ALL SENSE OF THOUGHT AND REASON ☆ confession

[RHINESTONE.]

RHINESTONESTAR ❝ RHINE ❞ LEGATE
"TALKING" || "TELEPATHY"

It was certainly new, feeling as though he was the less vulnerable one in a conversation between himself and Vaas. Of course, that wasn't to say that the legate was completely comfortable, and in his element. Although he had been the one to come and initiate the conversation, there was an undeniable sense of nerves in his chest, nearly choking him. Before this, he had never really had similar feelings for... well, anyone. When he had been younger, his life had been wholly dedicated to the group, and although the same was still true now... he felt as though he had relaxed somewhat. He allowed himself to make attachments more easily, and he cared more for The Palm Glades as a whole, because he knew and loved everyone that lived there. Of course, he loved everyone in different ways, and Vaas had always been the one person where it was so hard to fully define what he felt for him. Over time, the tiger had become an undeniable presence in his life. A force that he didn't feel as though he could go without. Even when Rhinestone had passed, and he had been forced to stumble his way back to Glades territory... Vaas had been on his mind. Right alongside everyone else that he missed so dearly, Vaas's presence had been one that he missed so desperately. He honestly almost felt like a fool for it, allowing himself to fall so hard, when it could easily all come crashing down on his head.

When Vaas initially responded, Rhine found himself wincing, the serval ready to be rebuffed and pushed aside. While he didn't really think that the medic would do such a thing, the emotions in the other's voice were hard to read, as always. It was clear that Vaas was struggling just as much as he was, and Rhinestone actually found himself chuckling at the whole situation. Shaking his head from side to side, the legate muttered in amusement, "We're both fools... we negotiated a whole merger together, yet we can't even talk about our feelings. It's a miracle that we've gotten this far." Despite his words, it was clear that the smaller feline wasn't annoyed or displeased with the situation. Rather, he was just trying to think. It was hard, when his emotions had taken the wheel and were definitely the driving force behind this entire thing. However, Rhine knew how to use logic, and he was fairly sure of what he wanted. Whether or not he could have what he wanted... well, that wasn't up to just him. It was up to Vaas as well, and that was the horrifying part. The chance of being rejected, and the chance of having his heart crushed, intentionally or not.

The serval managed to wrench his gaze upwards after a moment, pausing when he saw the emotion in Vaas's eyes. Not only was it surprising to see any emotion living so freely in the others gaze, but when it was something so soft and caring, it certainly took Rhine off guard. It made him want to move forward and bury himself in the tiger's fur, just to return the feeling and let it grow. There would be time for that later, though, if all went well. Taking a deep breath inwards, Rhinestonestar finally managed to speak again, his thoughts gradually slowing to a pace he could understand, "I want... you. As soon as the words left his mouth, Rhine found himself laughing, shaking his head before he quickly continued, "Oh, that sounded horribly cheesy... I'm sorry. I mean... I want to be with you. I care about you more than I can truly express, and I want to stay by your side, come hell or high water. And I realize that you're not really the heartfelt lovey dovey type, but I'm alright with that. I just want to know that we're together. That you care, you know? Because I care." That unbearable sense of vulnerability had returned once again, and Rhine found himself struggling. Trying to keep his dark gaze locked with Vaas's, not wanting to give in to the anxiety and let his eyes linger on the floor, instead.

tags + roleplayed by stilly + the palm glades