11-13-2018, 09:54 AM
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Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon, impostorism, fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud".
Although Des is often seen as a good man by those around him, always offering up some way to help regardless of his own issues and problems, he suffers greatly from imposter syndrome and constantly doubts his own actions. He believes he doesn't deserve the kindness others give to him as a result of both past trauma (including sexual abuse, mental abuse, and constantly being put down by those around him) and the results of that trauma (killing others, doing what he was ordered to do.) Although he claims he wants to find redemption for his actions, he does not feel he is capable of achieving it, and fully believes that no matter what he tries his efforts are futile. He still continues on this path, however, if only because it's the only thing he has left, but constantly fears that he will go back to who he had been before, and that he is lying to others or inadvertently manipulating them without realizing it.
Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon, impostorism, fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which an individual doubts their accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud".
Although Des is often seen as a good man by those around him, always offering up some way to help regardless of his own issues and problems, he suffers greatly from imposter syndrome and constantly doubts his own actions. He believes he doesn't deserve the kindness others give to him as a result of both past trauma (including sexual abuse, mental abuse, and constantly being put down by those around him) and the results of that trauma (killing others, doing what he was ordered to do.) Although he claims he wants to find redemption for his actions, he does not feel he is capable of achieving it, and fully believes that no matter what he tries his efforts are futile. He still continues on this path, however, if only because it's the only thing he has left, but constantly fears that he will go back to who he had been before, and that he is lying to others or inadvertently manipulating them without realizing it.
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