POISON PARADISE / open, leaving

[madster]

merihem couldn't put his finger on it. he had only been here for a week, at most, but he still felt... different. it wasn't the drugs this time though. he didn't fit in, he knew it. it wasn't their fault, of course- there was just too many people for him to actually make a difference now. when the thought first came to him, he didn't want to leave- after all, there were some nice people here, like margy and bast, but he'd thought they understand.

he didn't want to leave behind nero though. that was the main deciding factor- at first, he decided he'd stay, but every day he couldn't keep up. there was so much- those freelancer people fighting all the time was scary, the traditions he didn't understand, so many joiners and people leaving he couldn't keep track of it all. he decided that nero, too, would be alright in the end. maybe he'd come visit him in secret, who knew.

"hey, i'm leaving. bye," he announced, dropping his usual stereotypical gay voice and talking in his natural, deep voice, as he gathered all his stuff (mostly clothes and suspicious tiny ziploc bags) and then he left. he knew where he was going, though he didn't want to tell them. they'd surely attack him if they knew where.