EAT YOU ALIVE / breakdown

[CAESAR CIPHER.]

FORGETTING LIES AND PAIN !

CAESAR CIPHER. MALE. THE TYPHOON. OFFICER.

Goldie's words being interrupted by her sobs made Caesar's fur prickle. If he could read her mind, it was possible he could sympathize with her - at least, on the inside. The demon knew what it was like whenever people found you during breakdowns when you didn't want them to. He knew how it felt to want to run off and escape, willing people to go away and not look at him. Unfortunately, Caesar couldn't tell what Goldenluxury was thinking and even if he could, he couldn't do anything about it on the outside. He didn't trust her enough to say something to her mentally should he be able to, so he'd probably just try to keep a monotonous look to his face during her breakdown and ignore everybody else. Caesar's ears flicked as the she-cat sobbed her words, his tail flicking thoughtfully. "It's not bad to lie, you know." He stated flatly with a shrug. "Sometimes you have to lie until you don't know what's truth anymore."

That's what he told himself. Caesar told himself that he had to lie about things until he didn't know what was reality and what was truth anymore. In order to repress his emotions, he lied to himself and told himself that everything was fine. That he loved bossing people around, that he loved the cries of pain and the look of fear in his opponents' eyes whenever he tortured them. When it was, in fact, the opposite. But no one can know. The demon mentally growled to himself, digging his claws into the ground as much as he was able to. If people knew how he truly felt about things, they would judge him and he would no longer have the respect he's earned here. Everything would be ruined.

"Listen Golden. As much as I hate you and your family, you're not selfish." Caesar had a look on his face that revealed he didn't want to say this, and of course on the outside he didn't want to. But truthfully, the Officer meant his words. Good people did bad things sometimes, even on purpose. Most of the time they did things on accident and that didn't make them a bad person, especially if they regretted said action. Unlike me. He was a bad guy, not only because of his actions but because of the fact he didn't outwardly regret what he had done. To everybody else, he was a monster. That's what you want.

"Decius won't hurt The Typhoon." Caesar went on with a sigh. "We won't let him, alright? You need to accept help." Ironic, coming from the creature who didn't like medics and their herbal knowledge and yet here he was, demanding Goldie to seek help. Mostly because he knew if he didn't, Pincher would be on his ass, but also because he did care for the Roux girl. Even if he wouldn't admit it on the outside.

#psychosocial.