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venus · 10-08-2018, 10:33 AM

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(short mention of vomiting)

time lost and memories still there but faded away like colours in a wash, for too long at a time venus found themselves struggling with the past that they were certain didn't belong to them. every time they came, they came in waves. nausea hits first, then the dizzy spells and finally auras dancing in venus' vision before the onset of brutal pain. so much pain. migraines hadn't been a thing that venus was aware they suffered from, but ever since their arrival in sunhaven, ever since venus saw those two the medical condition had suddenly erupted from nowhere. the kitsune resented them for it, both of them, their familiar gazes watching venus like they knew the teen. every time the kitsune caught either of them, most of the time being the short grumpy one, the silver hued kitsune was unsure whether to cower or relish in the feeling. their body said both. venus' mind said to vomit their insides.

another series of waves had been crashing right into venus' mind today - the episodes starting around mid-day where the kitsune could very faintly see the skies shift in tone to signal the end of the daylight and welcome in the moon. they came periodically, seemingly teasing and mocking the fervent teen for their insolence. every time a wave hit venus could no longer focus on their task, drawing out the preparation for the poison information session the new solbinder was to hold even longer than expected. as sapphire gaze drifted to the sky, the kitsune became at unease with how long the task was taking and feverishly pushed through to get the session started before too long when nightfall would come to encompass the land.

"anyone willing to participate in a poison seminar gather now, we'll be starting soon." announcement of the session came quickly after the brief moment of panic, venus watching along pleased with the turn-out and eager to continue with the plans. a quick glance was spared to the supplies needed for the session beside the kitsune, venus' eyes drawn to the fake syringe that they had found useful for the show - a devious plot formulating in venus' mind as more and more sunhaveners gathered to listen eagerly. one in particular making venus' head threaten to spin again. no, focus! venus need to seriously get their head out from their arse and just focus with the task that they had been given.

picking up the fake syringe out of blind impulse, this demonstration wasn't originally going to be a part of the line-up, but venus was vehement on kinetic learning and therefore was okay with placing the impromptu tidbit in the lesson. "anyone care to come up here and help me preempt this lesson with an efficient way of administering injections of poison?" admittedly it was an odd request, but venus hoped that someone would at least offer themselves. except maybe, him.

[member=1917]BUCKINGHAM B.[/member]

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buckingham barnes · 10-09-2018, 01:03 PM

Bucky didn't like how he thinks of Angeldust when he sees Venus. Buckingham knew it was wrong on his part- he shouldn't make assumptions about people based on their appearances. He shouldn't make ties to people that he struggled to deal with in the past. The former assassin had to keep reminding himself that there are multiple kitsunes out there with silver pelt coats. He shouldn't be reminded of Angeldust whenever he pads past Venus or sees them. If anything, it's unfair on Venus, who doesn't even know of Angeldust's existence. If Venus found out why Buckingham felt awkward/uncomfortable around them, he's sure the Solbinder would be upset. Bucky would feel upset if someone looked at himself and thought of someone they didn't like- whoever they would think of isn't Bucky. But, is he able to stop these thoughts from occurring? Boy, he wishes he could just shove them out of his skull and never think of them again. But it's not that easy, it's not easy to forget someone and their actions. It's impossible.

The maine coon found himself padding along the boardwalk when he heard Venus's call. His ears pricked up as he listened closely, coming to a stop. When Bucky heard the word poison, the male nearly turned around and walked the other way. Bucky didn't have a great experience when it came to the topic. Speaking of the Angeldust guy, the two of them weren't exactly buddies. They were enemies, just like him and Levi. Except Angeldust lived in both groups- his original clan and war-torn home. And Bucky happened to be the one to discover Angeldust was a traitor- Angeldust figured this out, and made sure to keep Bucky silent. Long story short, Bucky got poisoned, and somehow managed to survive to tell the tale to his leader later.

His paws were itching to move, retreat to his boathouse and slam the door shut. But, the Warden didn't budge. Instead, the male closed his eyes for a moment, thinking to himself. Calm down, Barnes. Venus is not Angeldust, they aren't them. With a sigh escaping his lips, the male silently began to move again, this time heading over towards the session. If Bucky wanted to prove himself that Venus isn't Angeldust, it will have to be more than just a thought. He has to attend this session, whether he's going to like it or not.

When he arrived at the edge of the crowd, the kitsune spoke up again. "Anyone care to come up here and help me preempt this lesson with an efficient way of administering injections of poison?" Considering his past experiences with poison, it would be best if Buckingham stayed quiet and watch whoever volunteers to Venus. But, if he's trying to prove that Venus isn't Angeldust, sitting and watching isn't going to help, right? Surely Venus isn't going to stab them with the syringe, he'd have to get permission for that. If he volunteers, he should be fine. No, not should- he will be fine. So far, no one has volunteered anyways. It was getting awkwardly silent, no one was moving. "I will," Bucky volunteered, as he weaved his way through the crowd, not once did his fur brush up against anothers. Once he was at the front, he made his way over to Venus, light blue eyes locking on them.

venus · 10-11-2018, 05:31 AM

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gaze scanned over the crowd nervously, venus swallowing thick spit past the lump in their throat, the sound of the bobbing throat temporarily overtaking the sounds of their heart beating fast in their chest. arteries worked hard too, blood pushed through venus' extremities becoming more noticeable in the teen's veins the further the silence blanketed the sunhaven group grew. but it was silly to be nervous. for why should venus be so afraid of the possibility of having to interact with bucky? he was a warden, someone trusted, someone kind. at least he wasn't aggressive, or so cold to venus like levi was sometimes. but even still, the feelings of which overcame the kitsune whenever the pair were around were complete contradictions to their personalities. for when venus was around bucky - despite his warm appearance - the kitsune only felt innate fear.

'i will.'

of course he would, of course. gritting teeth as to not let the instant dismay of bucky's volunteering take over venus' visage, sapphire eyes glanced down to the tall warden making his way to the front. his own bright blue gaze looking back.

a wave of nausea washed over venus gently, just barely there as to let the kitsune know what was going to happen but not enough to completely take over their senses. yet. auras danced in the teen's vision, obscuring the crowd and forcing venus to focus solely on bucky. let his presence be the only thing venus could comprehend. venus was really going to vomit this time. "thanks bucky! i'll let you know it's not a real injection, because even pumping air into your body could be dangerous. it'll just be a little sting, doubt you'll even notice it." babbles spilled from venus' maw, eyes alight with feigned serenity while even their paws shook with subtle nervous energy. but it was going to be okay, venus was going to push through the oncoming migrane for the sake of the perspetive crowd. the last thing venus wanted to happen being the gathered members to be turned off on the idea of medicine for venus' silly antics. thoughts were becoming too loud now, auras growing larger and stronger as the kitsune knew it was time to move along.

explaining the procedure to the crowd, venus didn't even feel attached to their mouth ran like a motor. metallic, automatic, venus felt like a soul trapped within a talking machine who was built solely to practice medicine - but it kept the kitsune from letting their frivolous emotions from dictating their actions. the audience is why venus was here, the audience was eager to learn, they didn't deserve to watch a shit-show consisting of two bumbling idiots dancing a cautious dance around one another. venus was prepared to push through - resilience proving a difficult task to undertake. "smile for the audience." soft tones of feeble attempts to ease more so their own tight nervous energy than bucky's own escapes a parted maw.

if venus knew bucky couldn't see the silvery solbinder for their own person, but instead saw only someone who venus had never even heard of, he was right in assuming that venus would be pissed. yet, that negated the fact that he would be entirely correct. even if venus had sold their soul to forget - they could never sell any part of themselves to ever escape their sins.

slowly venus placed increasing pressure on the syringe's sterile tip, the needle hopefully breaking skin to barely enter bucky's shoulder for the sake of the seminar.

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buckingham barnes · 10-14-2018, 04:44 PM

Bucky should listened to his gut. He should have kept his mouth shut and waited for someone else to awkwardly volunteer themselves. As the moment Venus spoke up again, the maine coon was instantly regretting his decision. Apparently, he was wrong about assuming Venus wouldn't inject a syringe into him, especially without 'permission'. Bucky thought the Solbinder would double check to make sure it was okay to do, but then it dawned on him. When he volunteered, he gave the okay to Venus to go through with the demonstration. "It'll just be a little sting, doubt you'll even notice it." Venus's words reached his ears, the maine coon not even noticing the nervous energy radiating off of the kitsune. Bucky was too focused on his mistake, and how this is a horrible idea to convince himself that Venus isn't Angeldust. The last thing he should have done was volunteer in a session where he's suppose to imagine he's actually getting injected with poison. It will only make him think of Angeldust, he's such an idiot! "Wait, actually I'm backing out of this-" He tried to desperately tell Venus, but his words met deaf ears, getting cut off half way through it.

"Smile for the audience."

Bucky wasn't smiling, not one bit. If anything, he looked even more alarmed than he did a moment ago. He was beginning to back up, hoping to scramble away from the kitsune before Venus could reach him. Unfortunately, Venus was quick with the empty syringe. Bucky's eyes widened as he felt the needle pierce his right shoulder, freezing up. Venus mentioned they doubted Bucky would even notice it go in, meaning he shouldn't feel a thing. Hell, they are so wrong, so so wrong. Not only did Bucky feel the needle dig into his fur, he made the mistake to look over at it. His eyes glued onto the syringe, and after a few mere seconds of staring at it, pain flared up in large amounts.

The syringe was empty from the start. Everyone in the crowd could see that Venus isn't injecting anything into him. Venus even mentioned injecting air was dangerous, the Solbinder didn't do anything after piercing him. But despite all of that, the pain he felt seemed so, so real. Suddenly without a warning, the maine coon stumbled back from Venus, the syringe still in his shoulder. What Bucky was feeling was phantom pain- despite how vivid it feels, the symptoms of belladonna weren't actually there. He squeezed his eyes shut as the sunlight suddenly felt sensitive to his eyes, feeling as if he was going to loose balance. As his eyes were closed, it felt like his head was pounding- glimpses of his past flashing before him.

"Everyone knows you did it and that you enjoyed it."
"Bet it was the only thing you knew how to do correctly- eat, sleep, shit, kill, repeat."
A silver kitsune stood before him, syringe in their paw as they jabbed it into his veins. The smile they wore as they injected the poison was malicious- his claws digging into the sand as he began to gasp from the pain. He was told the dosage was small enough that'd he'd survive, and remember not to tell a soul.
And finally, a somali feline with a petrified gaze met his eyes, trying to call out to a brainwashed soldier, and their appearance morphed into the kitsune with the poison filled syringe.

As Bucky opened his eyes, his vision began to get blurry- and this time, that's not the phantom pain. His heart was racing and racing, the male stumbling back as his mind desperately shifted gears. When his vision became clear, his pupils became slits and his expression dropped to nothing. He was no longer thinking like Bucky Barnes- it was almost like someone else was wearing the Warden's face. But the scary part of this, is that it's the same person- but just in a different mode. This side of him, the part that only Levi and Marina know of, is barely a person at all. It's a living breathing machine, or weapon. It's sole purpose is to kill, eat, sleep, and repeat. It doesn't get to make it's own decisions, it doesn't have rights, and if it ever thinks it does- that's a malfunction. The Soldier doesn't even know who Bucky is, it's like Buckingham is forgotten until he's pulled out of this dark, deep hole.

The Asset only looked at Venus for a split of a second, light blue eyes widening at the recognition. The Soldier knows this kitsune, it's seen it before. The Soldier remembered them being a somali cat the first time it went after them, but in other memories, they're that kitsune. They changed bodies, and the Asset is sure it isn't wrong. The somali, it's first target, and the kitsune are the same. Little did the Soldier know, that it's actually mistaking the Solbinder for another kitsune. The Solbinder isn't it's first target, but it didn't stop to think about that. It looked over at the syringe, and without a second going by, ripped it out and shattered it on the ground, eyes locking back on Venus.

That little shit, they dared to harm the Soldier, even after the threats it made to it months ago? Even if the syringe was empty, it knew injecting air was just as dangerous. The Soldier was lucky it managed to back away before Venus could inject the air. It's lips began to curl into a dangerous snarl, ears flattening to it's skull. The Asset knew it has a new handler in this clan, but it couldn't wait for them to order the Asset. This is a former target, who just proved to them that they are just as disloyal here. It can at least, at least jump them, have them ready for death and face any punishments it'll receive for its malfunctions.

Without another thought, the Winter Soldier lunged forward, barreling into the kitsune, pinning them down in the process. The Soldier held one of their paws down with it's flesh right paw, and put it's left metal paw onto their neck- ready to dig it's metal claws into their throat. "Try one more stunt like that and I will override orders to keep you alive," The Soldier hissed menacingly, shutting out the screams from the crowd, tail lashing. The Soldier itched to dig it's metal claws in, his claws twitching against the kitsune's silver fur. "Am I clear?" It questioned as it's eyes narrowed, waiting for Venus's answer that would either keep the Solbinder alive or dead under the Asset's claws.

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rhosmari · 10-14-2018, 06:26 PM

Breathe easy, nothing was going to happen and they could afford to have some type of peace. Just a moment to relax and calm the nerves after everything that had been happening. As long as the Ascendants stayed away from them then Sunhaven would stay away from those murderous bastards. She wanted nothing to do with them and that was just a mere fact. Healing was the name of the game here and she was slowly proceeding along that route. Even though she wore bandages and they often got stained with blood because of her movements and because she didn't actually take it easy she still felt better. Felt more like herself than she had in a long while. Things were looking up and she allowed herself to just watch the waves as the they rolled against the sands of the beach. Her eyes closed for a singular moment as she allowed herself to just think of other things. Things that made her happy and she lifted her head up to the sky, jaws slightly parted. The first image to pop in her head was her brother, he always made her happy and despite him not being here now she wished that they could have talked more. Though the second image surprises her greatly, a pelt of grey with striking blue tattoos coursing along his frame. It jolted her out of her moment and she opened her eyes before shaking her head alittle.

But there was hardly time to dwell on that as she heard Venus call out about something. Some type of training? By the time she got there she knew she would be late but hey, it was the thought that counted. Thick paws pushed up from where she was laying and she shook sand from her form before making her way toward the are where the training would be proceeding. Claws dug into the ground as she began to hum a soft song to herself, eyes brimming with a sense of ease before the scene before her came into view. At first it was perplexing because she thought that they were merely training. Maybe a medical session turned into battle training instead and she tilted her head to the side. That wouldn't make sense though because Venus was very enthused when it came to medical stuff. As she quickened her pace and got closer she realized almost immediately that this was not normal. This was not a battle session and the grating threat leaving Buckingham's throat made her ears pin back against her skull.

What was going on? "Get off of them." Her voice was a command, a snap of tongue against teeth as her body came forward and aimed to shove Buckingham off of the kitsune. Not a rough gesture but firm enough to possibly make him move as she stood over the kitsune with a protective stance. Her eyes scanned over Buckingham's face then and she saw the way he looked, it was the same time as when they were at the Ascendants. This wasn't Buckingham anymore and she lowered her head a bit. "Ya stand down Asset. No overriding orders. Leave Venus alone."

"SPEECH"

♡marina monroe - helion - sunhaven♡

buckingham barnes · 10-14-2018, 07:55 PM

Unfortunately, the Soldier didn't get a chance to hear Venus's answer. It's gaze had been locked on Venus's eyes, their own light blue eyes that screamed to kill. It nearly wanted to kill them without an answer, just get rid of the pest and explain it to their handler. It would take any punishment for the murder, and would expect a harsh one for overriding orders. But before it could dig it's claws into their neck, it's ears pricked up at that commanding voice. "Get off them." The moment it heard them, it knew it was it's handler. But the Soldier didn't budge, it didn't back down like it was ordered to. It didn't get to stay in place for long, as his handler decided to make the Soldier move- they must have realized it didn't want to comply. The Asset was roughly shoved off of the kitsune, stumbling back a bit before regaining it's balance.

It's cold eye blue eyes landed on Marina, who stood over his first target. The Soldier couldn't stop itself from scowling at her, how she's protecting the two-face liar. "Ya stand down Asset. No overriding orders. Leave Venus alone." The Soldier heard the command loud and clear but it did not want to comply. It felt anger begin to run through it's veins, another malfunction, pissed that got ordered to stop yet again. The Asset knew that it's a weapon, that it's meant to be ordered around, but it's not suppose to be ordered not to kill! "No," The Winter Soldier snarled, "They intended to harm the Asset, potentially even murder. They aren't trustworthy, let me kill them!"

The Winter Soldier's eyes narrowed to slits, as it dared to speak out of term once again. "Why are you ordering me not to kill? Do you know how to control the Winter Soldier? I am a weapon, you aren't using me correctly." It dared to question and insult his handler, implying she was ignorant and stupid when it came to controlling a living, breathing weapon. The Soldier was never ordered not to kill when Ximen was it's handler. It was strange to be ordered to stand down constantly, it felt like it wasn't fulfilling it's purpose of existing. It has no other purpose in life, why does Marina bother having the Winter Soldier around if she doesn't want it to kill? Wouldn't it be easier if she put it out of commission? It wouldn't say another word, eyes fuming with anger as it looked at Marina and Venus below her.

venus · 10-15-2018, 08:51 AM

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the choices in which venus should have taken, the things of which should have been uttered by their now speechless mouth were something now merely regrets at the back of venus' hazy mind, being drowned out by mindless pain and fear. things venus should have done if they too were to have trusted in their own gut feeling. but neither buckingham nor venus were smart enough to realise that. not until it was too late. now neck deep in memories formed too long ago, venus was drowning in them, every single memory still holding the sting of the pain inflicted in them. their own, and the of ones who angeldust had loved. this little silver kitsune from sunhaven could see another's life before their own eyes; someone who venus had sold their everything to forget.

nausea and the sudden explosive pain emanating from the onset of a migraine bombarding their head became unbearable for the teen, clenching teeth painfully to forget the horrid feeling of a splitting headache. this time was different, this time was unique - visions of situations involving buckingham filled venus' mind like a disorientating film. no, this wasn't bucky, the quiet and reserved warden - this was a monster. it came in the dark, letting night be its cover as it stalked you, watched your every move and waited until you were in the absolute comfort of your home before it would strike. pinning you, immobilising you, it wouldn't show mercy nor fear - this monster had one mission to fill; intimidate angel until no more the kitsune posed a threat to the sanctity of war. venus was petrified. mission complete.

suddenly able to comprehend sight, noises, speech once more, venus' sapphire gaze opened with a frightening sharp shock as the silver teen began to squirm underneath the winter soldier's grasp. back and forth the sunhavener tried to thrash about, movements slowing and becoming weaker with every ounce of energy the kitsune expended trying to worm out of the winter soldier's metal arm - something completely useless. even if venus hadn't been oddly fatigued by the sudden migraine attacking them at worst of times, there was no way that the silver-toned vulpine could ever conceive of a way to overpower bucky. they were tiny in comparison, easily more than half his size. though they didn't want to admit it, a thought crept into the cracks of venus' mind; this was the end.

weight crushed venus' windpipe, their sapphire gaze becoming glazed as air failed to reach their lungs, cellular respiration turning aerobic and causing lactic acid to make the kitsune feel as if they were burning alive from within their skin. death would be on it's way surely now. then there was just.. nothing. no death, but no weight pressing down mercilessly upon venus' fragile frame either. blurred vision was made infinite times worse by double vision they had gained as the solbinder tried to catch a glimpse of what was happening to no avail, only the voices of a familiar accented tone alerting venus to what was happening around them. a presence above the smaller vulpine for some reason now protecting the teen. marina, she was calling out to the winter soldier as if she knew him, knew what he was capable of and commandeered his actions. how? was she the one from the memories? the handler? no, the handler was a male, he hated venus and had pressured the kitsune into keeping their mouth shut with lies and sugary sweets. marina was not ximen.

"s-st-stay away from me! s-stay away!" finally finding their hoarse voice from behind the helion, painfully venus' tone sounded scratchy and well beyond fear. bated breaths were uneasy as venus took a shaky paw to their face, wiping away tears intermingling with their own blood. "stay away f-from me you creep!" the winter soldier had finally come to finish his task.

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