I want to be gone, is all - Oneshot, open

[Ares]

As long as breath comes from my mouth,
I may yet stand the slightest chance.

God she was hurting. So, so badly was she hurting. It wasn't just her broken leg - it was the stress, the emotional distress, the memories. So many factors into her state of mind. There was just so much. She felt lost now. She wanted to run. Ares wanted to run away but where would she go? Even so, she was a threat to so many including herself and it hurt, god, it hurt. She couldn't go anywhere without risking the life of someone. So she was just stuck.

And she was angry - god she was furious. And just at herself - no one else. No one else was held in her anger but she held herself in iron grip. And anger just made it worse - the pain was so much worse. Burning feeling in her chest, fire in her blood. And to keep everyone safe she stayed outside of camp, gravitated toward the beach.

Limping, with a whimper every step, she approached the shore. This strange song graced her ears - something about a shaft of light and being covered in a void. It was oddly fitting for her, considering her circumstances. Oh, god, they must be hating her now. She wanted to say that it wasn't her, that she was sleeping and Goldenkit's plea had woken her but would they even believe her? Would he believe her?

It was that thought that broke her. Her entire body buckled and she fell into the sand, a sob escaping her. Pain dulled by her mind's agony and all she could do was mumble senselessly between sobs. She looked at the ocean, thinking she saw someone. Her mother? She extended her good paw. But she pulled it back as the vision faded. [color=red]"No... god no. Why can't I just live in peace? What did I do? Do I deserve this? Do I deserve to... to belikethis?" She choked on her words and suddenly she fell again, one last sentence leaving her before she went completely silent.

"I am a monster."

/// tl;dr - Ares, after losing control again, falls into a state of despair and mental distress. She heads to the beach where she suddenly collapses and falls into a sobbing mess. Thinking she see's her birth mother she tries to reach out but the vision disappears and Ares falls back into a moment of despair.

— Reggan

[DRAYDEN CIPHER.]

[glow=white,1,400]I'LL RUN IN CIRCLES 'TILL I CRASH ! — ｡+ﾟ.[/glow]

Drayden hadn't been there for Ares's outburst, but that didn't mean that the boy didn't hear what happened. He didn't know how to feel about the whole situation, if he was honest. On one hand, he wasn't there and couldn't really make a decision solely based on that, but on the other... Ares lashed out at a clanmate - the Legate no less. He wasn't scared of Ares, not yet at the very least, but he was wary of her.

That being said, Drayden was concerned when he could hear faint sobbing nearby during his walk on the beach. He quickened up his pace, limping as he searched for the source of the sound. "... Ares?" The Gladiator called out upon seeing the girl collapsed on the sand, though he hadn't been close enough to hear her cries. He stayed a few paces away from her though, concern on his face. "Are you okay?"[glow=COLOR,1,400] ━ ✧*:･ﾟ[/glow]

[Ares]

As long as breath comes from my mouth
I may yet stand the slightest chance.

She flicked her ears to acknowledge Drayden, unable to lift her body up and sit up. Was she okay? No, far from it. "No." She lifted her head. "I'm scared." It was more than that, but she couldn't even remotely list off what was going on, what was wrong.

— Reggan

[DRAYDEN CIPHER.]

[glow=white,1,400]I'LL RUN IN CIRCLES 'TILL I CRASH ! — ｡+ﾟ.[/glow]

Ah, shit, well now he had to comfort Ares. Drayden felt bad for her once she mentioned she was scared and he limped closer to her, settling down next to her. "I think everything will be okay eventually." He spoke softly. "What are you scared of?" Maybe getting an answer would help him with reassuring her better.[glow=COLOR,1,400] ━ ✧*:･ﾟ[/glow]