11-03-2018, 11:05 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-03-2018, 11:06 PM by VIGENERE CIPHER..)
Love
Vigenere was no stranger when it came to love. There were three types of love in his opinion: familial love, romantic love, and platonic love. The first one mentioned, familial love, was the love you felt with when you were around your family. Your mother, your father, your siblings, cousins, anybody related to you. Adopted siblings too, if you had any. Platonic love was the love you felt when around close friends. These friends could always make you laugh even when you've had a bad day and always know what to say when you're down or upset. And finally, romantic love was the love you felt when you, well... loved somebody. It was a strange feeling and Vigenere had only experienced it twice. It made your heart race whenever you saw somebody you loved romantically, your body hot, and he oddly found it hard to speak at times. Vigenere wasn't a nervous person by any means so it was definitely a feat if you were able to get such of a reaction out of him.
The only experience with familial love he had was, of course, with his parents and littermates. While Vigenere was sure he had some cousins and uncles and aunts somewhere in Dimension FiveX, it was common for members of the Seventh Tier to abandon their immediate family for their new System, so he has no idea who his uncles, aunts, or cousins were and couldn't say whether or not he loved them like he did his siblings. Or, at least... Atbash. At one point, Vigenere was close with their brother, Caesar, but once he turned down the path of evil, both of them just decided to disown him practically. Before Vigenere joined the Guard, Caesar was once a caring and understanding person and was always there for his siblings and Vigenere was almost shocked that Caesar was almost normal at one point. Things changed once he recieved word of the Shaman's vision and turned absolutely horrible.
And yet, deep down inside, Vigenere couldn't find himself hating Caesar. Sure, Caesar had done some horrible, unforgiving things but Vigenere couldn't outright hate his brother. Like Atbash, Vigenere sort of believed that somewhere inside, Caesar was still the child he once was. Caesar was hiding it somewhere, putting on a facade that he believed would get him more fame. Vigenere didn't approve of what Caesar had done whatsoever and despised the fact that the younger demon had attacked and attempted to murder their sister, of course - but he didn't hate him.
On the other hand, Vigenere missed Atbash and truly still loved her as he always did. Even though he had chased her off when they first came to Earth due to stress, Vigenere highly regretted doing so. But it was almost a good thing; Atbash joined Snowbound and soon rose within their ranks to become their leader. Vigenere was worried for her mental health but he was proud of her. It was funny that the most sensitive of the triplets became leader first but Vigenere was absolutely happy for Atbash. She deserved the position, he was sure of it. She was nice and understanding and calm when it matters most. What Vigenere feared about, however, was the fact she didn't know how to fight or protect herself. It was obvious that she couldn't protect herself whenever Caesar attacked her, but whenever he heard The Pitt had taken over Snowbound, Vigenere was scared for Atbash's life. Luckily, she survived, but at a cost: she only had one eye.
Vigenere remembered how angry he had been upon hearing this news. Atbash herself told him and he could barely hear his clanmates' words whenever the news reached his ears. He remembered that his body went tense and his vision was practically red. Vigenere wanted to get revenge and slaughter the person that hurt his sister. Atbash, however, begged of him not to do so and Vigenere felt like he had to comply. It was Atbash's wish and her words rang true: it was Snowbound's issue, not his nor Tanglewood's. No matter what he felt on the inside, Atbash was on her own now. And perhaps that was a good thing.
Platonic love on the other hand was a tad different than familial love and there are actually two times of platonic love in Vigenere's eyes. The first type was of those friends you had a close bond with, such as the members of the King's Guard, whereas the second type was of friends whom you considered family, much like Tanglewood. Although Vigenere had been a Soldier in the King's Guard, things always felt different and divided among the ranks just like it was with Dimension FiveX's social ranking system. His fellow Soldiers still held him to the same regards as if he still lived in the Seventh Tier and practically treated him as if he never left the Tier. To outsiders, it may seem as if the King's Guard was a tight-nit ground and thought of one another as siblings but it honestly couldn't be more opposite. Vigenere only had a few friends in the Guard and it seemed as if whatever experiences they had didn't matter whenever Caesar had been discovered to have attempted to murder the Shaman. They never defended Vigenere and didn't hesitate in obeying the King's order of exiling him and his System.
Tanglewood, however, was absolutely the opposite of the King's Guard. Here on Earth in Tanglewood, Vigenere finally felt as if he truly belonged here. While he and some Tanglers may have their differences, they never hurt nor abused each other and no matter his feelings on somebody, Vigenere still had some respect towards them. He would lay down his life for everyone here, even if he hated them. And that was because Vigenere saw his clanmates as family. A platonic bond that was hardly ever broken.
Vigenere only has experienced true romantic love twice in his life. While it could be true that he has had many partners in the past, only two have really been true love (at least in his mind). The first one he realized that he truly loved was Athena, the King's daughter. Athena was a Tasmanian tiger, adored with sparkling jewels and eyes that shone like diamonds. She was truly a stunning creature to Vigenere and he was ever lucky to have even met her. It almost was love at first sight when Vigenere met the Princess during one of her visits to the Guard. Eventually they started talking and Vigenere soon fought the courage to ask her out. She accepted of course, and while she was utterly worried about his life constantly, he always reassured her that he would be okay and careful if he happened to be sent off. But whenever Caesar attacked the Shaman, Vigenere was forced out of the King's Guard and prevented from seeing Athena ever again. She found a way to sneak out of the castle and visit Vigenere, and it was his turn to worry about her. He was worried that if she were caught still communicating with him, that she would be sent to the Seventh Tier or worse, killed. Of course, Athena reassured him that she would never let her father do such of a thing to do and actually soon admitted to talking to him about the Cipher System returning to the Seventh Tier. She revealed that everyone except Caesar could and Vigenere ran off to tell Atbash and his parents. Caesar, however, found out and started to claim that he and Atbash were betraying him; Vigenere paid no mind, of course.
Soon Vigenere bought a diamond from one of the Outcasts and planned to purpose to Athena. Unfortunately before she could really say anything, Caesar rushed at her and killed her. Vigenere tried his hardest to save her, tried to get Caesar off of her, but it was far too late; by the time Caesar released Athena, she was gone. Vigenere at first attacked his brother in blind rage but eventually let him flee, grief taking over his body. Since then, Vigenere swore he would never love anybody the same ever again.
Then he met Morgan. Morgan was among the first Tanglers to greet him whenever he came to join Tanglewood and while Vigenere found him strange at first, with his limited knowledge of words, Vigenere soon came to like him as a friend. Whenever Vigenere had a breakdown over his memories of Athena, Morgan - along with Fenrisulfr - was there to comfort him and almost seemed to connect to him, despite never experiencing anything of the sort. Vigenere appreciated the canine's comforting words and soon Morgan came almost a therapist to him. Whenever he found Caesar and decided to go searching for Atbash, Morgan was quick to offer to come to his aid and help out with things, to which Vigenere was extremely grateful. If Morgan hadn't come along on the trip, Vigenere truthfully wasn't sure if he would have survived. Or at the very least, been unscathed. Morgan was there for moral and emotional support, as well as a medical aid if things ever went wrong.
Vigenere soon found himself developing the same feelings for Morgan as he felt for Athena, although he wasn't quite sure if they were truly the same feelings or if he was just desperate for somebody else. Gathering up courage and ignoring his inner thoughts, Vigenere asked Morgan out, to which he agreed (although didn't entirely understand what that meant at first). Vigenere was absolutely happy at Morgan agreeing to being his boyfriend and found himself truly being happy once more. The canine seemed utterly stoked to be with him and Vigenere felt the same towards him. Deep down, however, Vigenere felt a sense of protectiveness. There was a crashing wave of anger whenever somebody he didn't know or trust got near Morgan, not wanting the General to suffer the same fate as Athena. Not only was Morgan the General and therefore had a clan to take care of, but Vigenere was sworn to protect the one he loved. This protectiveness might be a bit too much though, especially considering how after the ghosts started appearing in camp, Vigenere was more prone to staying near Morgan and staying up most of the night to make sure Morgan was safe.
The best thing about his relationship with Morgan, however, was the fact that Athena was happy for him. Whenever the ghosts started coming into Tanglewood's camp, the spirit of Vigenere's ex-fiance appeared and although she wasn't able to speak, she was able to signal that she forgave Vigenere for not being able to protect her and was happy for his new relationship. It was like a breath of relief to hear that the one he used to love held no ill will against him and approved of his current relationship. Athena was naturally a kind and forgiving woman, but Vigenere never expected her to forgive him for doing the very thing he had been trained and was expected to do: protect her. But she did, she forgave him.
And he could truly love again.
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