09-20-2019, 04:06 PM
[align=center][div style="bgcolor= black; width: 500px; font-family: georgia;font-size:12px;text-align:justify"]More often than not, Moth could usually be found wandering around the territory, looking for things she could potentially add to her collection, ears pricked and mouth open slightly for signs of things of the unusual or cool-looking. When she had first joined, it had been sticks. Random sticks that she had seen around and thought were cool or could be useful at some point. She came to the realization about a month after joining that there wasn’t really a use for the sticks, and, after a while, they became boring. After so long of collecting the sticks, eventually you notice a pattern of things. The places the sticks could be found, the time that they fall, the thickness of the ones that fall, and, eventually, patterns that you thought were cool when you had first found the sticks become something you see more and more often. Scratches from animals climbing the trees, weathering from the constant humidity and the days of rain. It became more and more mundane, until eventually, you move on to other things.
She recognized this pattern in herself as she lay on her mattress in her own little house, wishing that there was something more that she could do other than simply sit there, limping around the room when she was too antsy to do anything else, but afraid of going outside in case Selby came by to scold her for being on her feet. Of course, she was careful with the arm that had been dislocated, but no one ever knew when things could happen, when there could be something when she trips and falls over those damned sticks that she used to collect, falling on the ground and messing up her arm even more. But inside? Inside the sticks were in a corner of her little one-roomed house, buried under other things she now collected, rotting and useless, just like she felt trapped in the house.
But it was her own fault she was trapped here, wasn’t it? She was already useless before the attack that had come from the Pittian. If anything the attack had proved just how much she was worth. If it had been someone else that had been hurt, she wouldn’t have been able to heal them, and when she was attacked she couldn’t do anything but lay there, frozen, not even try to attack the one who had attacked her. Animals of her size were nothing to mess around with when it was a simple wolf, if she wasn’t so useless, she would have been able to fight him off easily, she wouldn’t have frozen, she would have fought, and Wormwood wouldn’t have had to protect her from Roman. Roman could have died on the border and she wouldn’t be trapped in the house, she would be able to walk around Tanglewood and pretend like nothing happened.
Oh how she wished she could pretend like nothing happened, but the slow throbbing in her shoulder and her jaw was the reminder of her worth. The puncture marks on her paw where the wolf had grabbed ahold of her to begin to drag her away was the reminder that she couldn’t fight even if her life depended on it, as it had then. The thoughts swirled in her head, overwhelming the mutated leopard until tears began to fall from her eyes, and she angrily shoved her head into her mattress, disgusted.
She recognized this pattern in herself as she lay on her mattress in her own little house, wishing that there was something more that she could do other than simply sit there, limping around the room when she was too antsy to do anything else, but afraid of going outside in case Selby came by to scold her for being on her feet. Of course, she was careful with the arm that had been dislocated, but no one ever knew when things could happen, when there could be something when she trips and falls over those damned sticks that she used to collect, falling on the ground and messing up her arm even more. But inside? Inside the sticks were in a corner of her little one-roomed house, buried under other things she now collected, rotting and useless, just like she felt trapped in the house.
But it was her own fault she was trapped here, wasn’t it? She was already useless before the attack that had come from the Pittian. If anything the attack had proved just how much she was worth. If it had been someone else that had been hurt, she wouldn’t have been able to heal them, and when she was attacked she couldn’t do anything but lay there, frozen, not even try to attack the one who had attacked her. Animals of her size were nothing to mess around with when it was a simple wolf, if she wasn’t so useless, she would have been able to fight him off easily, she wouldn’t have frozen, she would have fought, and Wormwood wouldn’t have had to protect her from Roman. Roman could have died on the border and she wouldn’t be trapped in the house, she would be able to walk around Tanglewood and pretend like nothing happened.
Oh how she wished she could pretend like nothing happened, but the slow throbbing in her shoulder and her jaw was the reminder of her worth. The puncture marks on her paw where the wolf had grabbed ahold of her to begin to drag her away was the reminder that she couldn’t fight even if her life depended on it, as it had then. The thoughts swirled in her head, overwhelming the mutated leopard until tears began to fall from her eyes, and she angrily shoved her head into her mattress, disgusted.