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Rosegarden

The Ascendants — Observer — HOVER FOR TAGS

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  Darn it; this wasn't the impression she had wanted to make. Granted, the cat always tried to be honest and transparent about how she felt, but something like this? Her true feelings on the matter were completely irrelevant. She hadn't meant to judge him or anything-- she had simply felt slightly frustrated when she saw everyone's mood change in the blink of an eye for the worse.
  Having and seeing everyone be happy... That was probably one of the most ambitious goals to make. 
  Anyway, it wasn't like she didn't want Bast around at all. Her only problem had been the way he had entered with a dark stare, not even welcoming back the individual being celebrated.
  She really didn't have a right to judge though... The awkwardness that she had contributed to... Rosegarden already felt guilty about her thoughts, adding to the guilt train of everyone present, but it was just a thought! She wasn't going to act on it; in fact, she'd chase that thought away right now!
  This was a happy meeting! This was supposed to be a happy gathering! 
  Maybe she should find the time to apologize to Bast later. He was in mourning and he already had a lot of things on his plate; he certainly didn't need her guilt-tripping him (which she honestly hadn't meant to do!).
  Yeah. Even if he didn't want her apology, she should still let him know she was on his side... (Even though something like that should be a given...)
  Darn it. If only she wasn't so obvious with everything she did... Maybe she could benefit from a little more secrecy and prudence. That didn't mean she wanted to continue judging Bast except this time without his knowledge-- that just meant she wanted to keep any possible negativity to herself.
  Everyone has negative thoughts sometimes, but not everyone acts on them. That was along the lines of what Rosegarden was aiming for: maybe she would have the occasional negative thought surface (and that was normal, as she couldn't control every thought), but if she was less obvious, she would be able to chase away that thought without anyone ever knowing it had come up.
  Jeez, this was all getting a little too complicated for her. Not because she couldn't understand it, but because she wanted to stop thinking about it lest she just sit there and space out the entire time.
  She had played a role in escalating the awkwardness, so she should help defuse it...
  "I think you look great!"
  She couldn't think of anything else to say-- not that she didn't mean it, though --so that was the best she could do right now.
  Hopefully her efforts to make up for her error would be appreciated or at least acknowledged. As long as they (she) hopefully stopped lingering on this...
  Unable to resist, she shot Bast an apologetic look. No, he shouldn't feel guilty about...how others felt. How others felt was up to them, and he hadn't really done anything wrong. Others-- especially she --had just...misinterpreted him, is all.
  Gosh, she just wanted to be on good terms with everybody. If it was tense between them now, then she wanted to fix that immediately. They didn't have to be friends, but she at least wanted to return to neutral standing-- to not be an enemy.
    Especially now, Rosegarden was feeling the awkwardness, so she quickly tore her gaze away rather shamefully. It didn't matter if he hadn't seen her look; a look alone probably wouldn't completely clear things up, so she was probably-- definitely --going to seek him out later.
  This was her fault too, and she knew that.
  She would deal with that...later, though.
  Right. Stop thinking about it.
  Flicking her striped tail, she would look intently at an interesting stone nearby.
  It had a nice texture, that stone. 
     

#psychosocial.