04-09-2018, 02:44 PM
I lost my dreams in this disaster
Kayn — Male — Snowbound — Warrior — Difficult
The black lupine followed the tracks of the young feline who had been injured in a fight with some lone animals in the territory. Killua hadn't been severely injured by any means, but that only meant that Kayn was more interested in following after the male. Not to fix his wounds, although he would gladly if allowed, but because things hadn't exactly added up. A small apprentice taking on two creatures much older and larger than himself, one of which being quite a large wolf. The wounds he'd sustained were minor for such an engagement which had certainly made the black lupine began thinking about things. Regardless of the actual reasoning behind the fight, it was clear that Killua was a particularly strong individual.
More importantly though, nipping at the back of his mind despite the fact that he'd tried everything in his power to silence it, was the whisper of lies he'd rather not listen to. Or perhaps they were truths he simply refused. And that biting hunger had only grown stronger when the wolf had arrived at the scene of the blood bath. Luckily there had been other people around, but now Killua was alone. Kayn didn't plan on hurting him though. Of course not, but... at least basking in the overpowering spiritual scent of an irresistible soul was allowed right? Merely being around Killua wasn't a crime. Nor was having repressed desires to eat the small feline. Kayn hadn't done anything and he wouldn't be any time soon. He promised himself that as he woke, repeating it calmly in his mind while searching for the cat in question.
As a matter of fact, despite the urges he felt that had awoken several minutes prior to invade this thoughts once again after months of moral freedom, Kayn actually wanted to befriend Killua. The feline was feisty, confident, and ready to challenge anyone who offered themselves forward. Honestly Kayn saw himself in the younger male. From a cursory glance he could tell that they were kindred spirits. It was more than obvious in the cat's eyes. The melanistic lupine had learned a long time ago that the best way to read someone was their eyes and the body language accompanied with it. Despite appearing and sounding so sure, Killua had a certain disinterest in his eyes most times. An emptiness. As for the cause of that Kayn was unsure, but he'd known that feeling for far too long. He'd held that very same gaze when he looked at others. For the demon-touched wolf though he had always been sizing someone up to kill them. What would Killua's reasoning be?
Finally, after a little bit of searching with his aura sight due to the lack of a scent and the feline's tracks disappearing as snow began to fall heavier, he honed in on Killua. When he found the serval though it wasn't quite what he had expected. Kayn had assumed he'd find the albino off on his own, licking his wounds in frustration for having been hurt in the fight to begin with. Or maybe he'd be off training despite the injures to prevent something like that for occurring in the first place. Neither of those things were reflected in the azure and crimson orbs of the black lupine. Instead, he saw remorse. Kayn could no longer sense emotions and eat them like he could when Fenrir had been twinned with his soul, but his mind was easily sharp enough to recognize an expression he held himself when growing up. It was entirely possible that the feline and himself were more alike than he had first thought, even though in all physical regards they were opposites.
As the wolf approached, scent and sound obscured and distorted by the howling frozen winds, Kayn's ears perked up at the sound of Killua's voice. The lupine couldn't exactly decipher what was being said, but it was obvious he was talking to himself. Or talking to someone. Usually Kayn had done that in his head when he conversed with his own demons. That was something he refused to do now since he knew the voices in his head now were entirely fake. The closer he got though the more panic he picked up in the unintelligable words, breath quick and ragged as he looked down at his paws which seemed to blend with the snow underfoot. This was not the reaction of someone who had simply killed in self-defense unless it was their first time killing. By the look of the albino felines eyes from the moment he'd first seen him, Kayn highly doubted that."Killua?" The large obsidian furred wolf called out tentatively, coat dotted with specks of white from the arctic precipitation. Then Kayn sat down on his haunches to show that he was no threat to the rattled boy. "It's okay... I promise," the midnight lupine assured, sympathy evident in his dual-colored gaze. The earlier desire to feast upon Killua had been entirely replaced with concern, genuine worry for the apprentice seeping from his musical voice. Maybe it was because when he looked at Killua he couldn't help to remember what it was like to be alone for so long with the weight of the wolrd upon his shoulders. No one else had tracked the serval down, and so Kayn had taken it upon himself with various reasons in mind. Now it was clear which one he wished to follow through with going forward.
More importantly though, nipping at the back of his mind despite the fact that he'd tried everything in his power to silence it, was the whisper of lies he'd rather not listen to. Or perhaps they were truths he simply refused. And that biting hunger had only grown stronger when the wolf had arrived at the scene of the blood bath. Luckily there had been other people around, but now Killua was alone. Kayn didn't plan on hurting him though. Of course not, but... at least basking in the overpowering spiritual scent of an irresistible soul was allowed right? Merely being around Killua wasn't a crime. Nor was having repressed desires to eat the small feline. Kayn hadn't done anything and he wouldn't be any time soon. He promised himself that as he woke, repeating it calmly in his mind while searching for the cat in question.
As a matter of fact, despite the urges he felt that had awoken several minutes prior to invade this thoughts once again after months of moral freedom, Kayn actually wanted to befriend Killua. The feline was feisty, confident, and ready to challenge anyone who offered themselves forward. Honestly Kayn saw himself in the younger male. From a cursory glance he could tell that they were kindred spirits. It was more than obvious in the cat's eyes. The melanistic lupine had learned a long time ago that the best way to read someone was their eyes and the body language accompanied with it. Despite appearing and sounding so sure, Killua had a certain disinterest in his eyes most times. An emptiness. As for the cause of that Kayn was unsure, but he'd known that feeling for far too long. He'd held that very same gaze when he looked at others. For the demon-touched wolf though he had always been sizing someone up to kill them. What would Killua's reasoning be?
Finally, after a little bit of searching with his aura sight due to the lack of a scent and the feline's tracks disappearing as snow began to fall heavier, he honed in on Killua. When he found the serval though it wasn't quite what he had expected. Kayn had assumed he'd find the albino off on his own, licking his wounds in frustration for having been hurt in the fight to begin with. Or maybe he'd be off training despite the injures to prevent something like that for occurring in the first place. Neither of those things were reflected in the azure and crimson orbs of the black lupine. Instead, he saw remorse. Kayn could no longer sense emotions and eat them like he could when Fenrir had been twinned with his soul, but his mind was easily sharp enough to recognize an expression he held himself when growing up. It was entirely possible that the feline and himself were more alike than he had first thought, even though in all physical regards they were opposites.
As the wolf approached, scent and sound obscured and distorted by the howling frozen winds, Kayn's ears perked up at the sound of Killua's voice. The lupine couldn't exactly decipher what was being said, but it was obvious he was talking to himself. Or talking to someone. Usually Kayn had done that in his head when he conversed with his own demons. That was something he refused to do now since he knew the voices in his head now were entirely fake. The closer he got though the more panic he picked up in the unintelligable words, breath quick and ragged as he looked down at his paws which seemed to blend with the snow underfoot. This was not the reaction of someone who had simply killed in self-defense unless it was their first time killing. By the look of the albino felines eyes from the moment he'd first seen him, Kayn highly doubted that."Killua?" The large obsidian furred wolf called out tentatively, coat dotted with specks of white from the arctic precipitation. Then Kayn sat down on his haunches to show that he was no threat to the rattled boy. "It's okay... I promise," the midnight lupine assured, sympathy evident in his dual-colored gaze. The earlier desire to feast upon Killua had been entirely replaced with concern, genuine worry for the apprentice seeping from his musical voice. Maybe it was because when he looked at Killua he couldn't help to remember what it was like to be alone for so long with the weight of the wolrd upon his shoulders. No one else had tracked the serval down, and so Kayn had taken it upon himself with various reasons in mind. Now it was clear which one he wished to follow through with going forward.
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