// Output open thread; late night meal • System.out.pt.4.1("Hunger");

[SAYØNARALULLABY]

　　　( Define hunger: [sup]Noun[/sup] A feeling of discomfort or weakness caused by lack of food, coupled with the desire to eat. )

[align=center][div style="width: 385px; text-align: justify"]Laughters. Smiles. A moment of bliss. / A cake. A camera. A flash. A memory holds close to the hearts beating familiarity. / Plates and glasses sets across wooden table, as joy hangs in the air. / Innocence shines bright all around. Too bright. Everywhere. I t  b u r n s.

　　　Ocean stained eyes flickers open. / A pair of glimmers reveals in darkness. / No beauty lies within them, however, when there are ashes found at the bottom of the dead blues.

　　　Constellation soon unbalances, gradually falling apart, a harsh sigh escapes from the celestial child, shaky. / His stomach constantly twists and tugs, and taking a moment to believe he must be hungry, he rises from a small cushion before he exits his room. / Care for the world is gone. / All lights out.

　　　Each few steps he takes, a star implodes within him. / Melting soft skeleton, he inhales broken dreams and exhales smokes; a sign of feeling like a lost ghost. / Those who wanders through the unholy nights may find him at the kitchen with a dead, large rabbit before greedy, little mouth.

　　　There, he only stares at the corpse while its flesh are being smashed against iron teeth. / Jaw snapping. / Baby bones cracking. / Throat coating with sweets.

　　　Repeating. / Repeating. / Repeating.

　　　Stomach still feels empty.

　　　Repeating. / Repeating. / Repeating.

　　　Empty. / Empty. / Empty.

　　　He continues consuming it. / To make himself be whole as stars again, he will take more. / To make this pain that eats his mortal veins and celestial mind ends, he will take, and take, and take.

　　　( Even if he can no longer tell whose blood will he be tasting then. )

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OOC. Important note:

Even though this would've started off when Ayon was a newborn, but because I decided to first write him as four months, here is one of the plots I came up with for his main arc, Kismet! For those who don't have Discord, or do but haven't seen the messages, here is what I have ( so far? ):

Until Ayon reaches at the age of twelve months, each month, he will receive dream once a week and a nightmare at the last week that are based on each of his incarnation's important events ( their childhood, their general day as a teenager and with the Demon character focused on the theme of the month, and then their death ). After he wakes up from the dreams, he will have a painful experience with a specific body part, and it gradually gets worse as he receives few more dreams until he wakes up from the last dream of the month, he will have to go through most painful and difficult moment that usually results what makes him him today.

March ( Newborn )
Dream #1 — A small headache; whined a bit more than usual, but overall, reacted indifferent
Dream #2 — Pain of the headache started to increase a bit more; kept rubbing his head against Sola and his siblings
Dream #3 — Headache was about in an average amount of pain to endure;
Dream #4 TW: SELF HARM — Completely, is it at its highest limit of pain; constantly wailed while only remained in one spot; continuously wiggled and squirmed; ended up hitting his head against the floor as an attempt to end the headache, but not too hard as a result of brain injury/broken skull due to the pain being too much to take away most of his strength, as he was extremely weak to begin with. Results him sometimes hitting his head for pain relief and/or self comfort.
——— Note that at this age, Ayon couldn't say anything to indicate he's hurting and only expressed through body languages yet, therefore, no one would understand what happened to him; does not remember any dreams he had and anything what happened after he woke up from them; will only know if someone who was involved in most, if not all, experiences he had after going through the dreams of March tell him what happened

April ( 1 month )
Dream #1 — One small area of the throat tightened at a slightest; reacted indifferent towards it, besides not wanting to eat or drink anything until he decided to do so at the end of the day
Dream #2 — Started to feel the pressure spreading around his neck, yet the pain wasn't above average; began to cough frequently; refused to eat and drink anything for a few days until he was forced to by someone in his family or those closely associated with them.
Dream #3 — The pressure was then a bit higher than average, but still enough to give him access to air; constantly shaking his head; often sighed, coughed and gasped; once again, he didn't eat or drink anything for a few days until he was forced to by said connections.
Dream #4 — Turned out to feel like being strangulation; his paws continuously slapped against hard surfaces to get attention, leading the pads of them cracked. Results him hating/being uncomfortable of anyone but loved ones touching his neck.
——— Note that at this age, Ayon still couldn't say anything to indicate he's hurting and only expressed through body languages yet, therefore, no one would understand what happened to him; does recall mostly the fourth experience; however, it's still important for someone who was involved in the scene after he had his final dream of April tell him what happened

There are more notes with the months thought of so far ( from May to July ), but while the general idea is there, March and April are the only months Ayon doesn't recall them, as the latter, not so much. While I have someone in mind who can help me have their character involved with Ayon's dreams and handling them *cough*Madi'sCain*cough* for anyone else who wants their character to be involved with what's been happening to him, you are absolutely free to make your character notice a pattern happening and try to help him, in this thread and in the future.

I am looking for someone who would like to volunteer their character talking to Ayon about it and tell him about what happened to him during March and April; if anyone is interested in doing that in a private thread, don't hesitate state it on here or come to Ayon's channel in the Rosebloods' Discord server!! I'll be taking only two-three characters, though. Thank you guys for taking the time reading this!! <3

[Jiyu Simul Stamus]

Food was a rather touchy subject for Jiyu when infant animals were around or whenever someone with a perfectly happy go lucky view of the world happened to be standing nearby. While most cats ate rabbits like the one Sayon was chowing down on or some other normal form of prey? The calico consumed others of her own species or as close as she could get, cannibalistic. It was already very suspicious if someone did not want to eat with everyone else, but if someone sat with everyone who was eating and refused to eat after that things became far more suspicious. Thus, Jiyu tended to stay away at meal time, avoiding the situation was much more inconspicuous than just sitting there without eating. However, this was not some meal that was planned by another, this was Sayon suddenly seeming to need some sort of snack. In this situation, not eating was nowhere near suspicious.

"Don't choke yourself, eat slowly." the calico spoke the comment smoothly in her cold voice, empty optics fixing to the scene. Jiyu was going to stick around, in the rush Sayon seemed to be in she didn't completely trust the child to keep himself safe while eating and she could not imagine how crushed Sola would be if one of her offspring choked to death on a rabbit. Supervision was her best course of action here.

[lexasperated]