01-09-2020, 07:46 PM
Of course, after having Roan, well, she stopped seeing all the men she had seen before and easily stopped any of their flirtatious advances with the help of her crocodiles specifically Kalayavan. She had been stuck in the nursery hut for most of her days only raising her child hardly leaving him even for a moment but, she was well aware that eventually he would grow older and wouldn't want to be cooped up in the nursery. She felt slightly unhappy that the kitten had been made solely of a fling and not from someone she truly loved yet that hadn't stopped her from loving her newfound son, Roan. She wasn't the only one who seemed to have loved the child upon first sight, Kal, had grown rather attached towards the small kitten and always wasn't too far. He made quite the babysitter and was great form of protection especially since now the young boy played outside in the sand underneath the sun. Even if Roan was her anchor, she could still feel herself levitating away every now and then, settling within her own mind. Thoughts flooded her and she drowned underneath them all, she could have done things a lot more differently yet, she wouldn't have wanted it any other way.
First love was odd. She didn't think she would have fallen in love with Greed and she had been so certain that she had gotten over him but, when she saw his stupid fucking face again. . . She could already feel that annoying flutter in her chest, her insides churning, and her heart playing a rhythm she hadn't heard drum throughout her ears in what felt like ages. Alas, here she was again feeling her body growing weak and hot at even the sight of him which made her rather grateful that she had been riding on top of Kalayavan during that moment or she would've been a shaking, wobbling mess of a girl. She would be lying if she didn't admit that most of the flings she had with other men, she only had him in mind the whole time. She didn't think of them during their flirty interactions or advances, her mind clouded with a haze, no, it was selfish to them and possibly herself but she only had Greed faintly lingering in her mind. Her head only remembering the day they met and the night they had where they shared a moment of intimacy. One leaving with a broken heart and the other confused.
When she had finally confessed her feelings, he had turned her down saying they should stay friends but she knew that he was well aware of the things that they felt or did together was nothing a friend would do to another. She didn't want to think of them as friends with benefits either, Gods no, that only irked her. It was greedy of her to want more then what they had now, she couldn't savor what they had with her heart demanding more. She knew she wouldn't be able to go against the jaguar, she respected his wishes and wouldn't prod. If they knew what they both wanted then Greed would have to speak. The thought of any of the tavern women getting near him made her claws dig into the sand and made her pupils shrink into dangerous slits. She knew it was bad to even think of such dark things but she already felt herself flaring up recalling that Aphra had returned, she didn't want her anywhere near Greed. She gritted her teeth letting out a frustrated hiss until she heard pawsteps did she snap out of her brief 'feral' moment.
It was him, it had always been him.
She felt her insides tighten for a moment before the sound of his voice made her inwardly shudder, she couldn't believe this. She just couldn't make herself accept the obvious fact that she was hopelessly infatuated with the ebony big cat. She bit her tongue lightly as she tried finding a way to response to him, she trusted him even if he had done things to deter said trust, she opened her maw to speak with a light smile of her own "The future and what it holds, of course, I can only see what it may bring when it arrives. I don't, by any means, have the ability to see what may lay ahead." There was a pause as she took the moment to look in his direction seeing that he had gained a few scars since she had last seen him. Sure, some gals found it hot but it only made Roxanne concerned and worried of how he had obtained them. It made her shift her draped wings that were resting on her body uncomfortably, she had so many of her own and all she felt was self consciousness. She didn't feel beautiful for a single moment after the incident with the tsunami, her eyes lowered themselves to look at her scarred legs, feeling her ears press themselves against her cranium. Eventually, she said with a soft laugh.
"And of a dumbass that just won't leave my head."
Roxanne's soft gaze lifted and settled onto Greed, she couldn't imagine what he would respond with or even react to what she said though she was certain deep down in her gut, he just had to feel the same way about her even after all those months that they had been apart. She was certain that this love only happened once and well, she wouldn't have had it any other way. She let out a tired, short laugh as she said in a softer, quieter voice "I've missed my dumbass, I'm happy he's back." What was she supposed to do now? Hug him? Let him hug her? All she wanted to do was fall asleep in his arms, she wanted to tackle him down and kiss him all over yet a barrier stopped her from doing so.
Uncertainty. "character's speech."
First love was odd. She didn't think she would have fallen in love with Greed and she had been so certain that she had gotten over him but, when she saw his stupid fucking face again. . . She could already feel that annoying flutter in her chest, her insides churning, and her heart playing a rhythm she hadn't heard drum throughout her ears in what felt like ages. Alas, here she was again feeling her body growing weak and hot at even the sight of him which made her rather grateful that she had been riding on top of Kalayavan during that moment or she would've been a shaking, wobbling mess of a girl. She would be lying if she didn't admit that most of the flings she had with other men, she only had him in mind the whole time. She didn't think of them during their flirty interactions or advances, her mind clouded with a haze, no, it was selfish to them and possibly herself but she only had Greed faintly lingering in her mind. Her head only remembering the day they met and the night they had where they shared a moment of intimacy. One leaving with a broken heart and the other confused.
When she had finally confessed her feelings, he had turned her down saying they should stay friends but she knew that he was well aware of the things that they felt or did together was nothing a friend would do to another. She didn't want to think of them as friends with benefits either, Gods no, that only irked her. It was greedy of her to want more then what they had now, she couldn't savor what they had with her heart demanding more. She knew she wouldn't be able to go against the jaguar, she respected his wishes and wouldn't prod. If they knew what they both wanted then Greed would have to speak. The thought of any of the tavern women getting near him made her claws dig into the sand and made her pupils shrink into dangerous slits. She knew it was bad to even think of such dark things but she already felt herself flaring up recalling that Aphra had returned, she didn't want her anywhere near Greed. She gritted her teeth letting out a frustrated hiss until she heard pawsteps did she snap out of her brief 'feral' moment.
It was him, it had always been him.
She felt her insides tighten for a moment before the sound of his voice made her inwardly shudder, she couldn't believe this. She just couldn't make herself accept the obvious fact that she was hopelessly infatuated with the ebony big cat. She bit her tongue lightly as she tried finding a way to response to him, she trusted him even if he had done things to deter said trust, she opened her maw to speak with a light smile of her own "The future and what it holds, of course, I can only see what it may bring when it arrives. I don't, by any means, have the ability to see what may lay ahead." There was a pause as she took the moment to look in his direction seeing that he had gained a few scars since she had last seen him. Sure, some gals found it hot but it only made Roxanne concerned and worried of how he had obtained them. It made her shift her draped wings that were resting on her body uncomfortably, she had so many of her own and all she felt was self consciousness. She didn't feel beautiful for a single moment after the incident with the tsunami, her eyes lowered themselves to look at her scarred legs, feeling her ears press themselves against her cranium. Eventually, she said with a soft laugh.
"And of a dumbass that just won't leave my head."
Roxanne's soft gaze lifted and settled onto Greed, she couldn't imagine what he would respond with or even react to what she said though she was certain deep down in her gut, he just had to feel the same way about her even after all those months that they had been apart. She was certain that this love only happened once and well, she wouldn't have had it any other way. She let out a tired, short laugh as she said in a softer, quieter voice "I've missed my dumbass, I'm happy he's back." What was she supposed to do now? Hug him? Let him hug her? All she wanted to do was fall asleep in his arms, she wanted to tackle him down and kiss him all over yet a barrier stopped her from doing so.
Uncertainty. "character's speech."