BUT SHE'S A FOREST FIRE | RETURN

[madster]

malphas had missed nayru, but he hadn't had a lot of time to think about her. between his near suicide attempt at the junkyard and him coming out of shell recently, he had a lot on his mind. on top of that... constant nightmares plagued him every night. it was always the same thing. he was glued to the ground as he watched hati get murdered by hyenas. sure, he knew that hati was alright, and not dead, but... his initial uselessness chilled him to the core and he couldn't stop thinking about it. and at the junkyard he nearly cut his own throat open if it wasn't for morgan.

nayru was probably going to have a field day with malphas' mental health.

he smelled nayru before he saw her, and his walking pace turned into a run. was she around? where had she been? the chaser slid over to her to watch her cry and then he felt a pain in his chest, similar to the one he had when he was having a panic attack. oh fuck, he thought. "nayru," he said, his voice shaking. "i... don't fuckin' cry, you're gonna make me cry too,"

then he was crying too. "i missed you. i mean, no i didn't. i'm lying." he realized he was attached to her and that wasn't good, but it was easy to call his bluff- he really did miss her. "fuck, just... i'm ok. i'm ok," he talked to himself. "nayru, it's ok. i missed you but i'm.. glad you're back." oh god. he was nice. that felt... weird. "will you at least tell me before you go running off again? without you i've got nobody to stop me from-" oops, he was about to let his whole suicide thing slide. "nobody to stop me from being stupid." there. now nayru wouldn't feel bad for him.