07-23-2018, 12:08 AM
//Small trigger warning in the 3rd paragraph for descriptions of body horror!
"Fear is a liar, but he's been right before."
Oh, Caesar had felt fear before. He wasn't immune to the emotion, as much as he'd like people to think he was. Fear was a normal emotion, but one that Caesar liked to hide. He believes that fear is weakness, that by allowing yourself to fear things and others, you were only setting yourself up for failure. And maybe that's true; after all, it was fear that drove him to destroy his Home Dimension, among other things. He feared not being able to be himself again, he feared being an exile his entire life, he feared the King - but he had also been jealous of the power the King held. But most of all? Was fear. The King could order his Court to kill him and his family, and there could be nothing he could do about it.
"If you fight your shadow, you'll get lost in a war."
Caesar constantly hides his feelings of fear, just so he isn't seen as weak or powerless. But hiding your feelings only ends up with them being bottled up inside, building up slowly to the point where they explode. Unfortunately for Caesar, bottling up emotions is what causes Corruption - and he's unaware of this. He knows what Corruption is, of course, however what causes it is unknown to almost all dream demons; they assume it's because of stress. Which is true, Corruption is causes by stress: the stress of your emotions being bottled up. Corruption happens very slowly for dream demons and is extremely painful to them. Their Corrupted bodies are different than one another, however Caesar's is one of the biggest (although he has no idea what it looks like).
The first warning sign of Corruption is if a dream demon bleeds from their eyes, nose, and mouth. It's common for a demon to bleed from their nose - and mouth, in worst cases - when stressed, however once it reaches the eyes, it's far too late. Once their eyes start bleeding, the Corruption process has already begun. Slowly, the body would start to deteriorate and grow in Caesar's case, and his body would turn red. His body would break in a few places - his neck and his stomach, which would soon turn into mouths. Eyes would pop up all over his body; one on his forehead, one of each side of his face where his cheeks are, one on each shoulder, and one on each side of his body where his hind leg begins. During Corruption, a demon's eyes always bleed, although their mouths and nose no longer do. Eventually, a Corrupted demon will finally exhaust their living force, almost like a star. Unlike a star, however, they do not explode; they just pass out and pretty much die, forced to live their lives in the Mindscape.
"Ambition's a champ, but he's also a whore! Drunk or sober, he always wants more! I always want more!"
Caesar believes the only way to continue hiding his feelings of fear and regret is to focus on how he wants to be in power, how he wants to lead, and how he deserves to be a leader of a group. He wants people to fear him, rather than he fear others. With people fearing him, he can distract himself from his own fear and continue leading with pride, glad that he's able to enlist such feelings onto his people. And that is the reason Caesar craves high positions and fame; because he wants to be feared so he can hide his own feelings. Ambition is a whore; it always wants more, and even if Caesar is at the highest rank he can be, he only wants more fame, more distractions.
Too bad that will eventually be the end of him.
(Lyrics are from the song "Funny Little Creatures" by Nothing More!)
"Fear is a liar, but he's been right before."
Oh, Caesar had felt fear before. He wasn't immune to the emotion, as much as he'd like people to think he was. Fear was a normal emotion, but one that Caesar liked to hide. He believes that fear is weakness, that by allowing yourself to fear things and others, you were only setting yourself up for failure. And maybe that's true; after all, it was fear that drove him to destroy his Home Dimension, among other things. He feared not being able to be himself again, he feared being an exile his entire life, he feared the King - but he had also been jealous of the power the King held. But most of all? Was fear. The King could order his Court to kill him and his family, and there could be nothing he could do about it.
"If you fight your shadow, you'll get lost in a war."
Caesar constantly hides his feelings of fear, just so he isn't seen as weak or powerless. But hiding your feelings only ends up with them being bottled up inside, building up slowly to the point where they explode. Unfortunately for Caesar, bottling up emotions is what causes Corruption - and he's unaware of this. He knows what Corruption is, of course, however what causes it is unknown to almost all dream demons; they assume it's because of stress. Which is true, Corruption is causes by stress: the stress of your emotions being bottled up. Corruption happens very slowly for dream demons and is extremely painful to them. Their Corrupted bodies are different than one another, however Caesar's is one of the biggest (although he has no idea what it looks like).
The first warning sign of Corruption is if a dream demon bleeds from their eyes, nose, and mouth. It's common for a demon to bleed from their nose - and mouth, in worst cases - when stressed, however once it reaches the eyes, it's far too late. Once their eyes start bleeding, the Corruption process has already begun. Slowly, the body would start to deteriorate and grow in Caesar's case, and his body would turn red. His body would break in a few places - his neck and his stomach, which would soon turn into mouths. Eyes would pop up all over his body; one on his forehead, one of each side of his face where his cheeks are, one on each shoulder, and one on each side of his body where his hind leg begins. During Corruption, a demon's eyes always bleed, although their mouths and nose no longer do. Eventually, a Corrupted demon will finally exhaust their living force, almost like a star. Unlike a star, however, they do not explode; they just pass out and pretty much die, forced to live their lives in the Mindscape.
"Ambition's a champ, but he's also a whore! Drunk or sober, he always wants more! I always want more!"
Caesar believes the only way to continue hiding his feelings of fear and regret is to focus on how he wants to be in power, how he wants to lead, and how he deserves to be a leader of a group. He wants people to fear him, rather than he fear others. With people fearing him, he can distract himself from his own fear and continue leading with pride, glad that he's able to enlist such feelings onto his people. And that is the reason Caesar craves high positions and fame; because he wants to be feared so he can hide his own feelings. Ambition is a whore; it always wants more, and even if Caesar is at the highest rank he can be, he only wants more fame, more distractions.
Too bad that will eventually be the end of him.
(Lyrics are from the song "Funny Little Creatures" by Nothing More!)
Profile art by @Reggan!
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