please talk to me about original character ideas

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ok so the very first character i seriously roleplayed with was a 100% original character of mine, and i still play him today !! when i first made him he was almost completely different from who he is now though lmao- p much the only thing i haven't changed abt him is his body and his history skdks. originally, pierce was supposed to be an antisocial, awkward, grumpy lil dude who really didn't like people at ALL. he was supposed to be a photographer rather than a painter too but i scrapped that idea early on.when i first tossed him into a clan on FF, he was reclusive and not super talkative and just liked 2 keep to himself. he was rough around the edges and seemed a little mean externally, but the original plan was, once one got to know him, he would actually be really nice and he had a good heart. i liked his character at the time, but considering i started him at five months  and he was quickly thrust into a position, he was presented many other people and many situations that helped to shape his character differently pretty fast, and after a couple months, he was kind of forced into presenting in a far more friendly way, which he kind of just picked up naturally after a while. he learned to become more open and after realizing how cool a lot of people were, started seeking out interaction with others simply because he LOVES other people and learning about them.

he was born to some breeder or smth (i never went into a ton of detail on it), so he never really knew his biological family, and was adopted by humans at around the age of 2 months. they ran into some trouble with money a couple months down the line, however, and had to leave their house after it was put into foreclosure, and they left pierce in it. so naturally he was forced 2 find a new home and after wandering for a while, he came across the clan i had him in originally. even though many characters in this clan sort of adopted him as family, that sense of abandonment from both his original family and the humans stuck with him throughout his whole life, and even now, he's clingy and envious and TERRIFIED of being left behind. he's been left behind, attacked, tortured, betrayed, and lost so so much that he's also really scared of making strong emotional connections with people, but he really can't help it, at this point.

despite being a rather kind, softly-spoken guy, who seems to be on the more "lawful good" side of the alignments, pierce can be very intimidating and authoritative when need be, and he actually leans more toward true neutral/lawful neutral. for, despite the rules he often lays out for others, when it comes to those he's closest to, pierce can be far more lenient. he hadn't always been like that, but after learning that his long-time friend and his mentor had killed a girl that had captured and tortured him, he sort of learned to become a bit more tolerant of more questionable activities, as long as they were "for the greater good". he'd always promised he would never hurt anyone unless he had to, though he would never kill. pierce broke that promise in,,, november-ish i think when he attempted to kill his best friend to protect the rest of his family, and ever since then hes been trying to follow a smeared line between what he used to consider acceptable and unacceptable.

i honestly enjoy writing him sO MUCH and even though i love angst i think fluff threads n stuff with him are the best because even though he loves a lot and is super super nice theres always so much going through his mind bc even now he really struggles to trust most people and he has a vv low self-esteem so it's always interesting to include his internal monologue when it's sometimes so different from what he's presenting.

uhhh i have a couple other ocs but its 1:30 and i still gotta post lmfAO so i might come back here to chat abt them a lil later sksks