07-14-2018, 04:29 PM
PERSONALITY: Talia can easily be described as a go-getter. She doesn't back down, if her history says as much, and she refuses to let herself be talked down from a high if she truly believes that she's in the right. Strong-willed and devoted, her way of life can either be interpreted as determined or stubborn, depending on someone's perception. One might see a young woman who is not afraid to fight for her opinions, while another might see a desperate girl trying to cling onto whatever makes sense the most to her. One thing is for certain, once she has her fingers curled around something, it's not in her nature to let go, not even when her joints are beginning to snap.
She's protective of those who have made an impression on her and will consciously fight for their protection, freedom, and happiness - sometimes at the cost of her own if they are embedded deep enough in her heart. Talia refuses to let any of her kind suffer. Family is her biggest weakness. People who threaten to hurt her kind at knife-point will be quick to bring the young woman down, and for as long as the knife is still at their throat, she will remain knelt until she knows that the people close to her heart are safe. It's during these times that she is unable to take risks - she would never risk the life of somebody so close to her for something else.
While highly energetic, she can be patient when she needs to be. Hunting, for example, is an activity that needs a large amount of patience, observation, and skill - and Talia is a pretty effective hunter. It might come as a surprise to some people that she can be keen-eyed and observant if she wants to be, if only because those skills are needed in order to be good at taking down animals, however she's oblivious to this skill and isn't necessarily aware of what she's picked up until someone is pointing it out to her (and that's only if she even voices out her observations in the first place). While initially viewed as careless, Talia still has a sense of structured grace from years of military training mixed with a natural, wildfire soul.
Talia can also be particularly biased and morally ambiguous. She'd rather listen to what her family and friends are saying than to hear the claims of someone who is the opposite - in this way, she can be easily manipulated by those close to her into acting a certain way or doing a certain thing without having to worry about the possibility of being questioned. For Talia, what her brother says, for example, can be nothing more but a truth that she will believe in, and it'll take a lot for someone to convince her otherwise. Because she's only recently formed any form of attachment, she's afraid to do anything that may potentially breach that.
She has a very maternal flair to her, and kids have always been a soft spot for her, especially after spending a majority of her formative years seeing them suffer through lives they did not deserve. She would never willingly hurt a child unless for a valid reason (and it is not easy to make her believe this, regardless of who might be giving the order), and even then there will be a hint of reluctance in her actions, followed by a long period of mourning and regret. Talia dreams of having a family of her own but knows that, in the aftermath of such a recent war and in the fringes of a new one, it is not ideal nor possible.
In terms of romance, Talia is capable of giving so much love that it's a particularly odd sight to see in the wasteland. Loyal, devoted, and accepting, she, as a lover, is willing to see and understand her partner's flaws, to offer no judgement on her behalf, to make an effort to comprehend if she initially doesn't. She can go through so much pain in love that, sometimes, it feels like her heart may never heal - but she doesn't mind, she's ready to give and give what she can, even if there is nothing to be received. Her heart is a lonely soul, desperate to share moments in the nothingness with someone who can fill her with life and purpose as much as she can fill theirs... however, it's this desperation to love and equally be loved that causes her to be uncharacteristically a pushover.
She latches onto relationships even when she's aware that they do her no good because she's too afraid to be left behind again, forgotten and alone, isolated in a world written in death and destruction. Talia allows herself to be hurt, to be manipulated, to be torn piece by piece in the name of love and will often try to convince herself that the actions she receive are either for her own good, or completely justified and deserved.
In mistakes, she often blames herself for them, never the one to point fingers at another. As long as she is included in the equation, she never fails to see herself as a liability - and when things do go wrong, she knows exactly who to hurt. For all the jokes she makes about being good, being better, she knows in her heart that she's the first one that should be blamed when things go sideways, it's just who she is as a person. While physically capable, Talia is emotionally handicapped, and her strong-will towards ideal doesn't apply to her intrapersonal perception - towards herself, she's critical and harsh, unimpressed, unyielding, and overbearing. She needs acknowledgement and validation to let her know that she's doing the right thing, otherwise she'll constantly feel like she's messing things up.
Talia's young, after all, and she isn't sure of her place in the world just yet. She has many doubts about who she is and what her purpose is in a function, in an equation, in a group, or even in the Pack - this doubt can often be used against her, because the person she lacks faith in the most is herself. She's paddling with her head barely above the water like the rest of them, forced to grow up in a world where being impulsive can lead to certain tragedies a person should never even experience in one lifetime.
She's protective of those who have made an impression on her and will consciously fight for their protection, freedom, and happiness - sometimes at the cost of her own if they are embedded deep enough in her heart. Talia refuses to let any of her kind suffer. Family is her biggest weakness. People who threaten to hurt her kind at knife-point will be quick to bring the young woman down, and for as long as the knife is still at their throat, she will remain knelt until she knows that the people close to her heart are safe. It's during these times that she is unable to take risks - she would never risk the life of somebody so close to her for something else.
While highly energetic, she can be patient when she needs to be. Hunting, for example, is an activity that needs a large amount of patience, observation, and skill - and Talia is a pretty effective hunter. It might come as a surprise to some people that she can be keen-eyed and observant if she wants to be, if only because those skills are needed in order to be good at taking down animals, however she's oblivious to this skill and isn't necessarily aware of what she's picked up until someone is pointing it out to her (and that's only if she even voices out her observations in the first place). While initially viewed as careless, Talia still has a sense of structured grace from years of military training mixed with a natural, wildfire soul.
Talia can also be particularly biased and morally ambiguous. She'd rather listen to what her family and friends are saying than to hear the claims of someone who is the opposite - in this way, she can be easily manipulated by those close to her into acting a certain way or doing a certain thing without having to worry about the possibility of being questioned. For Talia, what her brother says, for example, can be nothing more but a truth that she will believe in, and it'll take a lot for someone to convince her otherwise. Because she's only recently formed any form of attachment, she's afraid to do anything that may potentially breach that.
She has a very maternal flair to her, and kids have always been a soft spot for her, especially after spending a majority of her formative years seeing them suffer through lives they did not deserve. She would never willingly hurt a child unless for a valid reason (and it is not easy to make her believe this, regardless of who might be giving the order), and even then there will be a hint of reluctance in her actions, followed by a long period of mourning and regret. Talia dreams of having a family of her own but knows that, in the aftermath of such a recent war and in the fringes of a new one, it is not ideal nor possible.
In terms of romance, Talia is capable of giving so much love that it's a particularly odd sight to see in the wasteland. Loyal, devoted, and accepting, she, as a lover, is willing to see and understand her partner's flaws, to offer no judgement on her behalf, to make an effort to comprehend if she initially doesn't. She can go through so much pain in love that, sometimes, it feels like her heart may never heal - but she doesn't mind, she's ready to give and give what she can, even if there is nothing to be received. Her heart is a lonely soul, desperate to share moments in the nothingness with someone who can fill her with life and purpose as much as she can fill theirs... however, it's this desperation to love and equally be loved that causes her to be uncharacteristically a pushover.
She latches onto relationships even when she's aware that they do her no good because she's too afraid to be left behind again, forgotten and alone, isolated in a world written in death and destruction. Talia allows herself to be hurt, to be manipulated, to be torn piece by piece in the name of love and will often try to convince herself that the actions she receive are either for her own good, or completely justified and deserved.
In mistakes, she often blames herself for them, never the one to point fingers at another. As long as she is included in the equation, she never fails to see herself as a liability - and when things do go wrong, she knows exactly who to hurt. For all the jokes she makes about being good, being better, she knows in her heart that she's the first one that should be blamed when things go sideways, it's just who she is as a person. While physically capable, Talia is emotionally handicapped, and her strong-will towards ideal doesn't apply to her intrapersonal perception - towards herself, she's critical and harsh, unimpressed, unyielding, and overbearing. She needs acknowledgement and validation to let her know that she's doing the right thing, otherwise she'll constantly feel like she's messing things up.
Talia's young, after all, and she isn't sure of her place in the world just yet. She has many doubts about who she is and what her purpose is in a function, in an equation, in a group, or even in the Pack - this doubt can often be used against her, because the person she lacks faith in the most is herself. She's paddling with her head barely above the water like the rest of them, forced to grow up in a world where being impulsive can lead to certain tragedies a person should never even experience in one lifetime.
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