11-15-2018, 03:08 AM
Regret
Vigenere had a lot of regrets in life. While it may come as a surprise, he regretted being apart of the King's Guard. While it is true that he didn't have a choice when he had been Selected, and he had been happy during his time there, but he regretted being apart of it. Due to the King's Guard, he had been forced away from his System and wasn't able to bond with his two littermates like he should have. And that's exactly what he regretted: not becoming close to both Atbash and Caesar, just as they had done with each other. Perhaps if he had been close with the both of them, maybe his home wouldn't have been destroyed. Maybe things could have been somewhat normal.
His next regret is one that should be clear and expected: not protecting Athena from Caesar's wrath. Vigenere believed that he should have seen Caesar coming; he should have tried harder to stop his brother from ending Athena's life. With Caesar's jaws clamped around the tasmanian tiger's throat, Vigenere had been worried that pulling on Caesar too hard would cause it to be Vigenere's fault that Athena's neck was ripped open. But was it not equally his fault that he wasn't able to stop Caesar in time, or even try to get his brother to release Athena? That's what Vigenere thought, at least, and he felt terribly guilty over this belief. At least, he supposed, Athena forgave him but... he did not forgive himself. How could he, when it had been his job - both as a former soldier of the King's Guard and as Athena's significant other - to protect the one he loved?
The last thing Vigenere regretted was sending Atbash off. He had been angry, trying to cope with everything that had just happened, whenever they arrived on Earth and couldn't deal with Atbash's crying and whining about how things could have been different. He got irritated at her, frustrated that she wouldn't shut up, and chased her off, telling her that he needed time to himself. While that wasn't a lie, Vigenere now regretted sending her off because clearly, despite finding a clan to live in, she hadn't been able to protect herself. Atbash wore scars all over her face and body, all from where Caesar or somebody else attacked her. I could have protected her.
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