08-16-2018, 12:14 AM
How Does Your Character Feel About Their Appearance?
Once upon a time, Atbash loved the way she looked. Her family was practically a hues of yellow, with her father being tan in color and her mother having more of a brownish pelt. Vigenere was a yellow color, while Caesar was a tad darker, while Atbash had an orange tint to her own pelt. It was a pretty strange combination and it honestly didn't make sense genetically, but hey, they were demons - what made sense anymore? Besides, Atbash liked their strange pelts and how they stuck out because it made it easier for her to identify her brothers.
But now, after everything that's happened to her, Atbash hated how she looked. One of her ears was charred and she bore scars on the right side of her neck and her right shoulder. It was hideous and Atbash wished she had been able to protect herself just so she wouldn't have gotten these scars. Hell, her own pelt was a mess, with how patchy the fur grew back from where it had been burned off. Atbash no longer had a sleek pelt that she used to have and no matter how many times she washed herself, fur still stuck up at an odd angle and didn't match the way she used to be. It felt weird, feeling the wind tug at those patches that stuck up.
And now, after the takeover, Atbash no longer had an eye on the left side of her face. The she-cat was horrifically scared at this point, and she wondered why anybody would ever like her now. She was a disgrace to Snowbound, mostly because her eye being ripped out wasn't from a war or something, it was from her cowardly ways. Stryker had taken over Snowbound due to them being so pacifist and "turning a blind eye" as he said, to those whom harmed the tribe. And it was true: Atbash didn't want to fight back other people whenever her tribe got hurt, in fear of losing more members of the tribe. She supposed that could be seen as heartless now, but she truly did care for her tribe's wellbeing. But in her decision, it cost Atbash her eye.
Atbash wanted to look normal, she really did, but without having the ability to possess new bodies or shapeshift like most demons could do, she didn't have that ability yet. Besides, even if she did, the scars would just transfer to the bodies so she wouldn't be safe from them no matter what she did. They were almost tied to her soul now, and it sucked. Atbash wanted to be pretty again, even if being beautiful was never an important thing before. Besides, having scars usually meant you fought in a lot of battles - like Vigenere - when her scars were just caused by her inability to protect herself. She couldn't even admit that was the reason they were there, how sad is that?
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