remember me, love / MEETING 9.19

[Jiyu Simul Stamus]

Jiyu knew that things had to move around when they moved, it was simply the way things went, the vast majority of the things around her changed. The calico had been stagnant forever, a guard, that was always her purpose! She lacked something basic and essential that everyone else had, making her unfit for anything else. While 'happy' was not so much in her vocab, content was and she had always been content with the frozen way things often remained for her. Stability was important, especially when something drastic had happened. The most she had walked into this meeting expecting in her own regard was maybe guardmaster, she'd always been a guard. Having her stick around in the same capacity? Could be comforting for others, she'd found it worked that way in the past. Change was not something she partook in, her purpose was preserving everyone's safety and she took any steps needed to do it from her position amongst the guards, it kept her in check.

Monarch?! She didn't show any signs of even having heard it on the outside, her brain wheeling with his statement. Monarch? How could she, that wasn't what she was, never once had she been suited to some job like that. Of course, how would someone like her know anyways, Jiyu lived her whole life fulfilling one role, never questioning why she did it because she knew nothing else existed inside of her. Yet, the leader standing up there now had challenged that very fact once before already, leading numerous of their small mass out of the burning forest and preforming a job that wasn't quiet hers the entire night. How could he expect her to step outside of her role again?! Much less be able to fulfil a new one, it wasn't what she did, he had been alive long enough to see that. Empty optics blinked as she walked forward to the drink anyways, because after-all that was what she'd always been following orders, contained.

It was warfare at the end of the day, it wasn't that big of a deal, she'd always been involved in war, so it wouldn't be that much different. Yet, she couldn't help but feel her life would be more difficult with this and she wouldn't be what they expected, after-all, being a guard had contained her perfectly. This, she had no idea what this was going to do. The stoic could only nodd and follow through.