09-15-2018, 10:17 PM
There has always been a part of him that’s wanted to be adored. A desire to be given expectations and go beyond them. Praise. All he’s ever really wanted was that feeling of achievement, the success of ambition, the reaping of praise. Of course, it doesn’t mean he loves attention. He’s always enjoyed standing out on top, glistening above the rest, but he’s never been a social butterfly. Bakugou simply can’t understand it. And yet here he is, walking towards his metaphorical podium to give out weekly tasks for The Typhoon. The ground wavers in front of him, mind still groggy from the aftereffects of his overdosing. His body aches. Suddenly, the distribution of energy and weight that has become familiar to him in this bipedal form has become a distribution of agony, crawling down his joints towards his feet. But, containing far too much pride within his faulty system, the reaver refuses to show it. He has little need to allow others to pity or ridicule him. All he wants is to ascend, become more than he was destined to be.
The ragdoll steps out into the open, his fire-tail waving behind him as smoke dissipates into the air. As usual, the male smells of burnt metals from his work in his own forge. Day after day, he continues to practice. The crisp sound of clangs is all too familiar to him, the sound is echoing. Somedays, it brings him comfort to know the world hasn’t changed. And yet it is Bakugou who is changing. The way he perceives sound, hears it, is different. He knows only an agony that refuses to let go of him. It morphs him. He is suddenly aware of his own organs working within his subconscious, churning and moving. Sometimes it’s as if they switch places. He can tell from the way his own cells tremor against each other, unable to stay still. His lungs are where his stomach is, his stomach is where his liver is… He can’t stand it but still he moves on, tries his best to ignore the burning pain that consumes him, constantly gnawing every fibre in his body. No one has noticed anything but the pain upon his face, the pain he forgets to hide.
”Come ‘ere if you extras want a weekly task,” the reaver calls out, ending his words with an unintentional snarl. He avoids expression his signature scowl, but the feeling is intoxicating. He’s drunk off this feeling of pain, spinning and unable to feel any stillness in his body. It’s as though he’s moving. To the eyes of an outsider, Bakugou is merely standing there with a look of displeasure and waiting for his crewmates to appear and receive orders.
The ragdoll steps out into the open, his fire-tail waving behind him as smoke dissipates into the air. As usual, the male smells of burnt metals from his work in his own forge. Day after day, he continues to practice. The crisp sound of clangs is all too familiar to him, the sound is echoing. Somedays, it brings him comfort to know the world hasn’t changed. And yet it is Bakugou who is changing. The way he perceives sound, hears it, is different. He knows only an agony that refuses to let go of him. It morphs him. He is suddenly aware of his own organs working within his subconscious, churning and moving. Sometimes it’s as if they switch places. He can tell from the way his own cells tremor against each other, unable to stay still. His lungs are where his stomach is, his stomach is where his liver is… He can’t stand it but still he moves on, tries his best to ignore the burning pain that consumes him, constantly gnawing every fibre in his body. No one has noticed anything but the pain upon his face, the pain he forgets to hide.
”Come ‘ere if you extras want a weekly task,” the reaver calls out, ending his words with an unintentional snarl. He avoids expression his signature scowl, but the feeling is intoxicating. He’s drunk off this feeling of pain, spinning and unable to feel any stillness in his body. It’s as though he’s moving. To the eyes of an outsider, Bakugou is merely standing there with a look of displeasure and waiting for his crewmates to appear and receive orders.