10-26-2019, 12:36 AM
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NOTHING SWEET 'BOUT MY MISERY -
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[OOC: mobile]
He sensed this low point Mary be exceptionally hard for her. Considering she had just admitted to never having felt this. Regarding the jaguar? Not his first time down in the dumps. But it was certainly his deepest in them.
Her humor was appreciated as was her company. It only helped that she resonated with the conflict inside.
"It's a blow to my confidence for sure.", clearing his throat he then sighed, "However this is nothing new Indie. I've found this terrible pattern over my life where the people i love have hurt me the most."
Is that what he could call it? Love? Did he love Bai Shi? He liked to think he did and didn't in some hypocritical way.
"I can always get a new horse but they won't ride the same. Nor will I ever be as happy with another compared to the one that I want. The first I ever wanted...", he would roll on his side and huff. Remembering the night before. The fire. Flames of passion if you will.
"no matter how hard I try to fix it I seem to ruin it even more. I cannot blame my horse for not wanting me anymore.", was that what he thought that was? His attempt to fiz things or force the shapeshifter into loving him again.
"what i had with him was much more than anything else... hadn't even laid with him but I wanted him next to me every second. Thought about him in the deepest way. If I'm going to be honest knowing that I can never have them makes me want them much more now.", to feel the soft down of another feline. He briefly imagined himself caressing the cobweb jaguar. His muzzle tracing the vitiligo. Even the hard scales of the golden dragon had it's appeal. Fantasies he could never live out now. A shame, he had wanted to feel their softer form the most.
"but how about you ma'am who is the cause of your sorrow?"
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[OOC: mobile]
He sensed this low point Mary be exceptionally hard for her. Considering she had just admitted to never having felt this. Regarding the jaguar? Not his first time down in the dumps. But it was certainly his deepest in them.
Her humor was appreciated as was her company. It only helped that she resonated with the conflict inside.
"It's a blow to my confidence for sure.", clearing his throat he then sighed, "However this is nothing new Indie. I've found this terrible pattern over my life where the people i love have hurt me the most."
Is that what he could call it? Love? Did he love Bai Shi? He liked to think he did and didn't in some hypocritical way.
"I can always get a new horse but they won't ride the same. Nor will I ever be as happy with another compared to the one that I want. The first I ever wanted...", he would roll on his side and huff. Remembering the night before. The fire. Flames of passion if you will.
"no matter how hard I try to fix it I seem to ruin it even more. I cannot blame my horse for not wanting me anymore.", was that what he thought that was? His attempt to fiz things or force the shapeshifter into loving him again.
"what i had with him was much more than anything else... hadn't even laid with him but I wanted him next to me every second. Thought about him in the deepest way. If I'm going to be honest knowing that I can never have them makes me want them much more now.", to feel the soft down of another feline. He briefly imagined himself caressing the cobweb jaguar. His muzzle tracing the vitiligo. Even the hard scales of the golden dragon had it's appeal. Fantasies he could never live out now. A shame, he had wanted to feel their softer form the most.
"but how about you ma'am who is the cause of your sorrow?"