mischievous woodpecker;; O, Panic attack, development, OOC prompt

[CAESAR CIPHER.]

SO NOTORIOUS !

CAESAR CIPHER. MALE. THE TYPHOON. CREW MATE.

It was pride - it was always about pride for Caesar. Everything he did was just a step towards becoming a person in power, a person with authority. He believed that having some sort of position in life was the only way to be happy. And since achieving that wasn't so easy, he found other means to bringing this feeling of pride: torture. Murder. People were like playthings to him. The reactions he got for digging his claws into their throats or feeling their life drain away gave him a sense of power, a sense of pride, a sense of pleasure. Caesar hadn't always been this way, until he learned what he was truly capable of. He deserved to be King instead of the previous one. He was clearly more powerful than the King in the sense of having abilities, so why wasn't he King? Because he wasn't born to the King. It was that simple.

Dimension FiveX had a tight hierarchy system, and Caesar and his siblings were born into the lowest Tier. But that didn't mean they were always stuck there, however that was the case for most demons. Vigenere was lucky enough to be chosen for the King's Guard, so that was proof there that even the lowest members could become somebody. But they never could be the King. You had to be born into that rank. Caesar couldn't settle for that. He couldn't settle for being a nobody. So what was his immediate reaction? To kill the King. To steal his throne. To be the one in charge. To be the one with the most authority and power over people.

And to be truthful? Caesar was proud of his achievement, for the most part. What he did regret, however, was he means of doing so. He was proud that he was able to temporarily become King before he destroyed the Dimension, but he wasn't proud of destroying it. He regretted making that decision. He killed his parents, they were burned alive, and all he could do was watch. Because he was too cowardly to admit what he done was wrong and wanted to keep this feeling of pride he had in having power.

So what made people want to hide their feelings about what they've done? Shame? Regret? It was both for Caesar. He will gladly admit what he had done and say so with pride, but if somebody asked how he felt about it, he probably would break down or run off - probably the latter more than anything. Breaking down was a sign of weakness, as mentioned before, and that was something Caesar didn't want to show. Because he was ashamed of it. He was ashamed of showing true, real emotions instead of the ones he showed on the outside.

Caesar's gaze flickered to the child as Argus brought her up and his lips slightly curled up in disgust. Great. He thought to himself with a growl. Now they'd have to deal with some clingy ass child on their hands. "Caesar Cipher." The demon grunted in response to Whisper. "What about you?" Yeah, his tone revealed he didn't exactly want to talk to Whisper, but it wasn't like he had much of a choice when he was spoken directly to, did he?

#psychosocial.