go different ways - private; romulus

[rhosmari]

The leopardess paced back and forth, back and forth, she had been unable to rest. Unable to find any semblance of peace since everything had happened. Her mind had been wandering back and forth over options. The differences that could have happened and clearing all of them only to start over again and again. She was right. She had always been right. Not always. No that wasn't right. But she felt like she had been right here. This was the time to move on. She wanted to move on. But maybe she was wrong. She was wrong. Her head shook suddenly and violently before she made her way from her house. The clean up of it having been fruitful so that she could move back in. Move in with a child. The idea felt so foreign to her. So weird. Almost unfathomable. Still it had happened and she was his mother. Was this how it was supposed to feel?

She left the village then, making her trek, a long journey to who knew where. She had no purpose nor did she have any real pattern to her step. It was almost as if she was drunk. Her ambling paws brought her to the lake. She had forgotten the name of it again. It had been given the name by Elysium. She didn't really care but she stared at herself. Looked at herself harshly, critically. "What's wrong with you? Is there something wrong with me? Yes. No. I don't feel like there is anything wrong with me? Are you sure?" She gritted her teeth, jaw clenching and hurting. She didn't like these questions. They ran like a river. Her eyes narrowed a bit before she sucked up a breath. "I feel fine. I feel everything. I'm trying. I'm just...Sojourn...I think."