02-21-2020, 08:21 PM
[align=center][div style="text-align:justify;width:55%;font-family:verdana;"]He'd held his silence. Held his tongue.
They crossed paths once, and he swore that would be the end of it. If he saw him again, he'd kill him. No questions asked. He'd spent enough time in these lands to know that running into anyone from his past was more than unlikely. It should've been impossible.
Should've.
On New Year's Eve he'd spent his evening at some meaningless social function, milling about with a steady knot of anxiety tightening just beneath his sternum. Everything felt wrong. Nothing should've been wrong, not when he'd passed years without such a hitch; yet as he lingered in the open threshold he'd caught a too-familiar scent, too-familiar eyes, and felt the urge to fight or run claw up from his throat like bile. And he'd said nothing. Kept his distance, as he ought. His fears were proven true. Thus, non-confrontation held in the highest, he slipped away from the event and prepared for the inevitable.
He'd barred his windows. Locked the doors at night. Kept one eye open and a paw on his knife, no matter where he traveled. The party had been a warning shot - the knowledge that he was being watched and every step cataloged haunted him, even when he knew, deep in his heart, that he was most certainly alone. Ocelot was good at these games. It was no error that the spy had shown his face in public, but instead a hand meeting the stopwatch, counting down the days Kazuhira had left. Paranoia built to obsession, imploring him to consider every lapse in his focus, every falter in his stride, a perfect moment for the enemy to sweep out and slit his throat. He knew too much, after all. He was a liability - too sharp to outsmart, too proud to keep his mouth shut. It was only logical that Ocelot wanted him to be afraid.
Sometimes, when he bordered on manic and it felt as though the whole world was watching with its breath held, he was.
If Ocelot was playing coy just to lure him, he was succeeding. This was not out of the cheetah’s control just yet, and he was drawn all too easily by the urge to take matters into his own hands. Too smart was contested by the fact that he was too impulsive, ready and willing to charge head-on when waiting pensively for over a month had proven futile bait. This wasn’t his first time in an unfamiliar jungle, and he knew that there were channels he could take to assure that his antagonism aligned with their political ties. He could keep himself in the right, play this as an act of self-defense. Wait at the border. Talk nice. Walk them in circles until they were wound to the point of snapping. He had a certain finesse about these things that made his past ventures a success - Snarl could stand to learn a thing or two if she wanted to pick fights and still play the underdog. He’d call himself a professional smooth talker, if only Ocelot hadn’t been trained in the same language.
As the game entails, he waits on the border like any joiner, but keeps the boot knife strapped to his forelimb close. The snakes that writhe along the sand, staring cautiously at him from the brush, pull a bitter taste from his mouth. He doesn’t touch the bell. If this was laid out exactly how he expected - with Ocelot waiting on a spring, ready to lunge for his throat the very second he decided to walk to the Typhoon himself and put his life on the line - then he had no need to call.
They crossed paths once, and he swore that would be the end of it. If he saw him again, he'd kill him. No questions asked. He'd spent enough time in these lands to know that running into anyone from his past was more than unlikely. It should've been impossible.
Should've.
On New Year's Eve he'd spent his evening at some meaningless social function, milling about with a steady knot of anxiety tightening just beneath his sternum. Everything felt wrong. Nothing should've been wrong, not when he'd passed years without such a hitch; yet as he lingered in the open threshold he'd caught a too-familiar scent, too-familiar eyes, and felt the urge to fight or run claw up from his throat like bile. And he'd said nothing. Kept his distance, as he ought. His fears were proven true. Thus, non-confrontation held in the highest, he slipped away from the event and prepared for the inevitable.
He'd barred his windows. Locked the doors at night. Kept one eye open and a paw on his knife, no matter where he traveled. The party had been a warning shot - the knowledge that he was being watched and every step cataloged haunted him, even when he knew, deep in his heart, that he was most certainly alone. Ocelot was good at these games. It was no error that the spy had shown his face in public, but instead a hand meeting the stopwatch, counting down the days Kazuhira had left. Paranoia built to obsession, imploring him to consider every lapse in his focus, every falter in his stride, a perfect moment for the enemy to sweep out and slit his throat. He knew too much, after all. He was a liability - too sharp to outsmart, too proud to keep his mouth shut. It was only logical that Ocelot wanted him to be afraid.
Sometimes, when he bordered on manic and it felt as though the whole world was watching with its breath held, he was.
If Ocelot was playing coy just to lure him, he was succeeding. This was not out of the cheetah’s control just yet, and he was drawn all too easily by the urge to take matters into his own hands. Too smart was contested by the fact that he was too impulsive, ready and willing to charge head-on when waiting pensively for over a month had proven futile bait. This wasn’t his first time in an unfamiliar jungle, and he knew that there were channels he could take to assure that his antagonism aligned with their political ties. He could keep himself in the right, play this as an act of self-defense. Wait at the border. Talk nice. Walk them in circles until they were wound to the point of snapping. He had a certain finesse about these things that made his past ventures a success - Snarl could stand to learn a thing or two if she wanted to pick fights and still play the underdog. He’d call himself a professional smooth talker, if only Ocelot hadn’t been trained in the same language.
As the game entails, he waits on the border like any joiner, but keeps the boot knife strapped to his forelimb close. The snakes that writhe along the sand, staring cautiously at him from the brush, pull a bitter taste from his mouth. He doesn’t touch the bell. If this was laid out exactly how he expected - with Ocelot waiting on a spring, ready to lunge for his throat the very second he decided to walk to the Typhoon himself and put his life on the line - then he had no need to call.
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NERVOUS, LIKE A BAD DOG
NERVOUS, LIKE A BAD DOG