⋆ — ❝ GOODBYE LULLABY(E) ✧˖ ˚

[SAYØNARALULLABY]

[align=center][div style="width: 455px; text-align: justify; font-family: nyala; font-size: 8pt; letter-spacing: 1px; color: #000"]At the result of when he visited Tanglewood with his siblings and the 08/03 meeting, Ayon feels highly guilty for running away from his family and Prestige when he knows there's a choice he can help them, even if he only distracts the opponents by simply being there for them to focus on because he's an easier target.

Though, he fled, and it's not because he was afraid, but he knows he can't provide aid because of his poor skills in terms of combat and planning; with that fact, he knows there is a chance if he decided to stay put and be a distraction, he'd end up getting captured or even killed—quite higher than the outcome being otherwise. If both chances were equal or the positive result was at least slightly higher than another, it's most likely he would've done it. Since that's not the case, the smartest thing he could go for was fleeing. The thought of not being there for his family when in danger was still heartbreaking, making him feel worthless and pathetic.

This causes Ayon to keep saying along the lines, "I'll protect you," towards his family and those who are a Roseblood member. They sound likes jokes for one regal and powerful to laugh at due to his weak, tiny body and have skills lower than what Rosebloods expects from an individual being a part of their group, though, while he's aware he can't do a lot for the group at this age, he's just trying to convince himself he'll be capable of doing so much, despite his conditions. Maybe not now, but one day, he will.

Then, the meeting have motivated him to be more determined to gain knowledge that will be benificial for himself and, especially, the group and use it for so, and start pushing himself into training already. To see Sola, his mother, struggling and be nearly put in a death calling situation, and watched Prestige's life slowly taken away under the lion's weight when he tried to protect her was enough for him to tell himself he have to be strong and make his way to improving his skills, so anything like the meeting won't happen again, at least it wouldn't get worse from there; it brought him to be steadfast with the courage to put everything into his best effort.

Even though, Ayon will struggle a lot due to his disorders and other conditions, as well as I'm planning to make him have learning disability, and often wishes to give up, at the end, he will have to remind himself it's the effort that's important. How he tries to do everything at its best.