random dump

[Seina]

INU
THE ASCANDANT - MEMBER - NINE MOONS — ♂️

He rememberd waking up on a field covered in oleander flowers. That was his first memory but more had woken up shortly afterwards. Most of them brought him back to the days he had lived in Hawkclan, the place with this people how had given him his name. Inu. So many memories associated with that name that had brought him joy and happiness. Littlestar,Mercy and...Haiiro. Just thinking about him made his heart flustered still, but his heart also felt pain because he knew no one of them was here anymore. Littlestar had died, and the same tragic had striken Mercy as well by the paws of Yuu. And Haiiro?. Inu had no idea what had happend to him but all he could do was hoping he was alive somewhere in the other world he had come from because he knew this one was not the same world. This was not the world he had been created. Inu knew what he was. A split up soul of memories that the real him not wanted anymore so had tried to destroy them but somewhere deep inside a protest had come from the deepest of the heart. Apart, no matter how small hadn't wanted to destroy Inu. It had been prectious memories of a dream the real him wished could have stayed in for forever. Memories of a time he wished to return back to - to become the person everyone had liked. So a Inner conflict between the two had happend and in the end it had been to much and so Inu had cut himself free and that was how life had got brought to him. He was the creation of a mad man how purpose was to full fill the dreams of a life the real him never could have because he didn't believe, didn't think he deserved it. Instead Inu was supposed to do that for him. To be some sort of redemption. He was supposed to found that happiness the real him never could find. To be happy for both of them.

Inu was perfectly satisfied with that. To be seperated and free to create his own story. To be cut free and get a opportunity to live his own life was the best thing that ever could have happend to him. Even if he still carried the same past, the same backage the difference was he not felt effected by it like the other did, only the events that had happend under the time as Inu was carried along with him. He was convinced the same thing was for the other him as well now free from the deaths of the people how had mattered for Inu. It was both negative and positive but honestly it was better this way not going to look back to instead lead a life forward to hopefully pick a better path for himself. Even if the past never could get erased or forgotten would try his hardest to move on forward, always and never look back at the unavoidable. The tragic events just couldn't be allowed to swollow him whole. Inu could do better, he knew he could.

Clans had never been his thing though. Remembering how the first time actually had made him join one. It had been build up form lies from his path. Hunting on Hawkclan territory only to later on collapse back on thier territory again after having got attacked and harmed by a hollow a demonic souless monster he hoped to never cross path with again. That was a ability he used to have thanks for once being a shinigami - aha, he guess it never had been him how had been one though. Nevermind that. Since waking up had felt very strange, like something was missing and had soon enough learned his powers not was working...How to feel about that Inu was not quite sure of but it probably didn't mattered much anyway, hopefully. Maybe they would come back something he did hoped for since even if it not was that much of a big deal it could still be benefical to have sometimes especially if needing to defend himself or to steal something. Yes, he was not intending to stop doing that. His cause was not really to live a pacifist of life. Survival had always meant a great thing for him, to put himself first, that was not going to change now. With the lost of this three most importand people in his life believed it was better to not get to close to others for a while, ever maybe even. It was to protect himself as well to prevent people from having expectations from him because if there would come a situation he had to pick himself and somebody else...the obivious choice would be himself.

Inu was not selfish. He was not the 'good' one of himself the the other him. All it meants was him being given a chance to live a different live, a more peaceful life without any chaos or to live a normal life. That was the main cause. Happiness was importand as well, but living a simple life was a good enough one for him.

Back to the topic of clans though. Even if he not liked that sort of civilsation to be surrended by strangers everyday it was better then to be out alone right now when he barely knew anything in this new world. For now it was better to adapt and count on other people. To observe and learn. The clan he had choosed just happend to be the closest one. Not much he really knew about the place aside from it was rumored to be peaceful and not seeking unecessery violence which was exactly what he needed right now so the perfect choice to pick, to melt in with the enviroment to start a life in the background there he hoped to not draw to much attention to himself. Would be alot easier that way. An other reason he prefered not to get close to others was because of his vampirism...He...could not control himself that special well remembering how he had lost it once and had attacked Mercy because of it. Not a day he would ever forget or forgive himself for. So staying away was not only for himself but others as well. Just one drop of blood and he could lose it.

A bit anxious over that finally appeared by the border and swollowed down deeply. A concern look was over his face, really hoping this would go quickly and smoothly. More then anything begged nothing would go wrong today.

© MADI