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GENERAL
NAME. royalguard / roy milia
NAME ORIGIN. in roy's original world, he had a strong desire to join his kingdom's royal guard. he had been given the name "roy" from this, and he inherited the milia last name from his creator, nate milia. once he joined clan life, he enjoyed the prefix-suffix names that others had for themselves, and wished to join in as an attempt to help him start a new life, so he decided on "royalguard" and stuck with it ever since.
SEX. male
GENDER. cisgender male
AGE. technically ageless, but it can be assumed he is an older adult
SEXUALITY. strictly asexual
ROMANTIC ORIENTATION. panromantic
CLAN. none atm
APPEARANCE
CURRENT BODY. siberian tiger
INJURIES. none
REFERENCE / ART
royalguard's siberian tiger body is one of great size. he is even larger than the average 11 ft long tiger, and is a bit skinnier, though does not appear to be malnourished. within the first few seconds of seeing him, it is easy to tell he is not an average tiger, and almost appears otherworldly. his fur is consists completely of a very dark gray color and has piercing white marks that appear to be cartoony skeletons markings; almost like he has a constant, poorly generated x-ray on his body. he has a small tuft of extra fur that sits upon his head. his eyes are a bright orange and there always seems to be a shiny heart shape in them, giving them a very odd, but warm feel. he is almost always wearing a yellow flowercrown and is very possessive over it, keeping careful not to ruin it. if someone were to lift up his fur, they could see a scar wrap fully around his neck, but his fluffy neck is generally always covering it.
OTHER BODIES.
PERSONALITY
ENFJ
THE PROTAGONIST
one of the most notable traits about royalguard is the fact that he is very polite and welcoming. he loves spending time with people and making friends, although he is incredibly closed off about his personal life. in most cases, he will not open up about any previous experiences unless he considers them to be positive ones, as he does not wish to spread negativity. despite this, he almost always seems to be holding back some sort of negative pile of emotions, which is more obviously seen when he begins to feel upset over something, as he may end up overreacting to it despite still seeming to try and hide it. he is quick to trust others and strictly believes that everyone has the potential to be good, no matter what. it is incredibly difficult to make him angry and he has only notably lashed out a few times in his entire life. he has great patience and belief in the world, and is able to tolerate and get along with most everyone. it is clear that he has a lot of experience in life and can quickly take up the leader position in a situation if he feels he needs to. he is quite humble and tries to keep every perspective in mind when making large decisions. he is quite organized and does not often misplace things and enjoys expressing his creativity in many different ways, unafraid to display his ideas as he thinks through them carefully and is proud of them. he is very honest, although he tries to make sure that he words things as delicately as he can, as he cares a lot for others feelings. he is very responsible and is willing to take in anyone in need. he is a friend.
STRENGTHS. kind, patient, tolerant, trustworthy, selfless, responsible, honest, caring, organized, faithful
WEAKNESSES. low self-esteem, blames self too often, very closed off, worries too much about others' emotions, easily startled, too selfless, puts too much faith in others, too trusting, can't let go
MENTAL ILLNESS. royalguard has chronic PTSD and his main triggers include needles, laboratories, lab coats, experiments, war, getting blood on himself, and physically hurting others.
NOTES
PHYSICALLY DIFFICULT | MENTALLY EXTREME
attack in bold orange
he holds himself back when attacking and stays more on the defensive, which tends to be his biggest weakness.
voice/AU info here
item info here
MISSING MEMORIES
he often forgets events from when he was a child, and has trouble connecting his timeline properly, as his PTSD and previous amnesia has caused him to forget.
this also could possibly lead to why it was so difficult for him to learn as a child, as even then he was so distracted and distressed that he could not remember or focus.
but, some memories may have even been taken away...
POTTERMORE PROFILE
roy milia is a proud member of gryffindor. he is brave and noble, and fits well within it. he can quickly befriend his classmates and is more than willing to help out anytime, including times he did not necessarily agree with them. he is in the thunderbird house and has been assigned an 14½" ebony wood wand with a unicorn hair core and reasonably supple flexibility. his wand is very drawn to his non-conformist nature and is very consistent and good for combat, despite not often being used for it. it would be very difficult to turn his wand to the dark arts and it is very faithful to him. roy's patronus is an otter.
HISTORY
QUICK POINTS.
FULL HISTORY.
[spoiler=origins]WARNING FOR ABUSE AND ALCOHOLISM MENTIONS
— roy was originally created with his brother, bo, as an experiment to eventually help aid in a war as a weapon. nate milia is their creator.
— roy milia's first given name was "02" (pronounced "O-two"), as he was originally never meant to be more than a weapon, along with his brother, who was known as "01" (pronounced "O-one")
— roy and his brother began training in the lab as soon as they could walk and talk. for a few years as they grew, the training was simple and easy. they learned how to read and solve puzzles, as well as some basic fighting / defensive techniques.
— but, as the boys grew into children, the routines changed. they began to focus much more on problem-solving and fighting. their powers began to reveal themselves and nate began to help them understand how to use them.
— when the boys began to figure out techniques on their own and offer their own ideas to nate, the scientist quickly shot them down. they began to be punished much more often in much more violent ways.
— violence increased all around and the boys became more and more frightened. death threats became a common occurrence.
— target practice begins.
— roy tried to tell nate that things didn't have to be this way, and that they could be good again. the boys began to ask about the outside world much more often and wanted to know why they couldn't see it. they were shot down often.
— nate begins to disappear longer and be late to their routines, sometimes showing up drunk and seeming to be incredibly tired.
— one day, nate introduces a crate to roy. it has a living cat inside of it. bo is watching on the sidelines and nate tells roy that he must kill the cat for the lesson before moving beside bo. roy very quickly refuses, saying that he would not kill another living thing. nate responds negatively to this, demanding that he does it. roy insists that he won't. nate suddenly and violently grabs bo, shouting that he would kill bo if roy did not do his task. roy, now incredibly frightened, hesitates, but then does as he is told. he has a breakdown not long after.
— this sort of treatment does not end as nate demands roy kills more things every few weeks after this.
— one day, this sort of procedure happens again, and roy refuses again. but, now instead of threatening bo's life, nate simply begins to harshly beat roy out of frustration. bo, angered by this sight, quickly lashes out and uses his fire elementals to distract and push nate away. nate, already having burnt scars on his face, seems to be in too much shock to react. roy, after making an effort to slightly recover, quickly runs to nate to make sure he is okay. the scientist, now taken out of his surprise, pushes roy away and puts out the fire. he sends the boys to their room without a word.
— bo, disappointed by his brother's decision to help nate instead of running away, begins to fight with roy. bo spends the next few days ignoring roy, until finally, one night he notices roy having a breakdown and they talk. roy tells him that he doesn't think it's fair for them to leave nate in the dust, and that he knows that he could change.
— it takes about a year or so more before nate does free them, as he has given up on his original plans at this point.
— roy vows to never, ever kill anyone again as they are freed.
— no one really knows his true birthday or how old he really is, as nate lost track a long time ago.
— nate dies and all memories of him disappeared shortly after the boys were released for reasons roy cannot remember.
— roy and bo spent years growing up together in their world as the war became worse, able to find refuge in a quieter part of their kingdom.
— as the two grew older, roy began to train to become a royal guardsman and bo became a traveling merchant as he seemed to develop a drinking problem and grow significantly worse mentally.
— bo becomes an alcoholic, similar to nate. most of his nights are spent in bars and roy often ends up having to take care of him.
— one day, bo tells roy that things were going to get really bad really soon, but he knew how to make them better and said that they needed to move. eventually, roy accepts, seeing how bad his brother was becoming. bo takes them into another universe.
GENERAL
NAME. royalguard / roy milia
NAME ORIGIN. in roy's original world, he had a strong desire to join his kingdom's royal guard. he had been given the name "roy" from this, and he inherited the milia last name from his creator, nate milia. once he joined clan life, he enjoyed the prefix-suffix names that others had for themselves, and wished to join in as an attempt to help him start a new life, so he decided on "royalguard" and stuck with it ever since.
SEX. male
GENDER. cisgender male
AGE. technically ageless, but it can be assumed he is an older adult
SEXUALITY. strictly asexual
ROMANTIC ORIENTATION. panromantic
CLAN. none atm
APPEARANCE
CURRENT BODY. siberian tiger
INJURIES. none
REFERENCE / ART
royalguard's siberian tiger body is one of great size. he is even larger than the average 11 ft long tiger, and is a bit skinnier, though does not appear to be malnourished. within the first few seconds of seeing him, it is easy to tell he is not an average tiger, and almost appears otherworldly. his fur is consists completely of a very dark gray color and has piercing white marks that appear to be cartoony skeletons markings; almost like he has a constant, poorly generated x-ray on his body. he has a small tuft of extra fur that sits upon his head. his eyes are a bright orange and there always seems to be a shiny heart shape in them, giving them a very odd, but warm feel. he is almost always wearing a yellow flowercrown and is very possessive over it, keeping careful not to ruin it. if someone were to lift up his fur, they could see a scar wrap fully around his neck, but his fluffy neck is generally always covering it.
OTHER BODIES.
PERSONALITY
ENFJ
THE PROTAGONIST
one of the most notable traits about royalguard is the fact that he is very polite and welcoming. he loves spending time with people and making friends, although he is incredibly closed off about his personal life. in most cases, he will not open up about any previous experiences unless he considers them to be positive ones, as he does not wish to spread negativity. despite this, he almost always seems to be holding back some sort of negative pile of emotions, which is more obviously seen when he begins to feel upset over something, as he may end up overreacting to it despite still seeming to try and hide it. he is quick to trust others and strictly believes that everyone has the potential to be good, no matter what. it is incredibly difficult to make him angry and he has only notably lashed out a few times in his entire life. he has great patience and belief in the world, and is able to tolerate and get along with most everyone. it is clear that he has a lot of experience in life and can quickly take up the leader position in a situation if he feels he needs to. he is quite humble and tries to keep every perspective in mind when making large decisions. he is quite organized and does not often misplace things and enjoys expressing his creativity in many different ways, unafraid to display his ideas as he thinks through them carefully and is proud of them. he is very honest, although he tries to make sure that he words things as delicately as he can, as he cares a lot for others feelings. he is very responsible and is willing to take in anyone in need. he is a friend.
STRENGTHS. kind, patient, tolerant, trustworthy, selfless, responsible, honest, caring, organized, faithful
WEAKNESSES. low self-esteem, blames self too often, very closed off, worries too much about others' emotions, easily startled, too selfless, puts too much faith in others, too trusting, can't let go
MENTAL ILLNESS. royalguard has chronic PTSD and his main triggers include needles, laboratories, lab coats, experiments, war, getting blood on himself, and physically hurting others.
NOTES
PHYSICALLY DIFFICULT | MENTALLY EXTREME
attack in bold orange
he holds himself back when attacking and stays more on the defensive, which tends to be his biggest weakness.
voice/AU info here
item info here
MISSING MEMORIES
he often forgets events from when he was a child, and has trouble connecting his timeline properly, as his PTSD and previous amnesia has caused him to forget.
this also could possibly lead to why it was so difficult for him to learn as a child, as even then he was so distracted and distressed that he could not remember or focus.
but, some memories may have even been taken away...
POTTERMORE PROFILE
roy milia is a proud member of gryffindor. he is brave and noble, and fits well within it. he can quickly befriend his classmates and is more than willing to help out anytime, including times he did not necessarily agree with them. he is in the thunderbird house and has been assigned an 14½" ebony wood wand with a unicorn hair core and reasonably supple flexibility. his wand is very drawn to his non-conformist nature and is very consistent and good for combat, despite not often being used for it. it would be very difficult to turn his wand to the dark arts and it is very faithful to him. roy's patronus is an otter.
HISTORY
QUICK POINTS.
Spoiler:
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[spoiler=origins]WARNING FOR ABUSE AND ALCOHOLISM MENTIONS
— roy was originally created with his brother, bo, as an experiment to eventually help aid in a war as a weapon. nate milia is their creator.
— roy milia's first given name was "02" (pronounced "O-two"), as he was originally never meant to be more than a weapon, along with his brother, who was known as "01" (pronounced "O-one")
— roy and his brother began training in the lab as soon as they could walk and talk. for a few years as they grew, the training was simple and easy. they learned how to read and solve puzzles, as well as some basic fighting / defensive techniques.
— but, as the boys grew into children, the routines changed. they began to focus much more on problem-solving and fighting. their powers began to reveal themselves and nate began to help them understand how to use them.
— when the boys began to figure out techniques on their own and offer their own ideas to nate, the scientist quickly shot them down. they began to be punished much more often in much more violent ways.
— violence increased all around and the boys became more and more frightened. death threats became a common occurrence.
— target practice begins.
— roy tried to tell nate that things didn't have to be this way, and that they could be good again. the boys began to ask about the outside world much more often and wanted to know why they couldn't see it. they were shot down often.
— nate begins to disappear longer and be late to their routines, sometimes showing up drunk and seeming to be incredibly tired.
— one day, nate introduces a crate to roy. it has a living cat inside of it. bo is watching on the sidelines and nate tells roy that he must kill the cat for the lesson before moving beside bo. roy very quickly refuses, saying that he would not kill another living thing. nate responds negatively to this, demanding that he does it. roy insists that he won't. nate suddenly and violently grabs bo, shouting that he would kill bo if roy did not do his task. roy, now incredibly frightened, hesitates, but then does as he is told. he has a breakdown not long after.
— this sort of treatment does not end as nate demands roy kills more things every few weeks after this.
— one day, this sort of procedure happens again, and roy refuses again. but, now instead of threatening bo's life, nate simply begins to harshly beat roy out of frustration. bo, angered by this sight, quickly lashes out and uses his fire elementals to distract and push nate away. nate, already having burnt scars on his face, seems to be in too much shock to react. roy, after making an effort to slightly recover, quickly runs to nate to make sure he is okay. the scientist, now taken out of his surprise, pushes roy away and puts out the fire. he sends the boys to their room without a word.
— bo, disappointed by his brother's decision to help nate instead of running away, begins to fight with roy. bo spends the next few days ignoring roy, until finally, one night he notices roy having a breakdown and they talk. roy tells him that he doesn't think it's fair for them to leave nate in the dust, and that he knows that he could change.
— it takes about a year or so more before nate does free them, as he has given up on his original plans at this point.
— roy vows to never, ever kill anyone again as they are freed.
— no one really knows his true birthday or how old he really is, as nate lost track a long time ago.
— nate dies and all memories of him disappeared shortly after the boys were released for reasons roy cannot remember.
— roy and bo spent years growing up together in their world as the war became worse, able to find refuge in a quieter part of their kingdom.
— as the two grew older, roy began to train to become a royal guardsman and bo became a traveling merchant as he seemed to develop a drinking problem and grow significantly worse mentally.
— bo becomes an alcoholic, similar to nate. most of his nights are spent in bars and roy often ends up having to take care of him.
— one day, bo tells roy that things were going to get really bad really soon, but he knew how to make them better and said that they needed to move. eventually, roy accepts, seeing how bad his brother was becoming. bo takes them into another universe.
2015:
— the boys are both asleep for a week, and are shifted into skeletal dragon bodies. roy wakes up remembering nothing but his name and his brother. they are in a completely different environment. they both spend the next few weeks just traveling and getting used to this foreign world.
— roy immediately makes an effort to befriend any creature that they meet along their travels.
— roy is able to fit into this world quite easily and he quickly picks up the idea that there are many groups of animals that are called clans or tribes, and roy convinces bo that they should join one, as he didn't enjoy being so isolated from society.
— they live in this clan for the rest of the month, and roy is excited, as christmas is coming up. christmas is the brothers' favorite holiday and they always go all out.
— just a few days before christmas hits, bo is unexpectedly found badly injured and quickly dies, only able to tell roy to "stay cool".
— roy isolates himself for a week, unable to process what had just happened.
— after that week is over, he decides to show his face a little more, changing his name to royalguard as a new beginning.
— roy immediately makes an effort to befriend any creature that they meet along their travels.
— roy is able to fit into this world quite easily and he quickly picks up the idea that there are many groups of animals that are called clans or tribes, and roy convinces bo that they should join one, as he didn't enjoy being so isolated from society.
— they live in this clan for the rest of the month, and roy is excited, as christmas is coming up. christmas is the brothers' favorite holiday and they always go all out.
— just a few days before christmas hits, bo is unexpectedly found badly injured and quickly dies, only able to tell roy to "stay cool".
— roy isolates himself for a week, unable to process what had just happened.
— after that week is over, he decides to show his face a little more, changing his name to royalguard as a new beginning.
2016:
— he begins to make friends again and create a daily routine again, still clearly shaken by the event.
— a voice begins to talk to him. he begins to get bad dreams.
— the voice seems to grow stronger as the months go on, eventually revealing itself to him. it is nate. nate is able to temporarily take over roy's body, making his intent to kill clear within moments, as he sucks up a dead crow's soul.
— this only grows worse, and royalguard is now on edge. he doesn't quite remember who nate is and he is too paranoid to sleep now.
— one day, nate manages to kill an npc, and in a fit of rage, roy pushes nate's soul away. but, in the process, he ends up falling back and hitting his head so hard that he passes out.
— when royalguard wakes up, he is now much smaller, and cannot remember anything except for his name and his closest friends. he even seems to be younger, in a way, as a childhood bliss enters him and his voice has become much more high-pitched and squeaky than usual.
— one of his friends gives him a journal so they he can write down what he did in the day and if he remembers anything from before.
— he spends his time reintroducing himself to everyone in the clan and being best friends with EVERYONE!
— one day, he begins to hear a voice that sounds familiar, but he isn't quite sure who it is. it tells him that it is his friend and that it can help him become stronger. he eagerly accepts, wanting to be able to be strong enough to help defend all his friends! next thing he knows, he loses control of his senses and he is coughing up a black, inky liquid.
— he sort of blacks out as his body takes him to foreign territory and he wakes up in a place he does not recognized, greeted by a singular female in a room. he asks her if she wants to be friends and she simply tells him to shut up.
— she proceeds to torture him, calling him stupid and useless and other various names. he quickly grows upset with her violent words and actions and begins to rediscover some of his powers, eventually able to escape after a week as he is able to push her away and distract her with his powers. as he runs away, she yells that she'll kill all of his friends and then him.
— he has an injured leg and a throbbing headache. there is some sort of pushing feeling that's been on him ever since he accepted the voice's help. he pushes the feeling away as best he can and runs through the foreign territory in a blizzard. weak, afraid, and lost, he just keeps running until he trips and falls. he desperately calls for help. his closest friend, who had been searching for him all week, hears him.
— they return to their clan where he proceeds to have a breakdown, feeling unsafe and stupid. he is much quieter the following weeks and is seen less, spending most of his time training and reading to try and become smarter and stronger.
— one day, he feels particularly tired, having gotten little to no sleep ever since nate had first took him over. the pushing feeling is much stronger this day and he starts to feel himself get dizzy. he tries to find things to distract himself, and ends up finding many of his brother's old belongings. this, mixed with the pushing from nate, causes his memories to trigger and come back to him, and he remembers his time in the lab and afterward. his body grows to normal size and he goes back to normal, but the pushing feeling becomes so strong that he has to struggle himself out of his clan, knowing it'd be safer if he was away from society.
— nate successfully possesses royalguard on and off and he has to completely isolate himself from society for three months. the only creatures he ever sees are ones that he ends up injuring or killing due to nate. he has broken his promise.
— finally, nate leaves roy's body and finds his own body, his soul now strong enough to possess and stay in one.
— royalguard lets himself relax for a few moments after his freedom returns, trying to properly sleep for the first time in half of a year. but, he is swiftly interrupted by a thunderstorm causing his weak den to collapse on top of him, crushing and suffocating him. he acts quickly and uses his powers to push the collapsed ground off of him, but he can only lay there weakly.
— nate ends up helping him walk to roy's old clan, where he quickly drops him and leaves him. royalguard is very clearly dying on the territory for a few minutes before someone is able to find him and begin to take care of him.
— he spends the next month healing, still mostly isolated. he didn't know how to show his face anymore. he was ashamed. he murdered and hurt so many others because of his possession. he was guilty.
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— a voice begins to talk to him. he begins to get bad dreams.
— the voice seems to grow stronger as the months go on, eventually revealing itself to him. it is nate. nate is able to temporarily take over roy's body, making his intent to kill clear within moments, as he sucks up a dead crow's soul.
— this only grows worse, and royalguard is now on edge. he doesn't quite remember who nate is and he is too paranoid to sleep now.
— one day, nate manages to kill an npc, and in a fit of rage, roy pushes nate's soul away. but, in the process, he ends up falling back and hitting his head so hard that he passes out.
— when royalguard wakes up, he is now much smaller, and cannot remember anything except for his name and his closest friends. he even seems to be younger, in a way, as a childhood bliss enters him and his voice has become much more high-pitched and squeaky than usual.
— one of his friends gives him a journal so they he can write down what he did in the day and if he remembers anything from before.
— he spends his time reintroducing himself to everyone in the clan and being best friends with EVERYONE!
— one day, he begins to hear a voice that sounds familiar, but he isn't quite sure who it is. it tells him that it is his friend and that it can help him become stronger. he eagerly accepts, wanting to be able to be strong enough to help defend all his friends! next thing he knows, he loses control of his senses and he is coughing up a black, inky liquid.
— he sort of blacks out as his body takes him to foreign territory and he wakes up in a place he does not recognized, greeted by a singular female in a room. he asks her if she wants to be friends and she simply tells him to shut up.
— she proceeds to torture him, calling him stupid and useless and other various names. he quickly grows upset with her violent words and actions and begins to rediscover some of his powers, eventually able to escape after a week as he is able to push her away and distract her with his powers. as he runs away, she yells that she'll kill all of his friends and then him.
— he has an injured leg and a throbbing headache. there is some sort of pushing feeling that's been on him ever since he accepted the voice's help. he pushes the feeling away as best he can and runs through the foreign territory in a blizzard. weak, afraid, and lost, he just keeps running until he trips and falls. he desperately calls for help. his closest friend, who had been searching for him all week, hears him.
— they return to their clan where he proceeds to have a breakdown, feeling unsafe and stupid. he is much quieter the following weeks and is seen less, spending most of his time training and reading to try and become smarter and stronger.
— one day, he feels particularly tired, having gotten little to no sleep ever since nate had first took him over. the pushing feeling is much stronger this day and he starts to feel himself get dizzy. he tries to find things to distract himself, and ends up finding many of his brother's old belongings. this, mixed with the pushing from nate, causes his memories to trigger and come back to him, and he remembers his time in the lab and afterward. his body grows to normal size and he goes back to normal, but the pushing feeling becomes so strong that he has to struggle himself out of his clan, knowing it'd be safer if he was away from society.
— nate successfully possesses royalguard on and off and he has to completely isolate himself from society for three months. the only creatures he ever sees are ones that he ends up injuring or killing due to nate. he has broken his promise.
— finally, nate leaves roy's body and finds his own body, his soul now strong enough to possess and stay in one.
— royalguard lets himself relax for a few moments after his freedom returns, trying to properly sleep for the first time in half of a year. but, he is swiftly interrupted by a thunderstorm causing his weak den to collapse on top of him, crushing and suffocating him. he acts quickly and uses his powers to push the collapsed ground off of him, but he can only lay there weakly.
— nate ends up helping him walk to roy's old clan, where he quickly drops him and leaves him. royalguard is very clearly dying on the territory for a few minutes before someone is able to find him and begin to take care of him.
— he spends the next month healing, still mostly isolated. he didn't know how to show his face anymore. he was ashamed. he murdered and hurt so many others because of his possession. he was guilty.
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2017:
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2018:
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little boy inside my chest, beat my heart just like a drum. tell him i'll never forget, how it was when we were young.
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roy — adopted son of aurum — tags