working like clockwork [kydobi]

[bai shi ⦸]

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[color=#7E354D]BAI SHI
" do you want to burn in hell with me? "

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a slight breath themself, "I admit that i did wrong, kydobi, do not think that I avoid that weight. I don't avoid anything even if it means I will die." they murmur, falling quiet as they allowed him to speak and explain his emotions and worrisome feelings. "ramona has a lot of issues and she feared being abandoned the most. do not lie to yourself my friend, there is no reason but your fear holding you back." they answer.

his words stung, but what had they been hoping for? an 'I love you despite seeing not knowing if I ever could and despite meeting this new side of you'? idiocy. sighing, the feline let their ear twitch, "jervis is just another madman waiting for ththe guillotine to take his head, kydobi. be it in the shape of claws, teeth or wings. he keeps his power because we are too weak to face him.", they tell him, haunted by the silver face and the curious expression of their own sworn beloved. cursing quietly under their breath, their ears laid back, pupils becoming slits, tasting the rage that welled deep within their corpse.

exhaling, they drew themselves back together and turned their blind head toward him, sensing movement, listening and feeling their pelt stiffen and ripple as they listened to his words. "you are no coward, kydobi. you repeatedly went into enemy territory to meet with me when I led the rosebloods. you are just turning pages, my friend, this is part of your story. the darkness wells and bubbles inside of you, a part of the chaos around you but you dont need to seek a reason to live, kydobi. ramona is learning to write her own story, and you must take those choices of your own legacy into your paws and strain them out. eternal sleep and escape calls, but that is only a permanent solution to a temporary problem. if you feel like leaving this place, say the word and those around you will cover your tracks. Dont let the dismay and horror take your life, kydobi, fight a warrior's death. worry not about what happens after you leave, the dead cannot touch the living save for in deep dreams."