YOU'RE LYING TO YOURSELF AGAIN // open, Weekly Prompt 5/10

[ATBASH CIPHER.]

ATBASH CIPHER

light the night up,
you're my dark star

There wasn't a day that went by that Atbash didn't compare her past home to Snowbound. Even though she told herself that coming to Earth and living here in Snowbound is a new start, a new chapter of her life, some part of her wouldn't let the past go. She always reverted back to thinking how home was or compared Snowbound to her old home. Dimension FiveX had been where she had been born and raised, a place where she thought she would grow up and have a family. She thought she would be Shaman, advising Vigenere as he ruled and aiding Caesar in whatever he needed help in. She thought she would be with her brothers in the First Tier, apart of the King's -- Vigenere's -- Court. But Caesar stripped away those dreams and aspirations, almost in a week. Her youngest brother got them exiled for attempting to murder the Shaman in an attempt to make the King weaker, after she had a vision of Caesar destroying their home.

Atbash never believed the crazy old Shaman, even if she was wanting to be one herself. She knew the Shaman had served the King for eons, so she was bound to have seen some shit that caused her to go crazy. But that didn't mean Atbash and the rest of the Kingdom didn't respect her. The Shaman was respected because she had so much experience. Even so, Atbash would have never believed that Caesar would snap like he did and destroy their home. But he did. And they could never go back. There was no going back, ever. And that hurt. But Atbash had to move on, just like her brothers. She had been hoping that Vigenere stayed at her side to help protect her from Caesar, but her eldest sibling pushed her away. So Atbash had to go looking for a new home, because she couldn't protect herself.

Atbash had found herself traveling to Snowbound because of the name and the rumors she heard about the place; of a group living in a snowy tundra. Although Snowbound could never be like Dimension FiveX, it did have a cold chill to it that made her feel at least somewhat home. She was happy here. Atbash enjoyed Snowbound, but that still didn't stop her from feeling homesick. There were just too many happy memories back home than here, and yet she couldn't ever go back to revisit them. Only in her memories, but not in spirit. Caesar ruined that.

Although she supposed that home was much more strict in how its hierarchy worked. Atbash had never been close to the King before, and only really knew him by name. She never got with him on a personal level like she did with Jacob. And she honestly was surprised she did; she thought Earth would be just like home, where she would be forced into the lowest rank outside of being exiled, and would be stuck there forever. But no... Snowbound was much more than that. Snowbound was a group based around its members being close with one another. In Snowbound, everybody treated each other the same way, no matter what rank or position they were, or where they were from. Atbash was... free. She was no longer treated like a lowlife, she was no longer just another mouth to feed. She was actually somebody here. People actually acknowledged her. Jacob cared for her. Pierce cared for her. Cry... cared for her? Atbash wasn't too sure about Cry, but she did know that they shared a somewhat similar backstory. So she could relate to why Cry acts the way she does. She wasn't as angry at the world as Cry (that honestly sounded like Caesar), but she could understand why Cry felt that way.

Atbash wanted to learn more about Snowbound. She was eager to learn more, if she were honest. This place was just so different from home, in a good way. Sure, she missed how she was actually close to her siblings back home, before Caesar went crazy, but Snowbound was much more healthy for her mentally. Snowbound could never be like Dimension FiveX, especially if her siblings weren't here, but that didn't mean she was going to hate it here. Jacob, Cry, Ivylee, Pierce; they were all like family to her now. They weren't her brothers, but they did fill that empty gap in her soul.

Atbash was currently sitting outside of camp, staring down into a pool of water at herself. The look on her face did reveal she was upset, but she was trying to best to be positive here. This was her new home, she loved it here! But still, there was something missing, and she didn't know what entirely. Was it because she continued staying in the past, or was it because she was trying to push away the past? Or maybe it was because her brothers weren't around. Even if she did consider the other Snowbounders (was that a word?) as family, nothing could beat the bond she had with Vigenere and Caesar. That was just fact: blood was thicker than water. Littermates would always mean more than friends, no matter what happened.

//tl;dr:
- Atbash is remembering her past home, comparing it to Snowbound
- She's currently out in the territory, staring down at one of the pools at her reflection. She's upset, but not to the point of crying

bio | female | warrior of snowbound

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