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ARTWORKS.

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GRAPHICS.
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OTHER.
NYM, Phlux — ✧「 There was tension / There was fondle / There was tension / There was / There was tension / There was fondle 」

UPSIDE DOWN, Quok — ✧「 Don't tell me the truth / Your world is upside down / You keep pretending / Don't trust your friends 」

THIS IS HOME, Cavetown — ✧「 Get a load of this monster / He doesn't know how to communicate / His mind is in a different place / Will everybody please give him a little bit of space / Get a load of this trainwreck / His hair's a mess and he doesn't know who he is yet / But little do we know, the stars / Welcome him with open arms 」

SOUNDTRACK. ( TBA )

AYON/DEMON CHARACTER LOVER TBN ONCE ADOPTED OUT.
CAN'T LOOK AWAY, Seafret — ✧「 All the love you gave me / You know it made me strong / Feeling alive, now back to life / I know where I belong / I'll never let them break me / I'll never do no wrong / We're on fire, we're on fire / And we're burning up 」
HUSHH, AViVA — ✧「 Hush now darlin', don't say a word / Demons calling, they'll eat your soul / I'm not sorry for what will come, what you don't know / Hold your breathe, dim the lights / I won't say you're safe this time / Here and now you're mine tonight /  Hush Hush / Keep your pretty mouth shut / Hush Hush / Lose your inhibitions / I'll let you in on my dark side / Show you what hell really feels like / I can keep a secret if you / Hush Hush 」
LAPSE, Blackmath — ✧「 All the beauty in your face / and all the anger seperates us / Smile when you're not afraid to die / but I'm afraid with each goodbye / Lost the sun above my head / Lost myself in things I said / and why is all you ever sing / Your why behind the scream / and all it means to me / Will you rely / I'm forgiving I'm forgiven / When you've been gone / Lost and elapsed again, lost and elapsed again / I'm forgiven 」
COVER ME, Blackmath — ✧「 We lie face to face / You're frozen in your sleep / ...and I'm hardly breathing / Impress me with your silence / I'm hanging on your eyelids / As we softly stir the violence / As we slip back underneath / Say you will cover me / When there's nothing I can see / I dream of disappearing / One hand above the skin / My head below the waters / I flow in the deep / I flow in the deep / And If I cover you / Say you will cover me 」

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☆ — None at the moment

FACECLAIMS
☆ — Ryan Bergara ( Main )
☆ — Ryan Haywood
☆ — Parker Coppins
☆ — Mark Fischbach / Darkiplier
☆ — Seán "Jack" McLoughlin / Antisepticeye
☆ — Tom Ellis
☆ — Colin O'Donoghue
☆ — Rami Malek
☆ — Bryan Dechart

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[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]I'm planning to set up a thread with a Shane Madej inspired plot character getting adopted out for Ayon, who will eventually be his lover, since I think it's finally Time. I have to put all of these notes together, clean anything unnecessary up, and add what's blank to the plot for Ayon's first/current arc, so for now here's this:

Spoiler:

Way too damn early to think about this, but Uuuuhhhhhh, I wanna get Ayon a demonic best friend/boyfriend ( when he gets older )!!!

Bonus point if they were formerly an Angel, so I can aesthetic my chaotic bi ass over with angels and such, but it'd be extremely interesting if this Demon, the asshole who hates the idea of friendships and whatnot, learns the religion of the Rosebloods and discovering the concept of Daemons, they lie to Ayon saying they is so to intimidate him and he wouldn't want to interact with them anymore, but, while Ayon will be sort of convinced, because his curiosity can lead to danger and he believes not everyone is bad, so, he's...there with them still and, well, just wanna chill with them, if they're not up for any interactions.

Ayon will eventually like their presence and want to hang out with them more often. It can form a scenario where Ayon actually encounters an actual Daemon and nearly gets killed, and, maybe depending where his personality stands at the time, either it will go with him not wanting to contact with his best friend anymore and shun them without letting them know, to prevent from being killed by someone who he himself adores; or he confronts them about it. Can go both, but. Yeah. The Angst be coming through with the Truth.

I was thinking their first encounter is Ayon somehow accidentally summoning them. When the Demon asks him what he wants, he only says he wants a friend because he doesn't have anyone but his family, and asks them if they're seeking to be his friend, and they can be like "ehhhh", but he accepts the answer anyway as he'll be okay with that. But after their first interaction, Ayon will summon them at a certain time everyday, and I believe it'd be interesting as well if this Demon takes the gesture quite strange because they're so used to being called for the summoner's own advantages, as they're never viewed any more or less but just something who can make things happen, therefore, the fact they're being summoned just because he wants them to do whatever he have in store for the day that they won't mind partaking, or just having a silent moment together.

That's all I have for now, other than them eventually developing feelings for each other, but, yeah! I will honestly Die for this to happen because Wrow, I lov

( TW: BRIEF MENTIONS OF DEATH IN VARIOUS OF WAYS FROM SUICIDE, CANCER, MURDERS, ETC )

About that demonic best friend/boyfriend thing I thought of just somewhere at the start of Ayon's channel, I was thinking something that has to do with one of Ayon's plots, relating to that month/zodiac notes, and decided to mash it together. I didn't plan on giving details about this plot but I absolutely love Ayon, and I'm just super duper !Excited! about him with the ideas I have in mind for him, but buckle up kiddos, we're going in for a ride ( will eventually be more detailed as this is generally thought out ):

On March 26, xxxx, there was a child who was the embodiment of Aries: all enthusiastic and hotheaded. They met a Demon, formerly an Angel, who was their enemy to ( best ) friend to lover in the end. Somehow. The child grew and grew while the Demon guided them through, when they were old enough to confess their love to the Demon, the Demon admitted their love to them back, they were happy together. However, a Mortal can't go further as a Demon, and it's a greatest tragedy it would be them who would be the ones out of anyone to fall in love.
"You are strong," said the Demon when they saw their lover crying one night  // 'I was strong,' thought the Mortal before a baseball bat struck right to the center of their brain on March 26, xxxx; 11:23pm

On April 26, xxxx, there was a child who was the embodiment of Taurus; all loving and stubborn. When they were an adult, they met a Demon who was hurting and bitter. Despite the Demon's rude and snarky attitude, they took care of them and treated the Demon with affection. The Demon knew this person was the same as who they lost years ago since their first interaction, but they stayed quiet. As the Demon couldn't bring themself to tell them, part of them thought maybe it would've been for the best if they chose not to say anything about the reincarnation for both of their sakes. It didn't matter either way when this Mortal was going to leave them like their previous incarnation. They did.
"You are right," said the Demon when they were being vented to from the Mortal about how their abusive parents always reminded them they were right, and them, as their child, was always wrong.  // 'I was right,' thought the Mortal before the hands of their creators took their life away on April 26, xxxx; 11:24am

Then, it goes on repeating. Repeating. Repeating.

May 26, xxxx ( Gemini )  — "You are understood"
"I was understood" — May 26, xxxx; executed with a Rack torture device; 11:25am

June 26, xxxx ( Cancer )  — "You are needed"
"I was needed" — June 26, xxxx; died from breast cancer; 11:26pm

July 26, xxxx ( Leo )  — "You are loved"
"I was loved" — July 26, xxxx; text; was set on fire; 11:27pm

August 26, xxxx ( Virgo )  — "You are worth it"
"I was worth it" — August 26, xxxx; poisoned; 11:28am

September 26, xxxx ( Libra )  — "You are appreciated"
"I was appreciated" — September 26, xxxx; committed suicide; 11:29pm

October 26, xxxx ( Scorpio )  — "You are safe"
"I was safe" — October 26, xxxx; text; blood loss from giving birth; 11:30pm

November 26, xxxx ( Sagittarius )  — "You are free"
"I was free" — November 26, xxxx; stabbed to death; 11:31pm

December 26, xxxx ( Capricorn )  — "You are deserving"
"I was deserving" — December 26, xxxx; fell from high altitude; 11:32am

January 26, xxxx ( Aquarius )  — "You are one of a kind"
"I was one of a kind" — January 26, xxxx; text; died from cardiac arrest; 11:33am

February 26, xxxx ( Pisces ) — "You are good enough"
"I was good enough" — February 26, xxxx; drowned; 11:34pm

On the twelfth hour, just half of an hour since the Mortal's twelfth incarnation was gone, they decided to give up and let their Mortal, if they were to be reincarnated once more, have their peaceful life without them being involved. Could they make the Mortal an Immortal so they wouldn't ever lose them again, but the thought of them having to suffer so much and not dying for the longest time like them horrified them. Therefore, they moved on and decided to get themself into making deals and sending punishments while traveling through many dimensions to help them block everything about the Mortal and what they had together. It worked, only until they came to the dimension that made them lost most of their powers, and where Ayon happens to be born on March 26, xxxx, 13 days after the Demon's arrival: their one and only Mortal's thirteenth and possibly final incarnation.

Oh my God, I...

I just thought of something so fucking sad with Ayon and his demonic bf plot ( I need to give it a name ): but with all of Ayon's incarnations, because I'm pulling some soulmate concepts over to the plot, because Why The Hell Not, I'm thinking they all can't see colours until they meet their soulmate, which is always the Demon, but... Because the Demon is so, and their dark energy and auras causes the function of soulmate to be all messed up, instead of Ayon's incarnations seeing colours the first time he saw the Demon, unlike vice versa, it's his last.

When Ayon learns everything of who he truly is on his own and then something happens that results him dying with the Demon by his side, he dies, but he doesn't end up seeing the colours because right when he gives his last several breaths, he makes the Deal with the Demon, and so, he's turning into one like them so he wouldn't have to die so easily as a Mortal afterward, and it really breaks the soulmate's function between them, so both of them will forever experience seeing in black and white until they die and finally be at peace.

Therefore, once Ayon returns, he will be so SO devastated at the thought he will never get to see the colours other than monochrome, even when he comes back to life instead of being reincarnated for the fourteenth time ( because he still wouldn't see the colours of the last memory in each of his incarnation, ) or even being permanently ceased to exist, and just, fUCK ME, man..... I mean, if it means for him to dodge death more easier for the Demon, he'll be glad, but, at the same time...he would hope so much, and it's horrible he waited for so long and ended up getting nothing out of it.

Oh fuck, I know what this plot should be called: Kismet, meaning "destiny" and "fate"

Because I love the idea of Demons making Deals by kissing on the others' lips and they have to bite each other's lips to get blood and have both of their blood together while kissing in order for the Deal to happen by sealing the summoner's fate of becoming a Demon.

But yeah, the name of this plot/arc( too, perhaps?) is indeed extremely meaningful with a pun to it, O o f

*Will make the final draft at one point

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[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]At the result of when he visited Tanglewood with his siblings and the 08/03 meeting, Ayon feels highly guilty for running away from his family and Prestige when he knows there's a choice he can help them, even if he only distracts the opponents by simply being there for them to focus on because he's an easier target.

Though, he fled, and it's not because he was afraid, but he knows he can't provide aid because of his poor skills in terms of combat and planning; with that fact, he knows there is a chance if he decided to stay put and be a distraction, he'd end up getting captured or even killed—quite higher than the outcome being otherwise. If both chances were equal or the positive result was at least slightly higher than another, it's most likely he would've done it. Since that's not the case, the smartest thing he could go for was fleeing. The thought of not being there for his family when in danger was still heartbreaking, making him feel worthless and pathetic.

This causes Ayon to keep saying along the lines, "I'll protect you," towards his family and those who are a Roseblood member. They sound likes jokes for one regal and powerful to laugh at due to his weak, tiny body and have skills lower than what Rosebloods expects from an individual being a part of their group, though, while he's aware he can't do a lot for the group at this age, he's just trying to convince himself he'll be capable of doing so much, despite his conditions. Maybe not now, but one day, he will.

Then, the meeting have motivated him to be more determined to gain knowledge that will be benificial for himself and, especially, the group and use it for so, and start pushing himself into training already. To see Sola, his mother, struggling and be nearly put in a death calling situation, and watched Prestige's life slowly taken away under the lion's weight when he tried to protect her was enough for him to tell himself he have to be strong and make his way to improving his skills, so anything like the meeting won't happen again, at least it wouldn't get worse from there; it brought him to be steadfast with the courage to put everything into his best effort.

Even though, Ayon will struggle a lot due to his disorders and other conditions, as well as I'm planning to make him have learning disability, and often wishes to give up, at the end, he will have to remind himself it's the effort that's important. How he tries to do everything at its best.