I DON'T LOVE YOU // joining

[purgatory]

Koda knew well of the anxieties that followed putting yourself out there and meeting new people. The energetic, extroverted cub couldn't help but succumb to the terrors of introducing yourself to someone you've never met before. He couldn't tell what they were thinking or how they perceived him. In general, he wanted to be liked and have as many friends as possible, but a small voice in the back of his head - not "himself" - told him to be weary. People wore masks to conceal who they are and their intentions all the time whether to keep themselves safe or the purpose of deception. That alone was enough to make him hesitate and timid. Not knowing who someone really is was a frightening thought. He didn't even know who he was and "he" wasn't giving any clues to ease his troubled mind. He was lost at the worst of times and pretending at the best. It was probably a sad, depressing thought to most but Koda does his best to remain optimistic about it. Does he think he's too young to be having a fucking identity crisis? Absolutely. But it's what he's dealing with so he needed to figure something out before it drives him mad. Others must have it much worst than he does, right? Him complaining would not only get nothing done, but it would be rude to those who're suffering much more than him and are doing their best to work something out too. For example, Rosemary. Despite how hard it must have been to leave her previous home, she braved through it and found herself at their doorstep. Koda could respect that. Could he do the same? Could he place roots somewhere then go to a completely different place? Probably. He adapted to the Rosebloods quickly enough so doing so to other places shouldn't be that hard. Granted, being reunited with his siblings took a lot of the pressure and nervousness off.

What drew Koda to the scene was the familiar scent of saltwater. When he saw Sorbet and Perry standing near the source, he then began to wonder if Goldenluxury had returned again - she was the only one he knew of from the Typhoon. She really shouldn't be making the journey like this in the state she's in. Concern started to well up inside his fluffy form as he scampered over to join the three, stopping when he realized Goldenluxuary was nowhere to be seen. Instead, standing before him was a serval with four eyes and a- was that a crocodile? Alright. "He" tells himself "he's" seen more peculiar situations and Koda doesn't question "himself," not interested in prolonging the conversation at the time. He still isn't interested since he knew "he" wouldn't give himself any details to clear up any confusion he will definitely have. Bright blue eyes glanced nervously from reptile to feline before timidly taking a step backwards, nearly bumping into Sorbet's hind leg as he did so. The brief contact his long tail made with his leg told the child to stop, though he remained close to the canine. He should... Definitely... Quickly write something down instead of just staring at her. Dropping his supplies to the ground, he swiftly wrote out a greeting before holding it up for her to see. "Hello!"

He really wanted to skip the introductions and become friends already.

[align=center]✯ "speaking" / "writing" ✯