07-26-2018, 09:26 PM
♛ WAS A LONG AND DARK DECEMBER, FROM THE ROOFTOPS I REMEMBER. —
"Is your place really here? Is this where you belong?"
Sometimes, thoughts would surface and they would be easy enough to push down, shove them under with the guise of just being side effects of the uneasiness he harbored within him. It wasn't anything too bad or destructive, just small thoughts here and there. But this one? This one was....a little more persistent. Surfaced much more often then the others and he couldn't seem to make it go away for good. Maybe it stemmed from his struggle for any control over events in his life. He never really chose to be here, did he? He was too weak to have a choice, too young to do much else but accept a new lifestyle among the starry eyed Ascendants.
Now he did love it here. He loved Suiteheart and Margaery and Versailles, but there were so many here...he could feel himself backing up into a corner, a dark and shadowed corner to avoid social interaction. That was his fault completely, he was absolutely hopeless. But maybe that's just how it was, and how it was meant to be forever. Would he be an adult and still shy away so much? He hoped not. He wanted to be....great. He wanted to be strong, he wanted to help people, lead the way, something.
Alex stood up, the four walls of his room felt suffocating. He should be sleeping, it was late at night, after all. The moon was high in the sky, bright and somewhat comforting with it's soft glow. He frowned, shutting off all semblance of thought as he pushed his way out of his room, passed the door, and into the hall. He took great care to not be so loud, which wasn't hard at all when you were always as cautious and on edge as he was. It was habit at this point.
He left his meteor shard there, next to the small pile of rocks he'd collected. It had yet to be carved into.
Through the observatory halls and out into the night he went, shaking out his fur when the crisp night air caught him off guard. The moon really was bright, not yet full, but still bright enough to cast a glow across his dark form. The grass of the field brushed against his legs, they'd gotten longer since his arrival, beginning to hold some lean muscle from all his wandering. He was old enough to survive now, wasn't he? He could live on his own with care.
A gentle wind carried itself past him, pulling his eyes away from the dark sky to what was ahead of him. A small bird called out, taking his full attention before it took off. Alex took a single glance back before he followed, making his return to the lands beyond the Ascendants' boundaries where he was found.
"I'm strong enough. No one will abandon me ever again. They don't need me."
And just like that, Alexander disappeared into the night.
// i got development plots with this child so he must Run
[div style="text-align: right; text-transform: uppercase; text-shadow: 0px 0px 2px white; font-size: 24px;"]— ALEX
#psychosocial.Sometimes, thoughts would surface and they would be easy enough to push down, shove them under with the guise of just being side effects of the uneasiness he harbored within him. It wasn't anything too bad or destructive, just small thoughts here and there. But this one? This one was....a little more persistent. Surfaced much more often then the others and he couldn't seem to make it go away for good. Maybe it stemmed from his struggle for any control over events in his life. He never really chose to be here, did he? He was too weak to have a choice, too young to do much else but accept a new lifestyle among the starry eyed Ascendants.
Now he did love it here. He loved Suiteheart and Margaery and Versailles, but there were so many here...he could feel himself backing up into a corner, a dark and shadowed corner to avoid social interaction. That was his fault completely, he was absolutely hopeless. But maybe that's just how it was, and how it was meant to be forever. Would he be an adult and still shy away so much? He hoped not. He wanted to be....great. He wanted to be strong, he wanted to help people, lead the way, something.
Alex stood up, the four walls of his room felt suffocating. He should be sleeping, it was late at night, after all. The moon was high in the sky, bright and somewhat comforting with it's soft glow. He frowned, shutting off all semblance of thought as he pushed his way out of his room, passed the door, and into the hall. He took great care to not be so loud, which wasn't hard at all when you were always as cautious and on edge as he was. It was habit at this point.
He left his meteor shard there, next to the small pile of rocks he'd collected. It had yet to be carved into.
Through the observatory halls and out into the night he went, shaking out his fur when the crisp night air caught him off guard. The moon really was bright, not yet full, but still bright enough to cast a glow across his dark form. The grass of the field brushed against his legs, they'd gotten longer since his arrival, beginning to hold some lean muscle from all his wandering. He was old enough to survive now, wasn't he? He could live on his own with care.
A gentle wind carried itself past him, pulling his eyes away from the dark sky to what was ahead of him. A small bird called out, taking his full attention before it took off. Alex took a single glance back before he followed, making his return to the lands beyond the Ascendants' boundaries where he was found.
"I'm strong enough. No one will abandon me ever again. They don't need me."
And just like that, Alexander disappeared into the night.
// i got development plots with this child so he must Run
[div style="text-align: right; text-transform: uppercase; text-shadow: 0px 0px 2px white; font-size: 24px;"]— ALEX
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she/her — characters — discord: @purplebeauty49 — sibling adopts!