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priscilla "sil" rosario — female — the pitt — tags

light paws carry a small figure into this unfamiliar territory, tired blue eyes looking around in a gentle silence. this place...smells gross. not like home, but that doesn't smell good anymore, either. that is why he ran away so long ago. da and ba had died...she had not seen it, but she had been told. she'd not gone to look. death is something she could not quite understand, though she's sure she's felt it. pa, as far as she knew, was not dead, but he was not there anymore. and her siblings all deal with it in their own ways. she doesn't know anymore where they are or what they're doing. she misses them, but she can't go back. she'd not stuck around to see the death, but she could smell it, and it wouldn't go away. she felt as if she was drowning every time she even turned her head to look towards the distance island.

but, she couldn't survive on her own.

she could hunt, she could heal herself, she could sustain herself, but this isolation is too much. ari is her only companion and she is so cold all the time. she couldn't fight. ari tried to teach her, but she isn't good at it. she doesn't get it. she doesn't like it.

being in isolation so long, she'd lost touch with what any outside group may be. names jumbled together and even the name of her old home faded away sometimes. the typhoon. did she dare ask for directions to go back? she couldn't. living someplace else felt like betrayal and for months she would fight with herself. not just over the place of living, but who she is, too. priscilla rosario, but she doesn't feel that way. when she looks at herself, something is off. she feels wrong. something feels wrong. maybe, she thinks, she just needs to find a home. that's what ari is telling her. and so, she listens. he'd not been wrong before, even if he is mean.

this is what brings her here, in this unfamiliar territory. she needs to be with someone. maybe she can visit her old home again someday, but she is not ready yet. ari says to find a home and that's what she's doing. whatever this place is, she's sure it will be good enough for now. it's the closest group she could find. "hello?" her voice shakes, soft and timid. her wings are ruffled slightly, long fur sticking upward as she tries to maintain her breathing. "can someone tell me where i am?"

you'll be happy all the time, i know you can make it right