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[Tena M.]

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Tena Moonspinner —
Honestly? Tena had been avoiding Rin.  She wouldn't deny it.  She had been since word reached her she took over.  Bitter.  Disappointed.  A bit lost.  The former magna still remembered Lavi's confused expression as she just let it all happen.  What else was she supposed to do?  Cause a fight?  No one needed that.  Elysium came before her wounded pride.  If she wasn't the leader they needed, that was fine.  She'd only risen to power because at the time because no one else was stepping up.

Apparently there was more to it than anyone initially thought.

And that's what creates the bubbling rage in her chest.  Bright, blue hues narrowing sharply and claws digging into the ground beneath her feet.  'He told me if I did not take over, Tena would die. So... I took over.' "…"  That did it.

A soft growl built in her throat.  "… You don't get to decide if I can't protect myself from some kriffing god I don't believe in."  She had spent too many moons, waiting and waiting, for the chance to command her own destiny.  To live her life.  To live free.

And she had.  Tena escaped.  She broke those chains.  She wasn't about to let someone change everything she had fought so hard to achieve.  She had the right to fend for herself.  To fight for herself.  Hadn't she proven she wasn't some weak child?  She wasn't running anymore.

"No one makes that call but me," she whispered fiercely.  The wind turned sharp closest to her, the sand that often stuck to her desert fur raising.  "No one.   Especially not you.  You don't know me, Rin." You don't know what I've fought against.

"You should've said something." There lay the true betrayal.  Not a single word.  Nothing.  It took being nearly beaten to death by one of her 'gods' to speak.  Even Tena liked to think she was more open than that.

Her tail lashed behind her.  "… The mother didn't help me escape the kriffing desert so some foreign god can 'curse' me.  If they're a threat, I'll fight them with you, Rin.  Because you are not my protector.  I am."
[align=right]— I tell you this story, save your life, set you free