Down To The Devils Show

[Jiyu Simul Stamus]

When even one's own mother found them creepy? That was when you easily knew something fundamental inside them was so heavily broken it was likely never getting fixed. Jiyu seemed to survive well enough without whatever she was missing. If she survived well as she seemed to; How bad could that flaw be?

She had wanted to keep all of this from Capone from the moment she found out they were related, her mother was the last cat she wanted to know the truth. Who she was now seemed to make the ghost proud! Jiyu didn't want to ruin that for any reason, letting the other know she hadn't been born this way could ruin everything. However, the way she happened to be raised was often too strong to fight and lying to her parent was not an option, nor was simply saying nothing. Now that the can of worms had been open? Something had to come from it.

"He found me first, I was cold, mostly covered by snow and didn't even seem to be breathing but when he picked me up, he could feel my heart beating even though I was almost frozen, according to his later bragging." she had been cold from the start it was no wonder she had turned out the way she had, even just managing to be upset by so little of it took an entirely frozen heart. "I guess he told them I was dead and he was going to bury me. He wanted me for his own purposes and it wasn't my life he cared about but the strength he swears my beating heart proved." WhiteMoon had never cared about the lives of other's, not once, otherwise, he wouldn't have ever started what he did. She could remember those dens, the rocks they moved over top took two to three cats to move at least most times, so heavy a queen and young kits had no chance of pushing them. "He put me in with one of the queen's himself and his brother had been keeping weakened and trapped in old nearly collapsed dens scattered around for who knows how long." she only knew the curse of time that applied to the ones she had helped catch, the ones she had helped keep when her initiation was over. "He liked working kits in full litters and one of hers had been stillborn, so I guess he found it suiting to put a survivor of a stillborn litter with hers." she could only guess partly, she knew some from when Joya eventually decided to come clean as she could years later. "No matter the litter size though, only one kit from any litter would ever make it out alive and they never had to lay a paw to kill the other kits themselves." it was far from direct or anywhere near the full story, but it was an implication she had killed at least two or three other kits before she was old enough to understand what she was doing. "Once that part was complete, like the other's in my group he placed me with Painted until training was complete, became one of the few to finish alone." she didn't want to give too many details, they just weren't needed, she needed to focus on the future or Capone was going to find her dead again.

Was that enough? It seemed she considered saying nothing else at that point, but that would still be lying to an extent. "Time went on, living helping him continue his operation" a monster helping make more monster's, perfect killers all for whatever purpose he decided. "We didn't really know his goal, just to obey him and complete our task, no matter who he said to kill, what maiming or torture he said to inflict. I don't even think his Clan knew about us, expect the few he decided to have join as bodyguards, he always said I was better suited to murder and torment."  Maybe she had been taking out her rage at what had happened to her all along, simply doing it in the way she knew kept her alive. "Then one night, I don't remember why, I just snapped and turned on him during a mission, slashed his chest open and ate his heart." she may have not even had any reason, what he had made her, what she had been before The Elite, didn't know what love was, only knew what she did, for all Jiyu knew she may have just felt like it and no longer seen any reason not to. However, when his brother had shown up on the scene, she was suddenly a scared kitten again and fled, ending up at the mansion and within the elite before the next sunrise.

That had to be enough right? No details would be required, that was what had happened just leaving out the details, which she didn't really want to discuss. She probably needed a therapist but she didn't want that to be mother and most folk would likely go insane hearing the whole story. Plus it wasn't just her past that got to her, she also had a few incidents like the stunt Grim preformed that tormented her mind.