08-10-2018, 08:35 AM
whips bc just gonna put all my angsty/kinda depressing shit in here from my bts appreciation channel because i don't wanna ever lose it
THE MEANING OF BUTTERFLY: FOR ME:
uh so i came up with this last night when i was trying to sleep because, well, i just couldn't sleep, and i guess this'll be a place for bts music. now, yeah, i know some of you don't like them or prefer not to listen to them, but hear me out. i don't know what your reason is, whether it be because you don't wanna get sucked in and / or because you can't understand it i was the same way, or some other reason, you have to listen to them with the english lyrics. even then, it's still beautiful without it. the lyrics are really meaningful.
like in "butterfly," wow, those lyrics really hit me, because that's exactly how i felt as a kid and how i feel now about my brother passing away. especially since when at his funeral, there were so many butterflies, that whenever we see them, we think of him. "i still can't believe it, all of this seems like a dream. eh oh oh, don't try to disappear, yeah." when my brother was in the hospital, i couldn't believe that it had happened. it was like a dream, or more like a nightmare. i didn't want him to disappear, i didn't want him to leave me. i wanted him to be okay and to stay.
"will you stay by my side? ( will you? ) will you promise me? ( will you? ) if i let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break, i'm scared, scared, scared of that." these lyrics... they get me the most. i... relate so much to these lyrics. because he let go of my hand. and he flew away. he's gone. but i know he's in a better place. he's happy, now. he has no pain. and i know he's with me by my side, and he will always stay by my side. it's an unspoken promise.
"will you stop time? ( will you? ) if this moment passes ( if this ), as though it hadn't happened, i'm scared, scared, scared i'll lose you." i wanted time to stop. i didn't want him to leave me. i didn't want that moment to pass. i didn't want to lose my brother. but, obviously, there were other plans for that. it was his time to go.
and i've accepted that. i know i'll see him one day again in heaven, along with both my uncle pauls, my nana, my gramps, my auntie joyce... i'll see them all again.
but what i'm trying to get at is that bts is actually really helpful. i know you might not listen to them after this, but i want to tell you guys they actually helped me through a lot, even if it's been a short time. they're really caring guys. they make upbeat music, and they sometimes they make sad, depressing music. they make music from the heart.
i hope that maybe you'll give them a listen someday.
like in "butterfly," wow, those lyrics really hit me, because that's exactly how i felt as a kid and how i feel now about my brother passing away. especially since when at his funeral, there were so many butterflies, that whenever we see them, we think of him. "i still can't believe it, all of this seems like a dream. eh oh oh, don't try to disappear, yeah." when my brother was in the hospital, i couldn't believe that it had happened. it was like a dream, or more like a nightmare. i didn't want him to disappear, i didn't want him to leave me. i wanted him to be okay and to stay.
"will you stay by my side? ( will you? ) will you promise me? ( will you? ) if i let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break, i'm scared, scared, scared of that." these lyrics... they get me the most. i... relate so much to these lyrics. because he let go of my hand. and he flew away. he's gone. but i know he's in a better place. he's happy, now. he has no pain. and i know he's with me by my side, and he will always stay by my side. it's an unspoken promise.
"will you stop time? ( will you? ) if this moment passes ( if this ), as though it hadn't happened, i'm scared, scared, scared i'll lose you." i wanted time to stop. i didn't want him to leave me. i didn't want that moment to pass. i didn't want to lose my brother. but, obviously, there were other plans for that. it was his time to go.
and i've accepted that. i know i'll see him one day again in heaven, along with both my uncle pauls, my nana, my gramps, my auntie joyce... i'll see them all again.
but what i'm trying to get at is that bts is actually really helpful. i know you might not listen to them after this, but i want to tell you guys they actually helped me through a lot, even if it's been a short time. they're really caring guys. they make upbeat music, and they sometimes they make sad, depressing music. they make music from the heart.
i hope that maybe you'll give them a listen someday.
INSPIRING ME TO KEEP GOING:
ofo i listen to this on a daily basis & it gives me motivation because people say seokjin cannot sing, but he has the best voice ever & his high notes in this are amazing, & it inspires me to be like him & to keep going no matter what anyone says <33
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-9IdQ-BeZQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-9IdQ-BeZQ
THEIR HARDSHIPS:
i know i said i was going to bed, but i honestly can't sleep without getting this off my chest. i'll sleep afterwards, i promise. but the reason i was crying was because i watched the 2016 mama awards. this is the year bts won for "artist of the year." what got me the most was how emotional they all were. jungkook & suga, the two emotionally strongest of the group, were crying, suga literally sobbing his eyes out. suga, or yoongi, was told by his family he would never make it. but he kept going on nonetheless. he would sell his cds on the streets for 10 cents, barely eating food for days or weeks because music was so much more important to him. i know i say jin has been through a lot, when really, yoongi has gone through so much more. these boys have seriously transformed my life in the little time i've been listening to them. they let me know it's okay to be myself, to accept myself, to love myself. i talk about how butterfly is one of the songs i connect to the most, and that's all thanks to rm. he is a beautiful songwriter, who gets hate for no reason by fans, when he's basically the whole reason bts is together and that they've gotten so far. sure, their looks, voices, and dances have gotten them so far, but what truly matters is the lyrics. that's the most beautiful part of a song. everything else is just add ons.
i know some of you may ignore and and skip over that, and that's alright. i want to put this here for everyone, though. i want everyone to see it because i want to let you all know how loved you are, truly. at this point im just rambling, but watching that really fucked me up. once again, i hope you'll just give them a listen. even if it's one lyric, or just one song. that's all i really ask for. thanks for reading this
to give myself some closure, i guess the moral of that was that you should never give up. no matter what anyone says, keep going. ignore the people who say you can’t. ignore the people who jab at you because you’re “not good enough,” because the truth is, is that they’re jealous that they’re not as good as you. you are the best person you can be. don’t give up. be yourself. love yourself. don’t change yourself because of what others say.
i love you guys so much. <33 우의 ( that means friendship in korean )
i know some of you may ignore and and skip over that, and that's alright. i want to put this here for everyone, though. i want everyone to see it because i want to let you all know how loved you are, truly. at this point im just rambling, but watching that really fucked me up. once again, i hope you'll just give them a listen. even if it's one lyric, or just one song. that's all i really ask for. thanks for reading this
to give myself some closure, i guess the moral of that was that you should never give up. no matter what anyone says, keep going. ignore the people who say you can’t. ignore the people who jab at you because you’re “not good enough,” because the truth is, is that they’re jealous that they’re not as good as you. you are the best person you can be. don’t give up. be yourself. love yourself. don’t change yourself because of what others say.
i love you guys so much. <33 우의 ( that means friendship in korean )
YOU MADE IT, JIN:
i'm honestly really happy right now because jin did it. he got his solo, awake, and now he has his other solo into, epiphany. he proved to bighit that he IS bigger than they thought he was. he's gonna become so big after this, i just know it. writing this up and listening to epiphany honestly makes me cry just knowing that jin is doing so good, and proving everyone wrong. he never deserved any of that unnecessary hate, because he's just as good as the other members, if not better. i saw a reaction thing to the jintro, and they literally were so shocked and happy about it. it just makes me smile to see people love him and realize his talents like i did. and i didn't even like his looks at first ( because i think i was bombarded with too many faces at the time that looked the same to me ), but it was his voice that drew him to me. awake is the song that made me realize that this man was trying so hard. that he knew of what the haters were saying and that they were right; that he'd never fly as high as the other members. but he would still be there for the other members and support them no matter what.
but jin, you made it, hun. you finally made it!
but jin, you made it, hun. you finally made it!