NOBODY’S LISTENING // trying to walk

[ATBASH CIPHER.]

ATBASH CIPHER

i know i should stop believing
i know there's no retrieving

Yuuri's first question came as a surprise to Atbash, though her second question... not so much. In fact, the question about the takeover almost hurt emotionally, as Atbash blamed herself for it. Hell, what wasn't her fault in all of this? Stryker was easily able to beat her in a fight due to her lack of experience and of course he knew Snowbound wouldn't fight back in general, having lived here long enough to know the secrets of his former tribe. Atbash was too pacifist for her own good, but she'd have to learn to be more assertive and that's what she planed to do... once she recovered. If she recovered from this. Losing an eye after being born with two was going to be a rough recovery, if not only because Atbash would have to learn how to do practically everything again.

"I'd rather not say," Atbash finally replied to Yuuri's second question, refusing to meet the other's sightless gaze. She knew why. They all knew why, Atbash just didn't want to admit it. Which showed she hadn't grown much, in all honesty, but she just wasn't ready to accept why. Stryker had been a tribemate for a long time and his betrayal in attacking Izuku still shocked her, hence why she so readily exiled him. Which ended up with this.

Luckily Nui spoke again, distracting Atbash from her thoughts and hopefully changing the subject. Hopefully. Atbash supposed that she had no choice but to eat now, though if she heard Nui's thoughts about why The Pitt likely wouldn't starve her death, she'd probably agree with that. The Pitt needed her, as she and Izuku were the only ones who really meant something here. Her especially, due to her position as leader, but with Izuku's promotion to Snowseeker, he was likely the next target. Fuck, she probably just endangered her own friend without meaning to. "Uh... f-fish, if there is any?" Atbash replied to Nui, now deciding to look up at her tribemates. Nui was the only one she directly looked at, though, mostly because she couldn't sense any hostility or judging gazes from her. Gwen didn't hold those gazes either, but she hadn't really spoken to Atbash directly.

bio | female | hailcaller [leader] of snowbound

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