10-26-2019, 12:14 AM
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NOTHING SWEET 'BOUT MY MISERY -
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[OOC: mobile]
Kydobi wasn't sure how to handle himself. Never had he ever found himself in this situation. He hadn't even imagined himself to ever be in this mentality. Everything was a blur. Everyone was against him. Why? Did they not see where he was coming from?
The world was narrowed down to Bai Shi. Only Bai Shi. There was a drum in his chest as blood roared in his ears. Fine. He didn't really want to but he had to. Then they spoke, it hurt him even more. Ramona was thrown into this, that hurt the most.
He let out a choked snarl.
They knew she wanted nothing to do with him. He felt hot all over. A living reminder of his failure. His breath became louder. Of a very low time in his life. It felt like his heart was trying to burst out his chest. She hates him. No, his stomach. Ramona. His mouth was dry like paper.
"Kydobi?"
Huh?
"What's wrong? Why are you so angry?"
The jaguar had been panting. Tongue bouncing as he looked, his eyes were glowing. Undeniably so. Was that Auggie? Hot embarrassment crept, no, radiated from his pelt.
"A-", he choked. He didn't feel well at all. The jaguar took a moment to breathe. Heavy and rapidly, as if trying to catch his breath. Fanning the flames inside. He looked at Bai then to the floor and refused to look at the terrier. His ears perked up at the sound of another approaching, he didn't look up to see whom in fear. His facade was crumbling, they would see him as weak. They wouldn't respect him.
He stared at his paws, head bowed. Eyes were wide in disbelief. This wasnt happening. He was messing everything up. No one would respect him. They would question him and his capability. Why? Because of then.
He would even be in this state if it wasn't for that coyote! His body was screaming. Do something. Hurt them like they hurt you. Like everyone hurts you. No matter how hard you try to be there they will always undervalue you.
His face contorted, revealing his teeth. The bridge of his nose pulled back to reveal a illuminated mouth. His growl had been building up, as he slowly raised his head to look at Bai. It seemed all the anger he ever held was accumulating over time, a feeble dam was all that was holding it. The amount of anger swelled inside was fine until Bai shi spilled their cup of sorrow in it causing an overflow.
WHOOSH
Hear was everywhere. A cloud of blue and red flames mushroomed around the jaguar before shrinking back to the source. Himself.
He let out a roar, expelling anger causing the flames to swell. It was Idyll! It was Bai! It was his mother! It was Kyrzoba! It was Ramona! It was his father! It was everyone! Tell him why? Why? He fucking tried so hard to keep them around but he was never enough. Never enough although he gave his all.
He was so tired of letting himself be hurt. Tired of searching for acceptance. For validation and for love.
It seemed Kydobi hadn't fully registered he on fire. It was so far fetched and wildly impossible to him that the flames hadn't processed completely.
"LEAVE."
But come back to me. The flames shrank, the blue turned to orange as it's temperature lowered. But they wouldn't. They would run to Idyll... He would lose them. The fire grew taller, bluer, and much much hotter.
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♕tags-powers♕
[OOC: mobile]
Kydobi wasn't sure how to handle himself. Never had he ever found himself in this situation. He hadn't even imagined himself to ever be in this mentality. Everything was a blur. Everyone was against him. Why? Did they not see where he was coming from?
The world was narrowed down to Bai Shi. Only Bai Shi. There was a drum in his chest as blood roared in his ears. Fine. He didn't really want to but he had to. Then they spoke, it hurt him even more. Ramona was thrown into this, that hurt the most.
He let out a choked snarl.
They knew she wanted nothing to do with him. He felt hot all over. A living reminder of his failure. His breath became louder. Of a very low time in his life. It felt like his heart was trying to burst out his chest. She hates him. No, his stomach. Ramona. His mouth was dry like paper.
"Kydobi?"
Huh?
"What's wrong? Why are you so angry?"
The jaguar had been panting. Tongue bouncing as he looked, his eyes were glowing. Undeniably so. Was that Auggie? Hot embarrassment crept, no, radiated from his pelt.
"A-", he choked. He didn't feel well at all. The jaguar took a moment to breathe. Heavy and rapidly, as if trying to catch his breath. Fanning the flames inside. He looked at Bai then to the floor and refused to look at the terrier. His ears perked up at the sound of another approaching, he didn't look up to see whom in fear. His facade was crumbling, they would see him as weak. They wouldn't respect him.
He stared at his paws, head bowed. Eyes were wide in disbelief. This wasnt happening. He was messing everything up. No one would respect him. They would question him and his capability. Why? Because of then.
He would even be in this state if it wasn't for that coyote! His body was screaming. Do something. Hurt them like they hurt you. Like everyone hurts you. No matter how hard you try to be there they will always undervalue you.
His face contorted, revealing his teeth. The bridge of his nose pulled back to reveal a illuminated mouth. His growl had been building up, as he slowly raised his head to look at Bai. It seemed all the anger he ever held was accumulating over time, a feeble dam was all that was holding it. The amount of anger swelled inside was fine until Bai shi spilled their cup of sorrow in it causing an overflow.
WHOOSH
Hear was everywhere. A cloud of blue and red flames mushroomed around the jaguar before shrinking back to the source. Himself.
He let out a roar, expelling anger causing the flames to swell. It was Idyll! It was Bai! It was his mother! It was Kyrzoba! It was Ramona! It was his father! It was everyone! Tell him why? Why? He fucking tried so hard to keep them around but he was never enough. Never enough although he gave his all.
He was so tired of letting himself be hurt. Tired of searching for acceptance. For validation and for love.
It seemed Kydobi hadn't fully registered he on fire. It was so far fetched and wildly impossible to him that the flames hadn't processed completely.
"LEAVE."
But come back to me. The flames shrank, the blue turned to orange as it's temperature lowered. But they wouldn't. They would run to Idyll... He would lose them. The fire grew taller, bluer, and much much hotter.