01-11-2020, 05:39 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-11-2020, 06:48 PM by ROXANNE R..)
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Her nose suddenly wrinkled at the aroma of alcohol, she could feel her coat bristling as she stared at him. He was not really stable physically and she was about to learn that he wasn't stable emotionally either. She took a step back pressing her ears against her cranium noticing the slur in his voice, it made her heart ache remembering the night they had gotten drunk or well, her. She had been the mess in the scenario, she took a few more steps back feeling her eyes stinging lightly not liking the memory of her hangover and heartbreak the next morning. Yet here he was asking in a serious tone what he meant to her, she could feel the tears slowly rolling down her cheeks as she bit her bottom lip with a small shake of her head "The better question is what does the dumbass feel about me?" Greed already knew how she felt about him, she needn't say anything else is what she thought. Roxanne took a few more steps back feeling her insides burn and her eyes becoming endless waterfalls, she sniffled only to feel her body shake with loud hiccups. She sputtered out angrily lifting her paws to her face to try and hide behind them as she let out hiccups.
"I a-already told y-you that I l-loved you. . .B-but you never said you l-loved me b-back that day."
She was about ready to leave because this was only hurting her until she heard Greed speak once more, her mismatched gaze fixated onto the large jaguar listening to what slipped from his lips. She was confused at first until the ebony jaguar spoke saying how Roan should have been his kid, their kid. Her gaze cast down to the ground still feeling her small body shake with several emotions coursing through her and flooding her mind, as her brain tried speaking over her heart but her beating organ refused to lose again. She refused to lose him again. She didn't want to lose him but she just couldn't accept him like this. He was drunk out of his mind and for all she knew, this could have been a sad tactic to get her to sleep with him again. Yet, she didn't seem to mind it as it crossed her mind. He would leave her again after claiming her once more as his own, she wanted to feel wanted even if it would be brief.
She sniffled staying quiet for the most part unable to look him the eyes, her head turned away from him. His words feeling like claws putting pressure onto her heart, she put a paw near her mouth trying to hide the fact she was crying. "Please du-dump him and get with me, please?" He was drunk, he didn't know what he was talking about or what he truly wanted. After much hesitation and trying to convince herself that leaving him alone here wouldn't make things better, Roxanne approached him with puffy eyes and hiccups shaking her form. "Y-you're so fucking s-stupid, you know t-that right?" She removed his paws from his face so she could look into those eyes she always got lost within, she pressed her nose against his still feeling tears running down her face. "Me and Seámus aren't e-even together, i-idiot, I don't even know the difference between him and his twin, Kian. . . You don't know how much I love you or how much I wish that Roan was born to me and you. . ." She could feel herself shaking once more as she pressed her forehead to his unable to hold her emotions back.
It started with one kiss before she began to kiss all over his face, her crying had grown harder as she shook her head lightly "But I c-can't love you like this. . . You're drunk and I don't even know if you truly mean all that you say. I don't want to end up heartbroken again. . . I wouldn't be able to handle it," She sniffles softly holding his face gently only to wipe away at the tears that had formed in his eyes. She didn't like seeing him like this, she didn't like seeing him so sad like a forlorn puppy. "I've loved you since the time we first met, in the log during a storm. I haven't stopped loving you either. Even now as I hold you here close to me, I can't deny the flutter in my chest. I thought I had gotten over you but, I was horribly wrong. . . I tried moving on but, I couldn't. . . All the men, I've seen and met. . . Seámus. . . They could never replace you nor did you ever leave my mind." She mewed, her voice genuine and affectionate in that one moment. She moved her paws away from him, only to look to the side unable to meet his gaze once more as she spoke in a quieter voice "You said we would stay friends but we both know that this isn't friendship. I hate the thought of you seeing other people but you aren't mine and I'm not yours. I don't want to be seen as a piece of property, I want to be seen what I am now; a person." She closed her eyes as a few more tears slipped down her cheeks.
"Yet here I am. . . Feeling. . . Greedy. Wanting more. Friends don't do that. . . What are we and how long are we going to play this game of cat and mouse before any of us get hurt any further?" She looked at him with the most pained expression, she proceeded to wrap her wings around her body just wanting to disappear at that moment. "character's speech."
Her nose suddenly wrinkled at the aroma of alcohol, she could feel her coat bristling as she stared at him. He was not really stable physically and she was about to learn that he wasn't stable emotionally either. She took a step back pressing her ears against her cranium noticing the slur in his voice, it made her heart ache remembering the night they had gotten drunk or well, her. She had been the mess in the scenario, she took a few more steps back feeling her eyes stinging lightly not liking the memory of her hangover and heartbreak the next morning. Yet here he was asking in a serious tone what he meant to her, she could feel the tears slowly rolling down her cheeks as she bit her bottom lip with a small shake of her head "The better question is what does the dumbass feel about me?" Greed already knew how she felt about him, she needn't say anything else is what she thought. Roxanne took a few more steps back feeling her insides burn and her eyes becoming endless waterfalls, she sniffled only to feel her body shake with loud hiccups. She sputtered out angrily lifting her paws to her face to try and hide behind them as she let out hiccups.
"I a-already told y-you that I l-loved you. . .B-but you never said you l-loved me b-back that day."
She was about ready to leave because this was only hurting her until she heard Greed speak once more, her mismatched gaze fixated onto the large jaguar listening to what slipped from his lips. She was confused at first until the ebony jaguar spoke saying how Roan should have been his kid, their kid. Her gaze cast down to the ground still feeling her small body shake with several emotions coursing through her and flooding her mind, as her brain tried speaking over her heart but her beating organ refused to lose again. She refused to lose him again. She didn't want to lose him but she just couldn't accept him like this. He was drunk out of his mind and for all she knew, this could have been a sad tactic to get her to sleep with him again. Yet, she didn't seem to mind it as it crossed her mind. He would leave her again after claiming her once more as his own, she wanted to feel wanted even if it would be brief.
She sniffled staying quiet for the most part unable to look him the eyes, her head turned away from him. His words feeling like claws putting pressure onto her heart, she put a paw near her mouth trying to hide the fact she was crying. "Please du-dump him and get with me, please?" He was drunk, he didn't know what he was talking about or what he truly wanted. After much hesitation and trying to convince herself that leaving him alone here wouldn't make things better, Roxanne approached him with puffy eyes and hiccups shaking her form. "Y-you're so fucking s-stupid, you know t-that right?" She removed his paws from his face so she could look into those eyes she always got lost within, she pressed her nose against his still feeling tears running down her face. "Me and Seámus aren't e-even together, i-idiot, I don't even know the difference between him and his twin, Kian. . . You don't know how much I love you or how much I wish that Roan was born to me and you. . ." She could feel herself shaking once more as she pressed her forehead to his unable to hold her emotions back.
It started with one kiss before she began to kiss all over his face, her crying had grown harder as she shook her head lightly "But I c-can't love you like this. . . You're drunk and I don't even know if you truly mean all that you say. I don't want to end up heartbroken again. . . I wouldn't be able to handle it," She sniffles softly holding his face gently only to wipe away at the tears that had formed in his eyes. She didn't like seeing him like this, she didn't like seeing him so sad like a forlorn puppy. "I've loved you since the time we first met, in the log during a storm. I haven't stopped loving you either. Even now as I hold you here close to me, I can't deny the flutter in my chest. I thought I had gotten over you but, I was horribly wrong. . . I tried moving on but, I couldn't. . . All the men, I've seen and met. . . Seámus. . . They could never replace you nor did you ever leave my mind." She mewed, her voice genuine and affectionate in that one moment. She moved her paws away from him, only to look to the side unable to meet his gaze once more as she spoke in a quieter voice "You said we would stay friends but we both know that this isn't friendship. I hate the thought of you seeing other people but you aren't mine and I'm not yours. I don't want to be seen as a piece of property, I want to be seen what I am now; a person." She closed her eyes as a few more tears slipped down her cheeks.
"Yet here I am. . . Feeling. . . Greedy. Wanting more. Friends don't do that. . . What are we and how long are we going to play this game of cat and mouse before any of us get hurt any further?" She looked at him with the most pained expression, she proceeded to wrap her wings around her body just wanting to disappear at that moment. "character's speech."