WHEN MY HEART IS MADE FROM GOLD AND THE HURT IS JUST TOO BOLD
I STILL FIND IT IN MY HEART TO SAY I LOVE YOU
I STILL FIND IT IN MY HEART TO SAY I LOVE YOU
[sup][b][i]princess of dawn and death — multi-soul — resident flower child nerd — played by miithers[/sup]
FULL NAME Hazel Elise Caelum
— goes by Hazel, Haze, Princess, H, Sunshine, Golden Girl
FIRST NAME Hazel
— of Teutonic origin meaning "commander"
MIDDLE NAME Elise
— of French origin meaning "pledged to god"
LAST NAME Caelum
— Latin for "heaven" or "sky"
GENDER female
— accepted pronouns are she/her
BIRTHDAY 09 october 2017
— time 6:59am
PHYSICAL AGE 11 months
— human age is 18 years
— aging method is monthly
ZODIAC libra
— Libra are elegant and charming, with a great love of beauty and harmony. They know how to appreciate the various pleasures of life, and they are naturally kind. Because they are even-tempered, they can be very social and diplomatic, and they are one of the most empathetic of the signs. Libra need to work at being more objective when it comes to love. They don’t like work environments that involve complicated politics or chaos and conflicts.
DRUID SIGN mountain ash
— These people always seem to be in a good mood, which they happily share with the rest of the world. Along with their friendliness, Mountain Ashes possess an incredible talent for self-control. They can never bring themselves to bug others with their problems. They have both dignity and respect for others. They are independent and a bit self-centered, but always know when they should give in and when they should stand their ground. They are very goal-driven.
ROMANTIC ORIEN. biromantic
SEXUALITY bisexual
STATUS single
MOTHER
— biological: Aurora, Roman goddess of Dawn
— adopted:
FATHER
— biological: Pluto, Roman god of Wealth and the Underworld
— adopted:
SIBLINGS
— adopted … thinks of Arion as her little brother sometimes
CLOSEST FRIENDS Suiteheart, Margaery, Bastilleprisoner
MENTOR Margaery
COMPANION/PET Arion; Buckskin Thoroughbred colt
HOBBIES art, making jewelry/art out of pieces of junk/material she finds
QUIRKS she’s oddly sentimental about saffron, as it is a reminder of her birth mother, though she is unaware of it; leaves her door open almost always
CURRENT ALLIANCE the ascendants
CURRENT POSITION kuiper corporal
一 previous positions fireball, Starstruck Guardian
CURRENT TITLES Libra
UNOFFICIAL TITLES resident golden girl
LOYALTIES
ABILITIES 一 ★
— Ferrokinesis the ability to control precious metals
— Photokinesis the ability to control/produce light
— Earth Elementals
— Clairvoyance
AESTHETIC
Peachy sunrises and dusky sunsets with clear skies; golden summer days with cottonwood tufts frosting the ground. Picnics with friends on checkered blankets under ancient oak trees, laughing to music that thumps, young and wild and free. The childish glee that comes with blowing bubbles, followed by the awe of watching the multi-color spheres glint in the sunlight. The tranquil state of mind when a breeze brushes exposed skin. A child’s laughter. The softness of paper that has been crumpled too many times. The pleased buzz after receiving a compliment.
APPEARANCE 一 ★
FELINE
— body: cocoa fur with dark points; not quite a chocolate point. has slightly tall ears and small paws, and a feathered tail.
— eyes: vivid gold (glows a little in the dark)
— build: delicate, just under average
— scars: one on her left foreleg, one on her haunches, and a few on the inside of her back legs.
— accessories: a patterned gold bandana tied around the scar on her left foreleg, spiral sun necklace with a turquoise bead
— other possessions: a seashell necklace from lunafreya, a box of paints and brushes, a cookbook that used to belong to margaery's mother
— smells like: cinnamon and vanilla
— references: ★ ★ ★
PERSONALITY 一 ★ POSITIVE - NEGATIVE
SUPPORTIVE – ISFJs are the universal helpers, sharing their knowledge, experience, time and energy with anyone who needs it, and all the more so with friends and family. People with this personality type strive for win-win situations, choosing empathy over judgment whenever possible.
HUMBLE AND SHY – The meek shall inherit the earth, but it’s a long road if they receive no recognition at all. This is possibly ISFJs’ biggest challenge, as they are so concerned with others’ feelings that they refuse to make their thoughts known, or to take any duly earned credit for their contributions. ISFJs’ standards for themselves are also so high that, knowing they could have done some minor aspect of a task better, they often downplay their successes entirely.
RELIABLE AND PATIENT – Rather than offering sporadic, excited rushes that leave things half finished, ISFJs are meticulous and careful, taking a steady approach and bending with the needs of the situation just enough to accomplish their end goals. ISFJs not only ensure that things are done to the highest standard, but often go well beyond what is required.
TAKE THINGS TOO PERSONALLY – ISFJs have trouble separating personal and impersonal situations – any situation is still an interaction between two people, after all – and any negativity from conflict or criticism can carry over from their professional to their personal lives, and back again.
IMAGINATIVE AND OBSERVANT – ISFJs are very imaginative, and use this quality as an accessory to empathy, observing others’ emotional states and seeing things from their perspective. With their feet firmly planted on the ground, it is a very practical imagination, though they do find things quite fascinating and inspiring.
REPRESS THEIR FEELINGS – People with the ISFJ personality type are private and very sensitive, internalizing their feelings a great deal. Much in the way that ISFJs protect others’ feelings, they must protect their own, and this lack of healthy emotional expression can lead to a lot of stress and frustration.
ENTHUSIASTIC – When the goal is right, ISFJs take all this support, reliability and imagination and apply it to something they believe will make a difference in people’s lives – whether fighting poverty with a global initiative or simply making a customer’s day.
OVERLOAD THEMSELVES – Their strong senses of duty and perfectionism combine with this aversion to emotional conflict to create a situation where it is far too easy for ISFJs to overload themselves – or to be overloaded by others – as they struggle silently to meet everyone’s expectations, especially their own.
LOYAL AND HARDWORKING – Given a little time, this enthusiasm grows into loyalty – ISFJ personalities often form an emotional attachment to the ideas and organizations they’ve dedicated themselves to. Anything short of meeting their obligations with good, hard work fails their own expectations.
RELUCTANT TO CHANGE – These challenges can be particularly hard to address since ISFJ personalities value traditions and history highly in their decisions. A situation sometimes needs to reach a breaking point before ISFJs are persuaded by circumstance, or the strong personality of a loved one, to alter course.
GOOD PRACTICAL SKILLS – The best part is, ISFJs have the practical sense to actually do something with all this altruism. If mundane, routine tasks are what need to be done, ISFJs can see the beauty and harmony that they create, because they know that it helps them to care for their friends, family, and anyone else who needs it.
TOO ALTRUISTIC – This is all compounded and reinforced by ISFJs’ otherwise wonderful quality of altruism. Being such warm, good-natured people, ISFJs are willing to let things slide, to believe that things will get better soon, to not burden others by accepting their offers of help, while their troubles mount unassisted.
ADDITIONAL NOTES
— Because of her father and her early childhood as an outcast, she has a deeper sympathy for misunderstood and odd things. She gravitates towards towards all types of people, spare for the stuck up and bitchy.
— For all the pushing around and beating on her as a child, Hazel really won’t hesitate to stand up for her opinion. It might take her a while to get there, but she knows that deep down, there’s a rock solid self-righteousness that cements her morals.
ENNEAGRAM TYPE type one
FEARS & PHOBIAS fear of drowning, fear of dying without having accomplished anything // hydrophobia, athazagoraphobia (being left behind)
ENJOYS soft things, sunrises, golden hour, happy music, company, clear nights, nighttime summer sounds, saffron, marble, gentle touches, firelight
DISLIKES loud arguments, water, disappointing someone
TRIGGERS any sort of water exercise, unexpected physical contact/intimate physical contact, anger
HABITS singing/humming while she works, biting her lip when nervous
— human habits include doodling on her arms/hands/legs in metallic gold sharpie, curling a lock of hair around her finger, wringing her hands when speaking in public,
MENTAL HEALTH STATE
— mental strength is [inexperienced] [weak] [moderate] [strong] [experienced]
EMOTIONAL HEALTH STATE
— emotional strength is [inexperienced] [weak] [moderate] [strong] [experienced]
EXTRA SOULS 一 ★
Charlotte was the daughter of the greek god Hades. She lived as a black Morgan filly in ArcadianClan for all her life. At a barely socially conscious age, she fled her abusive human owner at the demands of her mother. Charlotte was kind and strong willed; the perfect mother figure. She cared deeply about all her friends and clanmates, no matter their history or personality. However, her mythological lineage clung to her skin in all the wrong places. It made her uncomfortable, and she wanted nothing more than to get rid of it. Lost souls would constantly whisper to her -- telling her somber and sorrowful things that dragged her deep into depression. They would reach out to her, brushing ghostly fingertips against her sides, begging in croaking voices to revive them, to free them. Charlotte becomes so distraught by their wailing and sadness that she drowns herself, desperate to escape the voices. She becomes Hazel’s sometimes shocking maturity, and is also largely responsible for Hazel’s love of horses. Unfortunately, she is also one of the main causes of Hazel’s fear of water.
Titaniumstars was once a deaf healer in Tidalclan, and the daughter of Ladyliberty. She was bitter and lonely despite her close-knit clan and family, having only ever been able to see the world, and not once hear the clamor or beauty of nature. Never would she know what a splash of water sounded like, or the laugh that followed a good joke. Never would she know a bird chirping, a cricket playing, or the warm voice of her mother. For this, she would always hold a grudge. She died young and unexpectedly, and her petulant nature carries with her lack of aging. She contributes largely to Hazel’s childish as well as insecure side, since Tinny has a bad habit of being the second voice of doubt/sarcasm.
— goes by Hazel, Haze, Princess, H, Sunshine, Golden Girl
FIRST NAME Hazel
— of Teutonic origin meaning "commander"
MIDDLE NAME Elise
— of French origin meaning "pledged to god"
LAST NAME Caelum
— Latin for "heaven" or "sky"
GENDER female
— accepted pronouns are she/her
BIRTHDAY 09 october 2017
— time 6:59am
PHYSICAL AGE 11 months
— human age is 18 years
— aging method is monthly
ZODIAC libra
— Libra are elegant and charming, with a great love of beauty and harmony. They know how to appreciate the various pleasures of life, and they are naturally kind. Because they are even-tempered, they can be very social and diplomatic, and they are one of the most empathetic of the signs. Libra need to work at being more objective when it comes to love. They don’t like work environments that involve complicated politics or chaos and conflicts.
DRUID SIGN mountain ash
— These people always seem to be in a good mood, which they happily share with the rest of the world. Along with their friendliness, Mountain Ashes possess an incredible talent for self-control. They can never bring themselves to bug others with their problems. They have both dignity and respect for others. They are independent and a bit self-centered, but always know when they should give in and when they should stand their ground. They are very goal-driven.
ROMANTIC ORIEN. biromantic
SEXUALITY bisexual
STATUS single
MOTHER
— biological: Aurora, Roman goddess of Dawn
— adopted:
FATHER
— biological: Pluto, Roman god of Wealth and the Underworld
— adopted:
SIBLINGS
— adopted … thinks of Arion as her little brother sometimes
CLOSEST FRIENDS Suiteheart, Margaery, Bastilleprisoner
MENTOR Margaery
COMPANION/PET Arion; Buckskin Thoroughbred colt
HOBBIES art, making jewelry/art out of pieces of junk/material she finds
QUIRKS she’s oddly sentimental about saffron, as it is a reminder of her birth mother, though she is unaware of it; leaves her door open almost always
CURRENT ALLIANCE the ascendants
CURRENT POSITION kuiper corporal
一 previous positions fireball, Starstruck Guardian
CURRENT TITLES Libra
UNOFFICIAL TITLES resident golden girl
LOYALTIES
ABILITIES 一 ★
— Ferrokinesis the ability to control precious metals
— Photokinesis the ability to control/produce light
— Earth Elementals
— Clairvoyance
AESTHETIC
Peachy sunrises and dusky sunsets with clear skies; golden summer days with cottonwood tufts frosting the ground. Picnics with friends on checkered blankets under ancient oak trees, laughing to music that thumps, young and wild and free. The childish glee that comes with blowing bubbles, followed by the awe of watching the multi-color spheres glint in the sunlight. The tranquil state of mind when a breeze brushes exposed skin. A child’s laughter. The softness of paper that has been crumpled too many times. The pleased buzz after receiving a compliment.
APPEARANCE 一 ★
FELINE
— body: cocoa fur with dark points; not quite a chocolate point. has slightly tall ears and small paws, and a feathered tail.
— eyes: vivid gold (glows a little in the dark)
— build: delicate, just under average
— scars: one on her left foreleg, one on her haunches, and a few on the inside of her back legs.
— accessories: a patterned gold bandana tied around the scar on her left foreleg, spiral sun necklace with a turquoise bead
— other possessions: a seashell necklace from lunafreya, a box of paints and brushes, a cookbook that used to belong to margaery's mother
— smells like: cinnamon and vanilla
— references: ★ ★ ★
PERSONALITY 一 ★ POSITIVE - NEGATIVE
SUPPORTIVE – ISFJs are the universal helpers, sharing their knowledge, experience, time and energy with anyone who needs it, and all the more so with friends and family. People with this personality type strive for win-win situations, choosing empathy over judgment whenever possible.
HUMBLE AND SHY – The meek shall inherit the earth, but it’s a long road if they receive no recognition at all. This is possibly ISFJs’ biggest challenge, as they are so concerned with others’ feelings that they refuse to make their thoughts known, or to take any duly earned credit for their contributions. ISFJs’ standards for themselves are also so high that, knowing they could have done some minor aspect of a task better, they often downplay their successes entirely.
RELIABLE AND PATIENT – Rather than offering sporadic, excited rushes that leave things half finished, ISFJs are meticulous and careful, taking a steady approach and bending with the needs of the situation just enough to accomplish their end goals. ISFJs not only ensure that things are done to the highest standard, but often go well beyond what is required.
TAKE THINGS TOO PERSONALLY – ISFJs have trouble separating personal and impersonal situations – any situation is still an interaction between two people, after all – and any negativity from conflict or criticism can carry over from their professional to their personal lives, and back again.
IMAGINATIVE AND OBSERVANT – ISFJs are very imaginative, and use this quality as an accessory to empathy, observing others’ emotional states and seeing things from their perspective. With their feet firmly planted on the ground, it is a very practical imagination, though they do find things quite fascinating and inspiring.
REPRESS THEIR FEELINGS – People with the ISFJ personality type are private and very sensitive, internalizing their feelings a great deal. Much in the way that ISFJs protect others’ feelings, they must protect their own, and this lack of healthy emotional expression can lead to a lot of stress and frustration.
ENTHUSIASTIC – When the goal is right, ISFJs take all this support, reliability and imagination and apply it to something they believe will make a difference in people’s lives – whether fighting poverty with a global initiative or simply making a customer’s day.
OVERLOAD THEMSELVES – Their strong senses of duty and perfectionism combine with this aversion to emotional conflict to create a situation where it is far too easy for ISFJs to overload themselves – or to be overloaded by others – as they struggle silently to meet everyone’s expectations, especially their own.
LOYAL AND HARDWORKING – Given a little time, this enthusiasm grows into loyalty – ISFJ personalities often form an emotional attachment to the ideas and organizations they’ve dedicated themselves to. Anything short of meeting their obligations with good, hard work fails their own expectations.
RELUCTANT TO CHANGE – These challenges can be particularly hard to address since ISFJ personalities value traditions and history highly in their decisions. A situation sometimes needs to reach a breaking point before ISFJs are persuaded by circumstance, or the strong personality of a loved one, to alter course.
GOOD PRACTICAL SKILLS – The best part is, ISFJs have the practical sense to actually do something with all this altruism. If mundane, routine tasks are what need to be done, ISFJs can see the beauty and harmony that they create, because they know that it helps them to care for their friends, family, and anyone else who needs it.
TOO ALTRUISTIC – This is all compounded and reinforced by ISFJs’ otherwise wonderful quality of altruism. Being such warm, good-natured people, ISFJs are willing to let things slide, to believe that things will get better soon, to not burden others by accepting their offers of help, while their troubles mount unassisted.
ADDITIONAL NOTES
— Because of her father and her early childhood as an outcast, she has a deeper sympathy for misunderstood and odd things. She gravitates towards towards all types of people, spare for the stuck up and bitchy.
— For all the pushing around and beating on her as a child, Hazel really won’t hesitate to stand up for her opinion. It might take her a while to get there, but she knows that deep down, there’s a rock solid self-righteousness that cements her morals.
ENNEAGRAM TYPE type one
FEARS & PHOBIAS fear of drowning, fear of dying without having accomplished anything // hydrophobia, athazagoraphobia (being left behind)
ENJOYS soft things, sunrises, golden hour, happy music, company, clear nights, nighttime summer sounds, saffron, marble, gentle touches, firelight
DISLIKES loud arguments, water, disappointing someone
TRIGGERS any sort of water exercise, unexpected physical contact/intimate physical contact, anger
HABITS singing/humming while she works, biting her lip when nervous
— human habits include doodling on her arms/hands/legs in metallic gold sharpie, curling a lock of hair around her finger, wringing her hands when speaking in public,
MENTAL HEALTH STATE
— mental strength is [inexperienced] [weak] [moderate] [strong] [experienced]
EMOTIONAL HEALTH STATE
— emotional strength is [inexperienced] [weak] [moderate] [strong] [experienced]
EXTRA SOULS 一 ★
Charlotte was the daughter of the greek god Hades. She lived as a black Morgan filly in ArcadianClan for all her life. At a barely socially conscious age, she fled her abusive human owner at the demands of her mother. Charlotte was kind and strong willed; the perfect mother figure. She cared deeply about all her friends and clanmates, no matter their history or personality. However, her mythological lineage clung to her skin in all the wrong places. It made her uncomfortable, and she wanted nothing more than to get rid of it. Lost souls would constantly whisper to her -- telling her somber and sorrowful things that dragged her deep into depression. They would reach out to her, brushing ghostly fingertips against her sides, begging in croaking voices to revive them, to free them. Charlotte becomes so distraught by their wailing and sadness that she drowns herself, desperate to escape the voices. She becomes Hazel’s sometimes shocking maturity, and is also largely responsible for Hazel’s love of horses. Unfortunately, she is also one of the main causes of Hazel’s fear of water.
Titaniumstars was once a deaf healer in Tidalclan, and the daughter of Ladyliberty. She was bitter and lonely despite her close-knit clan and family, having only ever been able to see the world, and not once hear the clamor or beauty of nature. Never would she know what a splash of water sounded like, or the laugh that followed a good joke. Never would she know a bird chirping, a cricket playing, or the warm voice of her mother. For this, she would always hold a grudge. She died young and unexpectedly, and her petulant nature carries with her lack of aging. She contributes largely to Hazel’s childish as well as insecure side, since Tinny has a bad habit of being the second voice of doubt/sarcasm.
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WITH EVERY HEARTBEAT I HAVE LEFT
i will defend your every breath; i'll do better