I DON'T LOVE YOU // joining

[ROSEMARY]

[align=center]SHE LOST HER VOICE DOWN BY THE RIVER, SCREAMING FOR COURAGE

For the second time in as many months, the young woman found herself packing up her books and herbal medicines to move out of her home. Unlike when she came to the Typhoon, she felt terribly uneasy with every pawstep she took. The mage, now permanently cast out of her family's coven and finding the Typhoon increasingly isolating without the limitless Roux population, needed a change of scenery. Usually, she would stick it out in the Typhoon and try to fit in -- but now she could hardly look at the territory without feeling as though a snake coiled around her ribs.

Still, she walked into the rainforest home of the Rosebloods. Eri, her massive saltwater crocodile, diligently pulled her cart behind him -- its twin lines and their pawsteps marked the dirt, showing their path easily. Another thing she hated about needing to move her book collection, carefully packed glass instruments, and gardening tools. For someone with such high social anxiety and terror of being found first, moving about so openly made her jittery.

By the time she got to the scent markers in the rainforest canyon, her stomach felt twisted into ten snakes with her four eyes each scanning the area. Shakily, she leaned against a large tree and waited for Eri to catch up to her, his mouth half-open and nibbling on her leg until she started to scritch the top of his head. She felt better with the action, but her head continued to swivel as she reacted to every sound and smell that potentially meant a Roseblood member found her. Oh, how she hated the introductions part; she'd much rather invade everyone's mind to download all information she needed about them, inject false memories so they'd know her already and think of her as just another member, and bypass this whole terrifying nonsense of introducing herself to a bunch of strangers. And then needing to get used to living around said strangers.

Petting Eri couldn't soothe her from this necessary step. She knew she needed to do it -- as much as she hated joining a group, she felt even more anxious off alone when she only excelled in magic and healing -- but that hardly made a dent to the anxiety itself!

[ pls only 3 people or less respond otherwise she'll probably have a panic attack ]