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Unlike her, Kydobi had never rejected a lover. Be it man or woman or other he had enough to spare. Until recently the brute had done his fair share of courting and being courted. In his life of a loner he had never had anything deeper than a one night stand.

That was until he came to the Pitt. Until he met Bai Shi. Even then they didn't not work. Whenever the dragon had asked for Kydobi's confirmation on his love the jaguar seemed to choke up. Or worse, his insecurities would cause him to downplay his feelings in an attempt to protect himself. He feared not being enough and as a result Bai had sought from another what Kydobi was too scared to give them.

And oh it hurt. It haunted him. At first it was the not knowing, the suspecting. But Kydobi realized that he knew  all along. In the literal heat of their argument Bai had revealed they planned on courting the pirate coyote. It was a blow. His feline pride was even more hurt, surely he was more attractive than that mongrel? The way they cowered under his snarl made the brute respect Idyll even less. They were not enough to protect Lynn!

There was always going to be others but none like them. The jaguar was sure, but did he really love the shapeshifter? Or did he make more out of his emotions in an attempt for something special. Kydobi was usually a rational and logical man, so deep down he knew it was his inability to let go. A jealousy. Something quite alien to the former prince.

But he would go on a walk tonight. Attempt to clear his mind, escape the jungle for a moment. The Marauder ended up straying much farther than he realized. However it was enough to cool down in the night breeze.

The stars twinkled and chimed in the dark night sky. It was all so peaceful and quiet, no birds to cry in the darkness. No layered whispering of the jungle leaves. Just soft swaying of grass.

Inhaling deeply the jaguar would take in the scents all around him. His ears could ear a trail of ants marching through the floor. Farther ahead the flap of a night owl however faint it was. Just further, the rhythmic sound of a heart beat and softest breath. Finally he exhaled, tasting a thousand scents on his tongue.

He spotted the caracal. Perhaps they were hunting? He had no ill intentions and considering last night.. he was scared to bother her. Lucky for him he did not carry the scent of the Pitt. His fire had seemed to burn it away and his treks across rivers and streams and washed away the rest to leaves faint smokey musk on his pelt.

Somehow, his fur was untouched. However one thing had changed, his eyes seemed to glow especially at night. Nothing major but a subtle light deep in the amber.

He cleared his throat as he neared so the cat wouldn't be caught off guard.

[OOC: debating on if I want Kydobi to have intentions of sleeping with her... Or having it happen purely coincidentally]


She took his presence well, which was a great relief to say the least. Amber eyes would observe her as a whole, her tone, her body, her posture, and her words. They all confirmed that she was doing some type of wallowing. Well at least she is honest about it.

The caracal's comment about butchering was interpreted as her acknowledging his residency as a Pittian. Well thank goodness he didnt have to hide it.

He waited politely for her to finish speaking, "Well the horse I rode bucked me off in favor of another rider. I can't compete. They don't want me like I wanted them."

And perhaps it was his fault, not demonstrating the love he felt... The jaguar had completely forgotten he told the shapeshifter to seek from another what he could not give them. Or perhaps he only said it because he thought they would never follow through with it.

He walked closer and gave a more genuine sigh, one filled with exhaustion and sorrow. Gently he would lower himself onto his belly, laying his head on his paws. Looking up he gave a soft smile, "Perhaps we can have ourselves a pity party ma'am. I am Kydobi, and you?"

[OOC: mobile]

He sensed this low point Mary be exceptionally hard for her. Considering she had just admitted to never having felt this. Regarding the jaguar? Not his first time down in the dumps. But it was certainly his deepest in them.

Her humor was appreciated as was her company. It only helped that she resonated with the conflict inside.

"It's a blow to my confidence for sure.", clearing his throat he then sighed, "However this is nothing new Indie. I've found this terrible pattern over my life where the people i love have hurt me the most."

Is that what he could call it? Love? Did he love Bai Shi? He liked to think he did and didn't in some hypocritical way.

"I can always get a new horse but they won't ride the same. Nor will I ever be as happy with another compared to the one that I want. The first I ever wanted...", he would roll on his side and huff. Remembering the night before. The fire. Flames of passion if you will.

"no matter how hard I try to fix it I seem to ruin it even more. I cannot blame my horse for not wanting me anymore.", was that what he thought that was? His attempt to fiz things or force the shapeshifter into loving him again.

"what i had with him was much more than anything else... hadn't even laid with him but I wanted him next to me every second. Thought about him in the deepest way. If I'm going to be honest knowing that I can never have them makes me want them much more now.", to feel the soft down of another feline. He briefly imagined himself caressing the cobweb jaguar. His muzzle tracing the vitiligo. Even the hard scales of the golden dragon had it's appeal. Fantasies he could never live out now. A shame, he had wanted to feel their softer form the most.

"but how about you ma'am who is the cause of your sorrow?"