicked about erratically. It was hunting. Not with vision, nor scent, but with something far more irresistible to the creature. Aura sight. The wolf was looking for anything at all that could satisfy the aching hunger that had built within it's very core. It wanted more. More. More. It was never enough. The crunch of bones and the sickeningly delicous taste of crimson ichor was nothing compared to the ecstasy of devouring another beings soul. It was such an overpowering feeling that the desire to end such crippling starvation was the only thing swirling aggressively within its thoughts. And a viscous creature with a one track mind was a very dangerous thing.
Finally, the black lupine finally stopped in its tracks, skidding to a halt. It's eyes had focused on something in the distance, impossible to see with regular vision and far too much distance to see who the owner was. It had seen what it was prowling for in the dark of night, an aura. It was several shades of beautiful blue, sparking, pulsing, and convulsing with electrical charge. A static ridden soul nestled within the physical form of whoever the delicious looking aura belonged to. Recognition of the hunt having progressed to the next stage flickered in the heterochromatic gaze of the beast ast it launched into a full sprint towards the newly deigned target. The surrounding snow became an unintelligible blur as the wolf darted with hunger towards the aura, and a moment later the lupine seemed to finish. An invisible hunter with only its smell and the sounds of its paws padding across the snow to reveal it.
As the owner of the aura came into sight, the beasts maw parted in anticipation. Saliva dripped from the invisible lupine as it slowed its pace down, turning into a methodical stalking instead of the reckless sprint from earlier. The prey was a little blue lynx which seemed currently oblivious to the wolf's presence. As for what the feline was doing out alone in the dark, only she would know, but the frenzied lupine of darkest skies hadn't given that a second thought. Mind shattering hunger was the only thing upon its mind. It was more than a simple addiction. It was a requirement to continue existing. The wolf had to feast. And so it did, finally bursting forward to tackle the feline to the ground. There was a sudden squeal of surprise, but it was very quickly silenced as the wolf's maw clamped shut upon the feline's throat. With a forceful rip it tore its maw left and right, shredding the flesh that contained the intoxicating crimson lifeblood. Only, even as the lynx fell silent, the wolf did not stop. It snapped its maw shut once again, snapping the neck of the creature if only to hear the sound of the bones breaking. Claws shredded the side of the twitching feline despite the effort required to do so, messily exposing insides never meant to feel the bite of the frigid arctic air. The wolf's claws weren't supposed to be used as a weapon ideally, but the berserk creature clearly didn't care for this fact as it ripped away at the now lifeless lynx. Blood coated the back of the creatures throat and it raised its head to look up at the moon, releasing a bone chilling howl.
The familiar feeling of a soul slipping from the mortal coil to join his own lifeforce hadn't come though. It was an empty feeling, a hunger that should have been sated, but hadn't. The act of feasting upon the feline had come with its own enjoyment, the crimson ichor called blood being absolutely addicting, yet that was not what the wolf had come for. It wanted to devour her essence, eat the very thing she truly was beyond the marionette of bones and tendons. Flesh and blood simply wasn't enough for a creature that had become reliant on the rush of a new soul joining with its own. The lupine turned its head from the sky to look down at the lynx, as if looking to see if perhaps she had somehow survived the assault and that was why it hadn't been able to devour her essence. Upon looking at the blue lynx in a closer inspection though, realization dawned upon the near-feral creature. Its eyes dilated in surprise, maw parting in confusion even as it dripped with blood. Then, suddenly, reality snapped back and everything went black.
Kayn awoke shivering in the snow, pulling himself into a tight ball the best he could despite his large physiology. His head pounded like a dull war drum, and that awful nighmare... As the midnight wolf came to properly, the drowsiness slowly clearing up, he tasted the familiar metallic taste of blood upon his tongue. The scent of the crimson liquid seemed to permate the air as well, but he felt physically fine himself. And he was out in the snow rather than the comfortable den of the caverns. Kayn struggled to recall the details of the seemingly alien nightmare, images flashing through his mind as sharply as memories that felt like another person. Slowly Kayn's eyes widened, and he immediately stood to his paws. The wolf scanned the nearby area frantically before suddenly stopping, body going rigid at the sight his eyes fell upon. A lifeless corpse. A blue lynx. Raine. Kayn tentatively approached, shaking as he did, but not from the frigid bite of the cold air. "M-Mom?" he called out, voice quaking much like the rest of his body. No response. The black wolf began to tear up at the realization. The memories of the previous night clicked into place and Kayn knew all he needed to. He knew. It was more than he ever wanted to know. It shattered him, collapsing to the ground in tears.
Kayn didn't know for how long he was there crying, alone in the stinging cold with tears in his eyes, but eventually he stood to his paws. He had to clean himself. He was coated in blood, both inside and out. There was a thousand things running through his head, but he couldn't risk his place in Snowbound. They'd exile him without question or worse if they knew. Ecto was still here. Then again, was it better if he left? The wolf shook the thought from his head. Now wasn't the time to decide that. Later he might leave his sister in the capable of hands of those in Snowbound to avoid hurting her, but for now he needed to remove as much suspicion as he could. The lupine conjured up some bowls of water to wash his pelt clean of the stains he'd received the night before. It took a little while and the slicing cold air had made it rather uncomfortable, painful even, but when he finally finished cleaning himself he laid beside the fallen form of his adopted mother. Tears welled up once again, and again he broke when faced with the consequences of his actions.
When his fur was suitably dry, the wolf shakily stood up and released a mournful howl to hopefully get the attention of anyone within earshot. Kayn was now violently shivering from being out in the cold so long. Even with his thick fur the cut of the freezing temperatures had taken its toll upon the wolf. He would probably need medical assistance following the events to prevent any major issues from coming up, but truthfully that hadn't crossed the wolf's mind in the moment. Honestly, he probably would have been fine if the cold took his life. Or he would have been if the death would stay permament. No, he was condemned to live with everything that he done whether he wanted to or not. This... This was just another notch upon the endless list of things he'd done. Only, this time, Kayn truly regretted what he'd done. He hated himself. More than he had ever hated himself before. The black wolf only hoped he could keep his composure when the rest of Snowbound came running, but he'd already begun crying once again at the cruel memories he was now forced to see when he closed his eyes.
Two orbs pierced the darkness of night, one a sparkling azure that matched the beauty of chilled arctic water and the other a deep crimson that could only be described as a pool of blood. There was sentience behind the pair of eyes. Intelligence, but also something more primal. Something more feral. Bestial, even. The gaze was that of a creature which wanted nothing more than to kill. To consume. To devour. All it would take was one look at the lupine's expression to understand that reasoning with such a creature was impossible. One couldn't bargain with an animal hellbent on destroying everything in its path. Making deals with the devil was one thing, but there would be no compromise coming from a true monster. And that was exactly what the black wolf was.
The rhythmic crunch of snow underfoot as the wolf darted forward sounded through the night with only the company of the howling arctic winds to break the silence. It's head was low to the ground, head intensely focusing on what was in front of it while a duel-colored gaze flicked about erratically. It was hunting. Not with vision, nor scent, but with something far more irresistible to the creature. Aura sight. The wolf was looking for anything at all that could satisfy the aching hunger that had built within it's very core. It wanted more. More. More. It was never enough. The crunch of bones and the sickeningly delicous taste of crimson ichor was nothing compared to the ecstasy of devouring another beings soul. It was such an overpowering feeling that the desire to end such crippling starvation was the only thing swirling aggressively within its thoughts. And a viscous creature with a one track mind was a very dangerous thing.
Finally, the black lupine finally stopped in its tracks, skidding to a halt. It's eyes had focused on something in the distance, impossible to see with regular vision and far too much distance to see who the owner was. It had seen what it was prowling for in the dark of night, an aura. It was several shades of beautiful blue, sparking, pulsing, and convulsing with electrical charge. A static ridden soul nestled within the physical form of whoever the delicious looking aura belonged to. Recognition of the hunt having progressed to the next stage flickered in the heterochromatic gaze of the beast ast it launched into a full sprint towards the newly deigned target. The surrounding snow became an unintelligible blur as the wolf darted with hunger towards the aura, and a moment later the lupine seemed to finish. An invisible hunter with only its smell and the sounds of its paws padding across the snow to reveal it.
As the owner of the aura came into sight, the beasts maw parted in anticipation. Saliva dripped from the invisible lupine as it slowed its pace down, turning into a methodical stalking instead of the reckless sprint from earlier. The prey was a little blue lynx which seemed currently oblivious to the wolf's presence. As for what the feline was doing out alone in the dark, only she would know, but the frenzied lupine of darkest skies hadn't given that a second thought. Mind shattering hunger was the only thing upon its mind. It was more than a simple addiction. It was a requirement to continue existing. The wolf had to feast. And so it did, finally bursting forward to tackle the feline to the ground. There was a sudden squeal of surprise, but it was very quickly silenced as the wolf's maw clamped shut upon the feline's throat. With a forceful rip it tore its maw left and right, shredding the flesh that contained the intoxicating crimson lifeblood. Only, even as the lynx fell silent, the wolf did not stop. It snapped its maw shut once again, snapping the neck of the creature if only to hear the sound of the bones breaking. Claws shredded the side of the twitching feline despite the effort required to do so, messily exposing insides never meant to feel the bite of the frigid arctic air. The wolf's claws weren't supposed to be used as a weapon ideally, but the berserk creature clearly didn't care for this fact as it ripped away at the now lifeless lynx. Blood coated the back of the creatures throat and it raised its head to look up at the moon, releasing a bone chilling howl.
The familiar feeling of a soul slipping from the mortal coil to join his own lifeforce hadn't come though. It was an empty feeling, a hunger that should have been sated, but hadn't. The act of feasting upon the feline had come with its own enjoyment, the crimson ichor called blood being absolutely addicting, yet that was not what the wolf had come for. It wanted to devour her essence, eat the very thing she truly was beyond the marionette of bones and tendons. Flesh and blood simply wasn't enough for a creature that had become reliant on the rush of a new soul joining with its own. The lupine turned its head from the sky to look down at the lynx, as if looking to see if perhaps she had somehow survived the assault and that was why it hadn't been able to devour her essence. Upon looking at the blue lynx in a closer inspection though, realization dawned upon the near-feral creature. Its eyes dilated in surprise, maw parting in confusion even as it dripped with blood. Then, suddenly, reality snapped back and everything went black.
Kayn awoke shivering in the snow, pulling himself into a tight ball the best he could despite his large physiology. His head pounded like a dull war drum, and that awful nighmare... As the midnight wolf came to properly, the drowsiness slowly clearing up, he tasted the familiar metallic taste of blood upon his tongue. The scent of the crimson liquid seemed to permate the air as well, but he felt physically fine himself. And he was out in the snow rather than the comfortable den of the caverns. Kayn struggled to recall the details of the seemingly alien nightmare, images flashing through his mind as sharply as memories that felt like another person. Slowly Kayn's eyes widened, and he immediately stood to his paws. The wolf scanned the nearby area frantically before suddenly stopping, body going rigid at the sight his eyes fell upon. A lifeless corpse. A blue lynx. Raine. Kayn tentatively approached, shaking as he did, but not from the frigid bite of the cold air. "M-Mom?" he called out, voice quaking much like the rest of his body. No response. The black wolf began to tear up at the realization. The memories of the previous night clicked into place and Kayn knew all he needed to. He knew. It was more than he ever wanted to know. It shattered him, collapsing to the ground in tears.
Kayn didn't know for how long he was there crying, alone in the stinging cold with tears in his eyes, but eventually he stood to his paws. He had to clean himself. He was coated in blood, both inside and out. There was a thousand things running through his head, but he couldn't risk his place in Snowbound. They'd exile him without question or worse if they knew. Ecto was still here. Then again, was it better if he left? The wolf shook the thought from his head. Now wasn't the time to decide that. Later he might leave his sister in the capable of hands of those in Snowbound to avoid hurting her, but for now he needed to remove as much suspicion as he could. The lupine conjured up some bowls of water to wash his pelt clean of the stains he'd received the night before. It took a little while and the slicing cold air had made it rather uncomfortable, painful even, but when he finally finished cleaning himself he laid beside the fallen form of his adopted mother. Tears welled up once again, and again he broke when faced with the consequences of his actions.
When his fur was suitably dry, the wolf shakily stood up and released a mournful howl to hopefully get the attention of anyone within earshot. Kayn was now violently shivering from being out in the cold so long. Even with his thick fur the cut of the freezing temperatures had taken its toll upon the wolf. He would probably need medical assistance following the events to prevent any major issues from coming up, but truthfully that hadn't crossed the wolf's mind in the moment. Honestly, he probably would have been fine if the cold took his life. Or he would have been if the death would stay permament. No, he was condemned to live with everything that he done whether he wanted to or not. This... This was just another notch upon the endless list of things he'd done. Only, this time, Kayn truly regretted what he'd done. He hated himself. More than he had ever hated himself before. The black wolf only hoped he could keep his composure when the rest of Snowbound came running, but he'd already begun crying once again at the cruel memories he was now forced to see when he closed his eyes.
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