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[ATBASH CIPHER.]

Alone

    Atbash had always had this sense of being alone in her mind, although joining Snowbound had changed that a lot. But back when her System had first been exiled, Atbash had her first feeling of loneliness. When they had first gotten exiled, her brothers refused to talk to each other and she kind of had to act like a mediator and messenger between them. It sucked, because she wanted her siblings to get along and instead she was alone and had to act like she hated the other. When in all reality, she didn't, she just wanted them to get along. She wanted everybody to be happy. And eventually, that came, but was once again shot whenever Vigenere learned that he and the rest of the family (besides Caesar) could return to normal.

    After they escaped their burning Dimension, Vigenere had shooed off Caesar before their younger brother could beg them to go back to his side. Atbash appreciated Vigenere doing that, but she couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness as she watched their little brother run off somewhere with no idea where he would go. But at the time, she didn't care, mostly because of how much pain she was in due to the burns covering her body. She and Vigenere had eventually left towards Earth and they spend quite the majority of time together before he chased her off. Atbash absolutely didn't want to leave his side; not only because he was her source of protection. But he refused to listen to her pleas and threatened to attack her if she didn't leave, so she had to go off on her own and never look back.

    So that's how Atbash found herself joining Snowbound, because she had nowhere else to go and no way of protecting herself. She was glad that Snowbound was so welcoming, but she still couldn't help but feel a prickle of loneliness being here. She wasn't with her siblings and she wanted to be around them, and no matter how much of a family Snowbound was, they couldn't replace actual blood-related siblings. That was just fact. Vigenere and Caesar meant so much to her, despite the latter being an absolutely dick and hurting her. Atbash felt herself wanting to be around them, even though she was happy here. Nothing could replace family.

    But that didn't mean Atbash was unhappy here. She had a ton of friends, including Izuku and Cry. Both of them made her feel safer and protected, although not to the lengths that Vigenere provided. Despite that, Cry was able to calm her down and she felt a lot of feelings towards the avian. Atbash honestly didn't understand these feelings, but Cry made her feel all warm and happy inside and she almost didn't feel so alone anymore, but whenever Cry disappeared, it hurt. She wanted to be near Cry as much as she can, and she felt the same sort of loneliness as she did with her brothers whenever Cry wasn't around. Atbash couldn't explain why, but she did. She kind of wished she could ask Cry to be by her side all the time; she just... wasn't sure how.

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