06-01-2019, 10:25 PM
idyllfields
stars did fall
[ im EQUALLY as srry for taking so long to answer D: ]
the response was... unexpected but also not. truthfully idyll had no direction of where to bring the topic, but they enjoyed where it was going. they kept themselves polite still, entering when directed. they sat across from her, letting the metal doors shut behind them. they glanced around them at first, the hallway seeming... endless. winding with other connecting halls it looked. they were curious as to where each one led to, though smart enough not to act on that curiosity. this was not their home of course. they had just.. never been inside a machine such as this. for a brief moment they wondered of goldie had ever gotten lost in it when she was younger and smaller. she had said she wasn't always a tiger. they could not imagine living in something like this and being comfortable. the creaks and groans of metal in the middle of the night would keep them shaken surely.
they took their focus from the submarine back to their captain. they had come for advice, not interior design, of course. they had to agree with her first statement. father jamison had departed for reasons different than pincher. they weren't sure if he was alive or not. only a vague idea of the islands he last inhabited a few months ago. their father was a traveling philosopher... pincher was obviously of something greater.
the story of pincher and jacob was heartwarming at first, but quickly went downhill. they were unsure how to react. they had never had a situation like that happen before, the closest being their father always leaving abruptly. they remained quiet still. they would let her speak, fearing interruption would appear as rude or uncaring. idyll was glad that goldie felt okay with sharing her relationships with her parents of course. they could imagine how much hurt she felt... all of that happening at once so young.
the relationship she described between her and her mother was... painful. idyllfields always had their mother... she was just young and had trouble handling a child by herself. nanny took up most of the actual raising, but mother did cook everyone's meals and bought them toys and supplies to support their hobbies. idyll didn't always treat her the best, especially when nanny would treat them poorly some days, but now that she was gone... idyll wished they were softer to her. it appeared goldenluxury had something of an entire different breed. they could only relate in a way that there was an emotional gap between their mothers.
their jaw clenched shut as she moved on to her time in the pitt. the coyote felt dizzy at times as she described the events that had happened to her. all of that pain... torture. it made idyll shudder and queasy just imagining how it must have felt. no. don't try to feel it. i may actually faint. they adjusted their posture to kick them out of the thought, sticking with silently listening instead.
when her story had come to a close, idyll had to chuckle at her apology. "i do not mean to laugh, but you have nothing to say sorry for. i appreciate you sharing this with me. it has been a slight bit eye opening, knowing how your family has formed to what it is now. i believe it is good to share thing's like that sometimes. specially in spaces where there is no judgement for it."
at her offer, they would nod. "yes, actually! i am not much of a drinker, but i would appreciate some tea. mint and honey is my favorite." the thought rounded their memories back.
"my father taught me how to grow herbs before he left the first time. we grew mint and basil. he built an apiary as well and nanny and i would care for the bees and make sure they hibernated properly before the winter. though when he did leave the first time, mother said it was the shortest trip he had taken. only three months; it felt like forever to me. he stayed for about two weeks, and left again. this time eight months... his last return was right before mother got sick. that was... about a year ago now." they paused, sitting down and thinking quietly to themself for several moments.
"i am still not sure if i will ever find him. i just wished he was not so... distant. i have never met anyone with a father like mine who leaves so long and remains so far away from their family. i thought it was normal... until i actually came out into the real world. now i feel as though i lacked an actual parent, even two because of how often nanny took care of me where my mother lacked the skills to." it was rambling mainly to themselves, but they liked having goldenluxury there to hear their thoughts.
"would you think it was worth it? journeying so far to look for him, and continue to do so?"
the response was... unexpected but also not. truthfully idyll had no direction of where to bring the topic, but they enjoyed where it was going. they kept themselves polite still, entering when directed. they sat across from her, letting the metal doors shut behind them. they glanced around them at first, the hallway seeming... endless. winding with other connecting halls it looked. they were curious as to where each one led to, though smart enough not to act on that curiosity. this was not their home of course. they had just.. never been inside a machine such as this. for a brief moment they wondered of goldie had ever gotten lost in it when she was younger and smaller. she had said she wasn't always a tiger. they could not imagine living in something like this and being comfortable. the creaks and groans of metal in the middle of the night would keep them shaken surely.
they took their focus from the submarine back to their captain. they had come for advice, not interior design, of course. they had to agree with her first statement. father jamison had departed for reasons different than pincher. they weren't sure if he was alive or not. only a vague idea of the islands he last inhabited a few months ago. their father was a traveling philosopher... pincher was obviously of something greater.
the story of pincher and jacob was heartwarming at first, but quickly went downhill. they were unsure how to react. they had never had a situation like that happen before, the closest being their father always leaving abruptly. they remained quiet still. they would let her speak, fearing interruption would appear as rude or uncaring. idyll was glad that goldie felt okay with sharing her relationships with her parents of course. they could imagine how much hurt she felt... all of that happening at once so young.
the relationship she described between her and her mother was... painful. idyllfields always had their mother... she was just young and had trouble handling a child by herself. nanny took up most of the actual raising, but mother did cook everyone's meals and bought them toys and supplies to support their hobbies. idyll didn't always treat her the best, especially when nanny would treat them poorly some days, but now that she was gone... idyll wished they were softer to her. it appeared goldenluxury had something of an entire different breed. they could only relate in a way that there was an emotional gap between their mothers.
their jaw clenched shut as she moved on to her time in the pitt. the coyote felt dizzy at times as she described the events that had happened to her. all of that pain... torture. it made idyll shudder and queasy just imagining how it must have felt. no. don't try to feel it. i may actually faint. they adjusted their posture to kick them out of the thought, sticking with silently listening instead.
when her story had come to a close, idyll had to chuckle at her apology. "i do not mean to laugh, but you have nothing to say sorry for. i appreciate you sharing this with me. it has been a slight bit eye opening, knowing how your family has formed to what it is now. i believe it is good to share thing's like that sometimes. specially in spaces where there is no judgement for it."
at her offer, they would nod. "yes, actually! i am not much of a drinker, but i would appreciate some tea. mint and honey is my favorite." the thought rounded their memories back.
"my father taught me how to grow herbs before he left the first time. we grew mint and basil. he built an apiary as well and nanny and i would care for the bees and make sure they hibernated properly before the winter. though when he did leave the first time, mother said it was the shortest trip he had taken. only three months; it felt like forever to me. he stayed for about two weeks, and left again. this time eight months... his last return was right before mother got sick. that was... about a year ago now." they paused, sitting down and thinking quietly to themself for several moments.
"i am still not sure if i will ever find him. i just wished he was not so... distant. i have never met anyone with a father like mine who leaves so long and remains so far away from their family. i thought it was normal... until i actually came out into the real world. now i feel as though i lacked an actual parent, even two because of how often nanny took care of me where my mother lacked the skills to." it was rambling mainly to themselves, but they liked having goldenluxury there to hear their thoughts.
"would you think it was worth it? journeying so far to look for him, and continue to do so?"
holding hands, making light .
they/them — typhoon — eastern coyote