05-08-2018, 11:30 PM
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MARGAERY MIKAELSON
The scoff was all Margaery needed to raise to her paws.
A moment ago, she had reasoned that she was too weary to genuinely become angry and now... now, she was throwing that sentiment straight out the window. "This isn't just about you, you know that right?" She demanded, albeit weakly. She didn't have the energy to be doing this and yet, she continued, her copper eyes two dark flames trained on the form of her wife. Accusations of any sort did not sit well with Margaery and she knew Suiteheart was aware of that. Why she even had the audacity to say such boggled her mind. [color=#b14767]"Do you know how it feels to be bonded with the thing you fear most, Suiteheart?" She inquired, suddenly the picture of cool anger, [color=#b14767]"Do you know what it's like feeling that side of you? You're being selfish."
There she was, that terrible ice queen that perhaps Margaery truly was under it all. [color=#b14767]"I can't keep sacrificing myself for this... for all of this. What I did was the best option for me and if you can't appreciate the fact that for once, I'm prioritizing myself, then I'm sorry," She extended in a distant voice, tears finally slowing in their flow. She refused to make eye contact though, knowing that this facade would crack and break away the moment that she saw Suiteheart crying. And so she focused instead on her paws, sheathing and unsheathing her claws as if she had nothing better to do.
[color=#b14767]"I've always been alone! You know that!" The sudden fit of rage caught even her by surprise and her eyes darkened until they resembled obsidian stone, claws sinking deep into the ground this time. She had completely disregarded her composure and her image, favoring now the burning sensation of rage that had all but consumed her. [color=#b14767]"You say that you married me for better or worse and yet here you are, making demands of me the moment that things got bad. I said it once and I'll say it again- you're being selfish. Let me do this for me... not you, not Lil, not anyone else but me. Let me break on my own for once, please. I need this. I need this more than you can ever understand."
Give me control. Allow me to fix this.
[color=#b14767]No... Stop tempting me. I'm not going to give in.
Sweet child, you've already started to.
Margaery would confess, she did not know what that meant. Without her knowing, her mental blockades had been reduced to nothing and the bond reestablished, her feelings of turmoil and sadness now free to be felt by her wife. The mask she was hiding behind was discredited immediately then, her calm nonchalance obviously a false indicator of how she was really feeling. But she was so unaware of the situation that she continued to meticulously maintain it, refusing to allow another slip like the one that had just transpired to occur.
Of course, Suiteheart had to mention killing her.
Of course.
The mere statement made her blood turn cold in her veins. She was back in that clearing again, face to face with the bear that had consumed her lover. She remembered how betrayed she had felt. How lost. How completely broken. Somehow, the feelings she experienced now were worse than those nearly tenfold. [color=#b14767]"Why do you have so much faith in me? You've seen what I'm capable of doing... you've seen me nearly kill our own daughter. I've," she paused, her voice no longer confident but trembling just as her body was now, [color=#b14767]"I've never been loved so dearly."
"Margaery, it's killing you."
[color=#b14767]"I know..." She breathed.
And then,
She broke.
[color=#b14767]"I love you... I love you so fucking much and I'm sorry... I'm sorry that I've given up on myself... I'm sorry that I've nearly become the monster that I hate so many times... I'm sorry that I shut you out but I couldn't live with myself knowing that you had to experience the darkness that was... no... the darkness that is consuming me. I've lied to you... I've done things recklessly... I'm the selfish one..."
There was a moment of a silence.
A stifled sob.
And a rattling cough.
[color=#b14767]"You'd be better off hating me than loving me, darling."
A moment ago, she had reasoned that she was too weary to genuinely become angry and now... now, she was throwing that sentiment straight out the window. "This isn't just about you, you know that right?" She demanded, albeit weakly. She didn't have the energy to be doing this and yet, she continued, her copper eyes two dark flames trained on the form of her wife. Accusations of any sort did not sit well with Margaery and she knew Suiteheart was aware of that. Why she even had the audacity to say such boggled her mind. [color=#b14767]"Do you know how it feels to be bonded with the thing you fear most, Suiteheart?" She inquired, suddenly the picture of cool anger, [color=#b14767]"Do you know what it's like feeling that side of you? You're being selfish."
There she was, that terrible ice queen that perhaps Margaery truly was under it all. [color=#b14767]"I can't keep sacrificing myself for this... for all of this. What I did was the best option for me and if you can't appreciate the fact that for once, I'm prioritizing myself, then I'm sorry," She extended in a distant voice, tears finally slowing in their flow. She refused to make eye contact though, knowing that this facade would crack and break away the moment that she saw Suiteheart crying. And so she focused instead on her paws, sheathing and unsheathing her claws as if she had nothing better to do.
[color=#b14767]"I've always been alone! You know that!" The sudden fit of rage caught even her by surprise and her eyes darkened until they resembled obsidian stone, claws sinking deep into the ground this time. She had completely disregarded her composure and her image, favoring now the burning sensation of rage that had all but consumed her. [color=#b14767]"You say that you married me for better or worse and yet here you are, making demands of me the moment that things got bad. I said it once and I'll say it again- you're being selfish. Let me do this for me... not you, not Lil, not anyone else but me. Let me break on my own for once, please. I need this. I need this more than you can ever understand."
Give me control. Allow me to fix this.
[color=#b14767]No... Stop tempting me. I'm not going to give in.
Sweet child, you've already started to.
Margaery would confess, she did not know what that meant. Without her knowing, her mental blockades had been reduced to nothing and the bond reestablished, her feelings of turmoil and sadness now free to be felt by her wife. The mask she was hiding behind was discredited immediately then, her calm nonchalance obviously a false indicator of how she was really feeling. But she was so unaware of the situation that she continued to meticulously maintain it, refusing to allow another slip like the one that had just transpired to occur.
Of course, Suiteheart had to mention killing her.
Of course.
The mere statement made her blood turn cold in her veins. She was back in that clearing again, face to face with the bear that had consumed her lover. She remembered how betrayed she had felt. How lost. How completely broken. Somehow, the feelings she experienced now were worse than those nearly tenfold. [color=#b14767]"Why do you have so much faith in me? You've seen what I'm capable of doing... you've seen me nearly kill our own daughter. I've," she paused, her voice no longer confident but trembling just as her body was now, [color=#b14767]"I've never been loved so dearly."
"Margaery, it's killing you."
[color=#b14767]"I know..." She breathed.
And then,
She broke.
[color=#b14767]"I love you... I love you so fucking much and I'm sorry... I'm sorry that I've given up on myself... I'm sorry that I've nearly become the monster that I hate so many times... I'm sorry that I shut you out but I couldn't live with myself knowing that you had to experience the darkness that was... no... the darkness that is consuming me. I've lied to you... I've done things recklessly... I'm the selfish one..."
There was a moment of a silence.
A stifled sob.
And a rattling cough.
[color=#b14767]"You'd be better off hating me than loving me, darling."
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