07-27-2018, 03:09 PM
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goldenluxury "goldie" roux — female — the typhoon — tags
the young girl was late, it seemed. to be fair, she was especially tired currently and felt dizzy. she had to take careful, slow steps as she moved towards her papa's call. she coughed a couple of times, arriving near blue and offering a warm smile to him. she wondered what he would wish for, but she would not stare to see, as she did not want to seem invasive. she knew how her brother preferred his privacy, after all. she would then turn her warm gaze to her papa, eyeing the lanterns and delicately picking one up with a brush before thinking.
goldie had many wishes. her most important wishes revolved around others. she would make those happen, though. she was determined to. though, she did have selfish desires, too. she repressed them. they weren't important. she didn't need them to happen and neither did anybody else. she didn't have time to make them happen - she had to make the important ones occur first.
she wants life to be perfect. she wants to make others proud. she wants to be important. she wants her crewmates to like her. she wants her family to love her. she wants affection. she wants to feel happy. these were all selfish desires that she did not need to make happen. she would be okay in the grand scheme of things if they didn't, after all. she was already given so much - how could she dare ask for more? they were not as important as what she would make happen - her real wishes.
goldie will be strong. she will be so strong and smart for everyone. goldie will be perfect. she wishes to achieve perfection for others and she is determined to. her being perfect for others is not the same as her own life being perfect. goldie will make life easier for everyone. she wishes to work hard for everyone else - hard enough that no one has to work themselves. goldie will make everyone happy. she will make life so good for everyone that they don't need to worry or feel bad. goldie will keep her family safe. she would fight for them as hard as possible. goldie will be the greatest daughter. goldie will make life perfect for everyone else.
she had a clear list of ideas of what she could write for the lanterns, but the question was, which would she choose? the girl stared towards the blank lantern with a focused, pensive expression. after a couple of moments, she decided to slowly write out "safe family and crew". that was most important - none of her crewmates should be in danger. she drew a shield with a heart in the center of it along with the wish. next, she would write "happy world". she decided if the whole world was happy, maybe there would be nothing to worry about and no one would ever be a jerk. that would solve many problems, she decided. she drew what would appear to be her closest family - jacob, pincher, and coldblue - all smiling. and, finally, she would write "perfection".
what exactly she meant by this was sort of unclear. she drew the shield with the heart and her family, smiling, and then herself. she was the one holding the shield and she sent them heart symbols and happy faces. she would be perfect and make life perfect for them. that was her ultimate goal. she writes a small "goldie" in the bottom right corner and finishes, setting it gently down.
goldie had many wishes. her most important wishes revolved around others. she would make those happen, though. she was determined to. though, she did have selfish desires, too. she repressed them. they weren't important. she didn't need them to happen and neither did anybody else. she didn't have time to make them happen - she had to make the important ones occur first.
she wants life to be perfect. she wants to make others proud. she wants to be important. she wants her crewmates to like her. she wants her family to love her. she wants affection. she wants to feel happy. these were all selfish desires that she did not need to make happen. she would be okay in the grand scheme of things if they didn't, after all. she was already given so much - how could she dare ask for more? they were not as important as what she would make happen - her real wishes.
goldie will be strong. she will be so strong and smart for everyone. goldie will be perfect. she wishes to achieve perfection for others and she is determined to. her being perfect for others is not the same as her own life being perfect. goldie will make life easier for everyone. she wishes to work hard for everyone else - hard enough that no one has to work themselves. goldie will make everyone happy. she will make life so good for everyone that they don't need to worry or feel bad. goldie will keep her family safe. she would fight for them as hard as possible. goldie will be the greatest daughter. goldie will make life perfect for everyone else.
she had a clear list of ideas of what she could write for the lanterns, but the question was, which would she choose? the girl stared towards the blank lantern with a focused, pensive expression. after a couple of moments, she decided to slowly write out "safe family and crew". that was most important - none of her crewmates should be in danger. she drew a shield with a heart in the center of it along with the wish. next, she would write "happy world". she decided if the whole world was happy, maybe there would be nothing to worry about and no one would ever be a jerk. that would solve many problems, she decided. she drew what would appear to be her closest family - jacob, pincher, and coldblue - all smiling. and, finally, she would write "perfection".
what exactly she meant by this was sort of unclear. she drew the shield with the heart and her family, smiling, and then herself. she was the one holding the shield and she sent them heart symbols and happy faces. she would be perfect and make life perfect for them. that was her ultimate goal. she writes a small "goldie" in the bottom right corner and finishes, setting it gently down.
NOTHING'S EVER LOST FOREVER, IT'S JUST HIDING IN THE RECESS OF YOUR MIND AND WHEN YOU NEED IT, IT WILL COME TO YOU AT NIGHT. I MISS THE YELLOW. I MISS THE YELLING AND THE SHAKEDOWN. I'M NOT COMPLAINING, NO, I GOT A BETTER SET OF KNIVES NOW. I MISS MY DRUMMER, MY DEAD STEPBROTHER, AND THE PIT CROWD. AND CHUCK AND MATTY - IF THEY COULD SEE ME THEY'D BE SO PROUD.